Bevin: A Femme Over 40 and her Friends

Bianca is a Zoom-based personal trainer with a big heart and great cheerleading! As I have experiienced and shared on this podcast, sometimes those of us with big cheer to offer also have mental health struggles! As her friend I've witness Bianca develop exceptional self awareness and not only learn but use tools to regulate and recover. This episode is chock full of ideas for how to get back to center, how to define success for ourselves and how Bianca pivoted from nursing to personal training!

If you were born between 1989-1991 you are part of a micro generation of millenials with a specific destiny to help the world get better. It's giving "chosen one" vibes. As this generation is 33 right now (or coming soon), integrating the lessons of their Saturn returns in Capricorn, this is the time to decide you're going to live up to your potential in this lifetime! No pressure!

I'm pretty obsessed with this micro generation and invited my friend Jana on the podcast because she is a 1989 millenial AND she's a gifted astrologer, Akashic Records practitioner and tarot reader. Jana's readings are soothing and full of empowering homework to come into alignment with our life's purpose. This episode is great for astro-nerds and astro-newbies alike. And Swifties, of course.

Releasing this on Lesbian Visibility Day (April 27th) because it's never a bad time to be your most authentic self! Love you!

Jerri had an alien encounter in June gathering with our cannasisters and had another one with me and her sister Michelle on 03/17/2023 in Loomis, CA. We talk about the circumstances of each experience, how they overlap and what the experience felt like. (I was shocked!) We also talk about our whole trip to the women's wellness cannabis retreat we were attending when we met our Star Family! "Follow Taylor Swift's voice" is my favorite part of our tale.

Jerri is a you tuber, bullet journal designer and has her own podcast! You can hit up Michelle through Jerri!

My episode with Jerri on her podcast: https://youtu.be/AzNOntYENgY

Jerri's You Tube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@jerribberry

Jerri's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jerribberry/

Glowing Goddess Sisterhood: https://www.instagram.com/glowinggoddesssisterhood/

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DISCLAIMER: The information and experience in this episode are not a substitute for medical care. I encourage you to advise with your trusted medical professional before seeking healing through plant medicines of any kind.

Tamara healed the effects of her alcohol use with conscientious use of psilocybin. She now facilitates cohorts of community healing together with earth medicines. I just completed her Winter Microcosm/Macrocosm cohort with profound results in my brain, spiritual connection and well-being! We also talk about Tamara's journey to become a full time healer and her build out of her dream home with her partner made with their bare hands and you tube! 

One of the most potent things you'll do moving into the next phase of your life is determine who is going to influence you! Scott K. Smith is back on the podcast with a Solstice candle magick ritual! We talk through the ethics of spiritual leadership falling down conspiracy rabbit holes and how to choose who and how people influence us. Trusting your intuition and your intimate connection with the Divine is the most important skill you will develop! Scott is here to help!

Jes Baker's fifth word on this podcast is a swear word. I love her brilliant mind and bold use of language and am so thrilled for you to hear her tools for unlocking the wisdom of your body! The first glitches Jes observed in the Matrix was when she was being raised in Mormonism. Their journey publishing and creating as the Militant Baker focusing on fat liberation for eight years has evolved! "There's a moment where I digested fat stigma intellectually but it didn't get me where I want to go." Jes followed the yeses into training in Somatics. "Somatics is what comes after the intellectual deconstruction of the paradigm that bodies are measured against each other. Systems of oppression rely on our disconnection from our bodies." The spiritual aspects of having a body, creating personal ritual and ceremony is now a big part of what Jes is creating in the world and what they are teaching!

Colin is back and fresh from filming the new reality dating show he lent his astrology expertise to--Written in the Stars premiers on Discovery+ on November 27th! On this episode we talk show biz filming--best case scenario, Colin reports--and the process of partner pre-selection! Chiron, the wounded healer of the zodiac, is heavy in our convo about how to address those wounds that keep popping up! The balance between friends and family, responsiblity and freedom, rejection, money, and so much more! 

Colin's show! https://www.discoveryplus.com/ie/show/written-in-the-stars

Previous episode 96 with Colin about values: https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/96--Colin-Bedell-of-Queer-Cosmos-Discerning-Values-to-Create-a-Life-Worth-Living-e145hdt/a-a63f69k

Previous episode 68 with Colin about his back story! https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/68--Colin-Bedell--Queer-Cosmos-eo7bfk/a-a475usk

Colin's website: https://www.queercosmos.com/

Colin's IG: https://www.instagram.com/queercosmos/

Afraid people are easier to control and we are programmed with shame and guilt to make us tools for systems of oppression. The good news about shame being something we are programmed to feel is that we can deprogram ourselves and undo that brain washing! 

In this episode I walk through tools to create a personal growth plan to release guilt and shame so you can live the life you were meant to live. I believe everyone has unique dreams and gifts only they can bring the world and your shame is standing in the way of your unique thrive!

This whole podcast is full of people who have healed from limited thinking and show a myriad of ways to be a happy, successful adult! I highly recommend digging into the archives!

Content Warning: Suicidal thoughts. Part of my mental health plan when I am feeling suicidal is to review how can I radically resource my wellness right now? How can I clear and drop everything that’s not benefitting my mental health? So I took an unplanned and unannounced break from podcasting. I'm back now, I'm doing way better and feel leveled up in my discernment and connection to the Divine. Let's visit! Coming soon with more interviews and podcasts!

Here are the blog posts I mention that have my mental health plan and help you get started making yours: https://queerfatfemme.com/2022/09/22/suicide-prevention-awareness-how-i-create-impulse-control-for-myself/

https://queerfatfemme.com/2022/10/03/suicide-prevention-awareness-how-i-address-suicidal-thoughts/

This episode is on you tube with auto generated captions! 

I'm so passionate about helping folks use Patreon to nurture and support their ongoing creative and world changing work! I know consultants, activists, psychics, healers, musicians, visual artists, you tube creators, group projects, and so many other types of creators who use Patreon to keep their work going. It's a really cool platform with a lot of flexibility and resources. Here's much of what I've learned in nearly four years using the app as a primary source of income. And much of what I've learned from studying Prince Rogers Nelson about creating a body of work that I think is very well nurtured by Patreon and the death of record labels.

Resources/cool creators I mentioned in the episode: 

You've probably heard the saying that gossip is the thief of abundance and joy. I noticed in my early adulthood that friends I connected to through gossip ended up being untrustworthy. (If they'll do it with you they'll do it to you.) Because I wanted to level up my vibe and my association I got very clear about what gossip is versus what it is not, and set boundaries about the type of information sharing I will participate in. I talk about these lessons and why I decided to build a bionic bullshit detector. Hopefully these lessons will help you discern who you invest your energy with and examine your intentions! 

Chrissy Tolley is an excellent teacher of intuition and observation for empaths / psychics. Her best method involves her great passion: hilarious scrutiny of human dynamics on reality television. 

Chrissy talks about her new project Reality TV Psychic, her new Patreon which is a metaphysical community with a side of reality tv, and best practices to avoid demonic possession. (Trust a professional psychic to know how this happens--the best defense is a good offense!)

Reality TV Psychic on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/chrissytolley

Reality TV Psychich on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/realitytv.psychic/

Chrissy Tolley on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/chrissytolley/

Chrissy's website: https://chrissytolley.com/book-now

It was undeniable to me that my brain was likely ADHD when my favorite productivity expert received her diagnosis. Why did her systems work so well for me? I started to recognize the signs because I had done lots of work on myself to embrace neurodivergence and different ways to thrive in this world that stigmatizes differences and mental health. Hopefully my story will help you create sovereignty over how you perceive your brain/body/life/experiences.

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Catholics aren't widely known for being sexually liberated, but Skip Bacon is a Catholic theologian with a lot of opinions about sex ed. She's also a stand-up comedian! We talk bodies, the puberty of the Christ, starting a faith journey and what she does when Catholic women ask her about sex.

Getting injured last week has given me the opportunity to work on my mindset around rest, recovery and surrender. It's also given me more time to watch streaming shows and movies and I have recommendations! Netflix has The Lake House and You've Got Mail, Amazon Prime has Lizzo's Watch Out for the Big Grrrls, and HBO Max has Dr. Brene Brown's The Atlas of the Heart. Heartily recommend! Reflections on growth and surviving this pandemic--I hope you'll enjoy!

Mskindness is on this planet to teach us how to elevate our lives! Her education about healing with Cannabis, hair care line and book The Root Family's Very Special Garden support families in a refreshingly empowering way. We talk healing mental health with psilocybin, destigmatizing the plant in parenting and much more!

Mskindness' website: https://mskindnessofficial.com/

Mskindness' Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mskindnessb/

Leah is my favorite decolonial teacher. I learn so much from her! An Akashic Records teacher and phd student of ontology (the study of reality) I love the way she thinks and connects to information. We talk fatphobia, disgust, belonging, trauma, cancel culture, how to level up emergent timelines to save Earth from climate change. SO MUCH! 

Mama Sam is a plant healing musician, community builder and international business woman. She co-founded Tokeativity, the largest women's cannabis community in the world! She knows a lot about healing with psilocybin and non-psychedelic mushroom medicine! Sam is a plant maximalist and stuff minimalist and has much to share about parenting while using plant medicine and becoming willing to hear the truth revealed to us through the use of plants.

Sam on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/prismhousepdx/

Tokeativity on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tokeativity/

Tokeativty website (register for a free grass roots membership!): https://tokeativity.com/

Mama Sam and the Jam on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mamasamandthejam/

Mama Sam and the Jam LinkTree: https://linktr.ee/MamaSamandtheJam

Aunt Mimi is a ball of joy and radiates love! She also lives with chronic pain. In 2016 she turned a corner in how she experienced her body and leaned into learning mindfulness. She has lots of resources to share that worked for her! One of those tools was leaning into joy and delight! Cannabis and other plant medicine help! She's an incredibly talented jewelry maker, creating canna accessories covered in treasures as Pimp My Pipe. Out of necessity makes incredible salves, teas and thick thigh butter as Aunt Mimi's Apothecary. Explore her world through her links and enjoy our conversation!

Intuition is data processed too fast for our logical mind to understand. My intuition is the biggest topic I have in therapy because sometimes it feels BONKERS to me to go against my logical mind. Learning to trust myself, my inner knowing, my connection to Source has been one of the singular most important skills I have. My primary goal as a mom is to teach my kids to follow their inner knowing. The past two weeks my intuition has saved me from burn out by guiding me to rest more. I've gotten so creative during this time and it's been really helpful. I hope this episode helps YOU! (P.S. I had an interview scheduled that I intuitively knew was going to get rescheduled! HA!)

My friend Noemi is a Tapping Wizard! I've been working with her one on one to release trauma and energetic blocks through EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique aka Tapping). Life changing! Such an incredible modality. We talk tapping with a brief demo, using psychedelics for emotional wellness, toad medicine, divorcing our attention from the news and stepping into the fullness of our destiny!

Noemi's Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/noemisparks

Noemi on IG: https://www.instagram.com/iamnoemisparks/

Noemi's Morning Self Care Journal: https://amzn.to/3Lh9ZvY

I love the saying that God first speaks in a metaphor and then a two by four? That reminds me of burn out. Burn out is our body's alarm system telling us we need a full control alt delete reset! My friend Jennifer Axcell is an amazing entrepreneur with a big heart. Her desire to serve so much burnt her out and she's spent the past year rebuilding. She uses plant medicine, including psilocybin, to intentionally self care back from burn out. Her work now is to empower other entrepreneurs to do the same. She's also an identical twin (Gemini!) which has influenced some of her most profound realizations. Enjoy this conversation and I hope it inspires you to take breaks and create intentional rest!

My previous episode with Jennifer (Episode 56): https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/56--Jennifer-Axcell--Co-Founded-the-first-Free-Cannabis-Nurse-Hotline-ekg04j/a-a3drdf9

Jennifer on IG: @jenniferaxcell for plant medicine https://www.instagram.com/jenniferaxcell/

@her.s.e.l.f for burnout recovery and self care journey https://www.instagram.com/her.s.e.l.f/

@herhighestself_retreats is for her retreats https://www.instagram.com/herhighestself_retreats/

Grieving my dad brought up grief I didn't have the tools to process at the time. My step mom Liz died when I was 19. I could have anticipated that his death would bring it up but I didn't. However, grieving her freshly has been surprisingly pretty sweet and inspired me to take some big action in my life to develop myself into a more loving person--like she was. More grief talk on this episode! Quality of grief is quality of life!!

Fat Kid Dance Party Aerobics turns five years old on March 2, 2022! I'm thrilled that I've found the gift I'm uniquely meant to bring to the Earth and that it's already sustained so long! I can't wait to see what the next fifty years bring! But before I figured this aerobics class out I had a winding career through law school and residential real estate and nightlife production and various small businesses and side hustles. I share about my experience to inspire YOU to figure out what YOUR special gift is to bring to the Earth. I think everyone has some special way they are meant to create and connect.

My dad passed away one month ago and I've learned a lot on the ground walking through this grief. Every grief is an opportunity to open up to more loving on the other side of the pain. I have also learned you gotta walk through the pain or you end up paying for it with interest. The father/daughter relationship I had already grieved for quite some time but you can't outsmart the pain of actual death. Part of what helps me get through the hardest days is knowing that I can teach from the pain. Hopefully this can help you when you next need a pal in grief. Sending lots of love!!

Recorded live on Zoom this is a 10 minute class with testimonials from some of my beloved Regulars about Fat Kid Dance Party aerobics on Zoom! We have made such a special community over the past nearly five years, it's nourishing for mind, body and soul!

When Deidra came back to the community from having been down for a month with Covid, she declared, "Rest is my LOVER." She needed epic amount of rest for her body to recuperate and it has ignited a newfound redirection in how she prioritizes the needs of her body versus productivity. Since she's my favorite person to talk about plant based foods I wanted to talk about living my best life air frying plants (especially potatoes!!) and the best vegan dips! Really Deidra loves dips and drops some great recipes. She's also a multi-hyphenate entrepreneur and the lifestyle of the entrepreneur is definitely a risk taking one and we talk about taking command of your life, your dreams by stepping away from the 9 to 5 grind. (Grind culture is dead! Long live rest culture!!)

Previous episodes with Deidra: 

I noticed I was having massive resistance to setting goals and using a planner. Turning myself from a stressed out Type A person to being more of an "in the flow" artist was life saving for me, but I also recognize my big dreams won't come true if I don't take action. I got curious about my resistance to goals and using planners and recognized shame was holding me back! Shame is something we learn from people and systems. I have busted through and set some goals for myself this year. I'm also one month into successfully using a planner! I share my process and my inquiry!

Covid is a disease of many losses! My birthday is tomorrow and I feel like a total birthday Grinch because I don't want to risk Covid exposure. I am, once again, asking God for the courage to accept the things I cannot change. I got triggered today and talk through how I weathered that moment to release it. I hope it helps you get clarity on whatever you're going through this wacky and wonderful Second Pandemic Holiday season!

Scott K. Smith just finished a Reiki manual that might lead you to a better more resilient version of yourself. My own path as a Reiki Master Healer has absolutely rooted me in a spiritual life path. Scott is one of my favorite people to talk about spiritual philosophy with and we discussed a prediction for the Age of Aquarius that a third of people will die, a third of people will go mad and a third of people will ascend. We talk how to navigate the mass death that's already underway, and how we ensure we are green and growing in the new world that is unfolding. 

Happy Solstice! My previous conversations with Scott!

https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/60--Scott-K--Smith-Shadow-work--darkness-and-light-in-witchcraft-elpgcd/a-a3msmhj

https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/14--Scott-K-Smith-on-Connecting-to-the-Magic-We-All-Have-Inside-e9gcs9/a-a15i146

Kendrra went to art school... for an area of art she actually hates! She's now creating art in entirely new ways and leading groups for other creative cannabis entrepreneurs. Later in life discovery of her autism helps her make peace with the ways she has been different (and a genius artist) all her life. We talk using lifestyle and changing how we see "work" to minimize chronic health conditions, perfectionism, how to know when a creative piece is "done" and so much more!   

Ashley Manta (The Cannasexual) is truly the kind of teacher who goes the way and shows the way! She has been working to heal her CPTSD and depression using lots of modalities over the year and in the pandemic needed a level up. We talk about her recent Ketamine treatments, the process and the result. We also discuss her exceptional course Activating Your Cosmic Pussy and how she leads vulva owners in connection, growth, satisfaction and liberation!

How do we find a song on our hearts every day when we carry the weight of what could or should have been with loved ones? When we get caught in thought loops that bring us down or are in the acute stages of grief? How do we harness our power on our Holiday Mornings. What traditions are meaningful to us? How do we release our expectations and connect to our joy even while carrying grief?

All that and my favorite never miss holiday breakfast casserole recipe--Spotted Owl Casserole!

Maybe your body has changed in the past couple years. Maybe you are annoyed anticipating what folks might say about your body. Maybe you're feeling frustrated with your body? Maybe you just can't seem to make peace with it? Here's a pep talk for that.

Creativity can be really hard. Imposter syndrome! Feeling like making a thing and not finishing is a waste of time (it's not)! Freezing because what you say could be criticized! (Everything you fear will come to pass and you will be okay.) I talk about my recent call to create more than I consume and how I've been getting through all of these head blocks. I assure you that the world needs what only you have to offer and part of the creative process is letting it be messy!

My friend Meredith ditched her corporate life for a life on the road boondocking in a small red truck! She lived on the road for several months this year. She shares her story of how she planned, visioned and executed her life on the road. If you have dreams of travel life I hope this inspires you to think about what is possible for you!

This episode (without the intro) is also on You Tube! https://youtu.be/6OlUfjC-LEo

Meredith is now going to base her life out of a plant medicine friendly bed and breakfast in the Northern California Redwoods! https://www.riverbarpharms.com/

Meredith on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/hippiedippiegypsy/

Personal values (also known as core values) are beliefs that are so important to you that they guide how you organize your behavior and association. Values are a great way to know yourself and being clear and prioritized with your values makes decision making much easier. Especially in terms of who you are going to invest time and collaboration. We live in a world that teaches us to people please, say yes to everything and run on other's priorities. Having values clear makes being unique easier! And we are all unique by design!

In this episode I talk through my personal values and give a list of other possible values. 

While this episode is optimized for you tube (see link below in show notes), the first 20 minutes are great for an audio podcast about healing with art!  

Does the art heal us or do we heal through the art? 

I walk through a career retrospective with visual artist Mindie Gum-Grivell. Her Creatch collection began as an art practice that has developed so many delightful layers! Characters, aesthetic, personal branding, merchandising--as a brand nerd I just adore this on so many layers.  Our conversation touches the work I've been doing to heal my social anxiety and the importance of connecting to people and communities who see the divinity within you.  

Leah Garza taught me how to question what even is "normal." Decolonizing our mind is some of the most important work we can do on ourselves to reclaim our power from systems of oppression. Learning how to think for yourself comes with great teachers and Leah is great at showing how to question the colonizer in our mind.

Leah is a phD student in Ontology--the study of reality. She's also a reader of the Akashic Records. We talk about both of these at length. Leah is truly unforgettable and sharp!

I left my quarantine for the first time since March 2020! I went camping with friends in Southern Oregon and had a blast! I share all about the trip, plant medicine in the woods, taking covid precautions and grieving our friend Purple Courtney together. Cultivating joy and grief in the same space is beautiful and healing.

Casey has been a working psychic medium for decades! We talk about how she grew up, opened up to her gifts, how she creates boundaries with seeing clients. She and her husband also work together alongside each other in a muggle business and she gives her tips for a long lasting relationship. I asked for some tips on grieving and on working with our own psychic power!

Connect with Casey here--she asks for DMs: https://www.facebook.com/Casey-PsychicMedium-and-Yogi-extraordinare-478519665534638

Beautiful Existence (B3 for short) is an oracle! In this episode we talk about the Age of Aquarius and how to level up for that. We also explore the entirety of humanity, connecting with nature and spirits. B3 truly channeled and downloaded a lot of information for us!! Take notes!

B3 mentions the experience of embodiment as a full five sensory experience! I want to encourage you to really hear that and think about how you can embody your own beautiful existence even deeper!

This episode is also on you tube!

Episode 18, my previous episode with Beautiful Existence from back in the before times, January 2020: https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/18--Beautiful-Existence-is-a-Business-Oracle--Plant-Spirit-Channel-and-Wants-You-to-Live-Your-Greatness-ea3glf/a-a19q4er

B3's website--$1.99 a month for SOURC3 membership: https://www.yoursoulsovereignty.com/

Cannabis Tarot: https://www.yoursoulsovereignty.com/cannabis-tarot

B3 on IG: https://www.instagram.com/beautifulexistence/

We live in a time when almost everyone is grieving. Rarely are we taught how to grieve. Grief is a response to change, and how we integrate life altering experiences and losses. I go through my best tips for moving through grief. Content warning--suicide.

This episode is for informational purposes only. It's not intended to provide advice--consult your healthcare professionals before consuming anything you haven't consumed before or in new ways. 

Plant medicine has been an important ally in my personal spiritual and health journey. I find it helps me sit with the truth of my experience in life, reveals things to me in a way that is more gentle than going alone, and helps me find places that need more tenderness. I talk about my experience microdosing with psilocybin and using reset trips to connect and support my ongoing mental health work. 

It's Virgo Season what better time to brush up on your excellent mornings? How we begin our days is how we experience them and I've found habits and routines have a profound impact on my mental and emotional well-being! I run through how I suggest you figure out what is necessary for your routines and tell you all about mine so you can figure out a template for you!

Scarlett of Dirty Lola Shop is one of my favorite artists! She illustrates full time and has been working on her own brand on the side. Ever evolving as an artist, she has a really cool story spending time in fashion houses in Paris! Ooh lala! We talk about the journey to becoming a full time artist-- though Scarlett went to art school she has a different opinion of school now. We also talk about her work with Trap, Neuter, Release helping slow down feral cat populations, adopting pets, how she became a cat lady from not growing up with them and the process of buying and fixing up a home in Southern California. 

My beloved shih tzu Macy lived very happy and comfortable elder years thanks to CBD therapy. I talk through how I treated her and my additional needs cat Biscuit Reynolds with CBD. If you're curious about using cannabis with a pet, I thought this tale would be valuable for you! 

Vet CBD: https://vetcbd.com/

For this 100th episode of the podcast I wanted to create something valuable for folks. How I've healed from a really traumatic childhood with caregiver abuse and bullies is possibly my greatest achievement. My mom went through a lot of hardship raising me as a single mom, including the fact that I was frequently bullied (for my weight and for just being different). I wanted to talk through some of her experiences in case it helps anyone out there who is raising or will be raising kids. Especially in navigating the school system, as my mom became a teacher and then took on advocating for the at risk kids she taught in her classroom.

For more on my mom's background, listen to our first episode together--Episode 16: https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/16--My-Mom--On-Living-Tiny--the-Origins-of-My-Name-and-My-Birth-Story-e9r7sg/a-a17tedm

As a former attorney I have so many thoughts about Erika Jayne and what she's going through with her divorce from Tom Girardi. It's all playing out on this season of Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. I tried to quit watching housewives and made it almost a year and a half but now that I have access to it I couldn't help but dive in to find out from Erika the truth of her relationship. I'm surprised to realize the work I've been doing on rooting out patterns of emotional abuse in my own life play into how I perceive their relationship and the lawsuits against Erika.

My recent retread into RHOBH this season means I've gotten to witness--and fall in love with--Kathy Hilton. She's hilarious and relatable as someone who seems to enjoy chill and worthwhile conversation as much as I do. She's the mother of Paris and after watching Paris' documentary about being abused and traumatized at a boarding school for troubled teens I have so many thoughts about both of them and what happens when you repress a child's natural personality. I'm reading the book Wired that Way and highly recommend it as a guide to learning how to love the different people around you!

Finally Jinger Duggar Vuolo was recently on a podcast talking about growing up famous on a reality show and simultaneously incredibly sheltered and how her life is unfolding in Los Angeles. It's a must-listen if you've ever been a Counting On / 19 Kids and Counting fan. 

Links!

Wired that Way: https://amzn.to/2TGBtG2

Rachel Kimsey and I have been friends in law for over two decades! She's a voice and motion picture actress (she voices Wonder Woman in Justice League) in addition to being an intentional mom of two toddlers and pregnant with her third. Her mindful body positive parenting, her wise reflection on her life and choices and her current homesteading are so inspirational to me. She was raised Mormon and went to BYU but as her world perspective grew she made more choices that were in alignment with her own life path. Her story of family connection through shifting faith is so beautiful. Rachel Kimsey is a great example of risking vulnerability and authenticity in exchange for a beautifully satisfying life. 

The chicken drama of the past few months is SUCH an amazing tale--don't miss the chicken chat in this episode!

Rachel on Instagram & Twitter: @rachelkimsey

Rachel's website: RachelKimsey.com

Mindie recently celebrated seven years with her business Aries Art NW! I've always admired how she mindfully creates and approaches entrepreneurship. We talk about balancing personal and professional passions, how sometimes our dreams need a day job, living frugally to support the dream and taking our power back from limiting beliefs. 

Mindie is a fellow Goddess Guide at the Glowing Goddess Getaway and we talk about using cannabis as a spiritual and medicinal tool to glow up!   

Mindie on Instagram: @ariesartnw @smokingladylife  

Mindie's website: https://ariesartnw.com/ 

Join us at the Glowing Goddess Getaway this year at our monthly getaways! Patreon.com/glowinggoddessgetaway  

Colin Bedell is back to discuss astrology and relational intelligence! We discuss what values are and how to form them, using them in decision making and to create a life by design. We chat body currency and why Colin stopped modeling. Time and what it does for us and how much alone time we need in order to bring our best selves to the work we do and the world around us. PLUS lots of tidbits about our current astrology (new moon in Cancer! Leo season is coming!).

Episode 68 is my first episode with Colin six months ago during the Full Moon in Cancer: https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/68--Colin-Bedell--Queer-Cosmos-eo7bfk/a-a475usk

Yvonne is the Travel and Event Director for the Glowing Goddess Getaway and keeps things moving seamlessly front and back of house! She's also the Executive Director of the Cannabis Travel Association. Over two decades of travel and event experience and pioneering cannabis tourism, Yvonne is as kind as she is smart and organized! 

Yvonne began using cannabis to replace five pharmaceuticals. She has three daughters and talks about coming out of the cannabis closet with them. I'm excited for you to meet Yvonne and hear her safety tips for traveling solo!

Yvonne on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/yvonne_lcatravel/

See our Smiles on the You Tube of our conversation! Look for Self Care Party on You tube, and my playlist "Live Podcast Recordings" or just click this link: https://youtu.be/C4NF3F4lVSo

Cannabis Travel Association: https://www.cannabistravelassociation.org/

This past weekend I had a transformative experience! Getting my cup filled at the Glowing Goddess Getaway virtual retreat and practicing receiving love at my online bachelorette party really opened me up to a new level. I talk through both experiences and hope to embolden you to crack open something you have been holding back on.

GGG virtual retreat start here: https://fb.watch/6lhdIse2X7/

Transmuting pain and recognizing patterns has been a big part of my healing in the past few years and I just learned some perspective I'm excited to share. I'm so in my growth zone to practice receiving by throwing an online bachelorette party for myself! It's been interesting to plan this and step into the congratulations for just being single and not dating anyone right now. All this and looking forward to the Glowing Goddess Getaway season starting up this weekend with our first digital getaway! 

Bachelorette Tee Shirts: https://genuinevalentine.com/collections/fat-kid-dance-party

Come to my Online Bachie June 20, 2021: https://www.eventhi.io/event/bevins-online-bachelorette-party-4793

Glowing Goddess Getaway: https://www.facebook.com/glowinggoddessgetaway

No matter what you do Life is going to LIFE at you. How you deal with all that LIFE LIFING is the key to living well. I think adaptability is one of the key traits to delay the effects of getting older on the body and brain. I talk through all of the key things I've learned about becoming more adaptable. I used to resist change and suffered a lot for it. Now I've learned to adapt and appreciate the circumstances around me because it helps me weather them with less suffering and more joy! I hope this helps y'all!

Alex Altomonte aka Alex the Medium is back on the podcast! One of my beloved psychic friends we check in about the pandemic, travel, being cautious and "safe" while also acknowledging the play we need to create! During the pandemic Alex followed his alignment and opened a brick and mortar and web store in a tiny New York State town with his partner. It's a great story and so relevant for anyone who is on an entrepreneurial path. We talk about creativity, play and being a vessel for spiritual alignment to express through you. Release the need to plan and dive in and visualize yourself being in the space of creation! 

Check out my first episode with Alex for more on his back story and how he came to be on his path as a self-described "reluctant medium!" Episode 30: https://anchor.fm/bevin/episodes/30--Alex-the-Medium-There-is-No-Going-Back-to-Normal-ecan9h/a-a1re9u6

May 6th is International No Diet Day! Started in 1992 it moved through feminist circles before it became a hashtag on social media! I reflect on celebrating this day with friends and food, my body journey and the things I wish I had done to speed up my journey to loving my body and self! I launched my award-winning body positive queer nightlife party Rebel Cupcake on International No Diet Day in 2010 and reminisce on how great it was to have a space to dance and gather! 

The book I recommend for the body love journey is Sonya Renee Taylor's The Body is Not an Apology: https://amzn.to/2RxUw3Q

If you think you might do business in the Cannabis space, you need to know Beth aka The Hemp Huntress. Beth has been helping entrepreneurs in the cannabis and plant medicine space for a long time and with her new venture seeks to support entrepreneurs in the information age bring their gifts to the world. There's so much to navigate and Beth and her team can create a plan to keep you in your zone of genius while creating more simplicity in the difficult parts of building a business. 

Beth has also lived a full dynamic life! She created a drag king night at a bar in Denver in the 90s that reached MTV and mainstream TV! Coming out in the 90s! Living the Dead Head adventure! Beth has stories! 

Grab your favorite childhood blanket and cuddle up on the virtual porch with me and your new friend Beth!

Hoi Polloi Start-Up Advisors: https://www.hoipolloiadvisors.com/

Beth is Hemp Huntress on all the social media!

Beth on Instagram: Instagram.com/hemphuntress

Beth's Grateful Dead Playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLhtNVI1251lKMScooiOzhsWPS9ey_iZ8l

I received a question from a listener about developing a spiritual practice and where to start. The only thing I can teach on is my own experience! I talk about my shift to opening up to spirituality but paid particular attention to the places I receive spiritual nourishment at the present moment. My hope is it will inspire you to develop your own spiritual practice (if you want one) and/or give you some ideas of folks to connect to who can help guide you on your path! Grab a notepad!

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Mags returns to the podcast! We talk finding balance between freedom and connection. Doing the radical self acceptance work to unearth who we are from the programs and systems we are encoding. Once our belonging is no longer hostage to conformity, who will we become?

Mags' previous episode is number 24, in February 2020.

Mags on Instagram:

https://www.instagram.com/magsesq/

Ragen Chastain is a champion for health at every size. She's a speaker, writer, marathoner, on year eight of training to be an Iron distance triathlete! I adore and admire Ragen's persistence as an athlete and a warrior fighting for body liberation! We talk internet haters, athletics in a fat body, standing up to bullies and best practices for being fat at the doctor's office!

Madin Ray Lopez founded Project Q in their twenties! After beginning to cut hair at 16, Madin saw the profound impact hair had on the self image of their clients. In 2012 they began what has developed into Project Q today--supporting LGBTQIA+ homeless youth. Madin's care for the youth they serve is clear! From the "hairstream" trailer traveling pre-covid times to LGBTQIA+ centers across the United States, to the present day food and hygiene boxes serving the direct needs of their clients during the pandemic. We talk sustaining a non-profit, spirituality, a call to serve and impact humanity. And their super sweet love story with Sabine, their wife, who I interviewed on Episode 26 of the podcast!

Gregory Littley is a heart-lead creative who helps brands make content with impact. He also taught me how to use the new social media app Clubhouse and more importantly, how to give and receive value out of it! We talk authenticity and being out in corporate life. If you're a content creator in any field you want to tune in and learn from Gregory!  

Jeffrey Marsh is a viral sensation! Known for warmth and acceptance on the social media, thoughtful articles and the incredible book How to Be You, Jeffrey is truly a hug on the internet. Their book How to Be You is an incredible roadmap back to yourself, part memoir, part self acceptance essays and part journaling prompts. 

We talk about Jeffrey's coming out (mom drove off the road), BOUNDARIES, and being kind not nice. Long walks. Self care. Luxuriating in the experience of being exactly who you are.

I started out being a fan of April Flores and as fate would have it we became friends! She truly is my favorite sex performer/porn star of all time (she's that good) and she's a really fantastic, loving, deep human being. April was an early life widow losing her husband and collaborator, photographer Carlos Batts seven years ago when he was just forty years old. We talk grieving, resilience, love, making family, creating in this new subscription economy and being unapologetic fat girls!

Deidra Bliss is a homeschooling mom, entrepreneur and award winning cannabis creator. She's also completely obsessed with plants! Deidra is the co-founder of the Glowing Goddess Getaway, a women's self care cannabis retreat, and she is very focused on helping folks glow up with plants! We talk about entheogens and how to use them to open up consciousness and vibe up during covid. Microdosing, hero tripping, mushrooms, DMT and of course, cannabis. We also talk about eating plant-based (she's not strictly vegan but she's focused) and her newest passion--house plants! Don't forget to check out Episode 5 of this podcast for my first conversation with Deidra (trust me, you want to hear her backstory)!

I met Claire Coughlin Powell because we are both passionate about self care and cannabis! We met via the Glowing Goddess Getaway retreats and I have been attending her laughter yoga club since Summer 2020. Laughter yoga is nothing I expected but everything I needed! Claire has a wonderful cannabis origin story, raised in a family with cannabis use. She's living out the vitality of enjoying the sacred present moment and the seasons of life. She's a mom of two teenagers and began her San Jose laughter yoga club fifteen years ago. Beginning a venture with toddlers is a wild ride and we talk about all of it!

Claire's email (to get the invites to laughter club): claire at laughanyway.com

Rest is Essential! Beginning in November 2020, I kept getting messages from Spirit that I needed to rest. I began a journey over the last couple months of reflecting on what rest means to me, how much rest I really need, and what I wasn't doing when I was distracting myself with endless events. 

I don't do Resolutions, I do intentions or themes! So much easier and more effective! I also discuss moon ceremonies and the profound impact they've had on my groundedness in these times. Plus more New Year reflections and wishes for 2021.

Tiffany Watkins is the Founder and CEO of Vanguard Media Online, a platform of support and recognition for Women owned companies in the cannabis industry. She's been involved in advancing compassionate use of cannabis since the early AIDS Pandemic. We talk entrepreneurialism, equity in cannabis, coming out, spirituality and sustainability of movements. 

Sailene Ossman returns to the podcast! She is a multipassionate entrepreneur in the Cannabis space, here to teach us everything we need to know about living our best life with non-psychoactive Cannabis products. CBD and so much more, as you'll learn! We also connected about Jesus. Sailene was raised Seventh Day Adventist and went on her own spiritual journey away from religiosity and dogma, coming back to a nourishing and individual relationship with Jesus. Join us on the virtual porch as we connect for the second time! Find her backstory and more conversation in Episode 20!

Since I became an aerobics instructor the most common question I get from folks is "I'm Worried About My Loved One's Health, What Should I Do?" "I want this person to do your aerobics class." Well, here's my answer to how I think you should approach your experience with your friend. 

Content warning, in the latter part of the episode I'm processing my friend choosing to end their life via suicide and if I could have influenced Nyrie's mental health practices I would have. They asked for my advice frequently, I gave it, but they didn't take action. 

It is a devastating reckoning about my own experience with mental health. 

I hope you know that shame is what keeps us from real human connection and life experience. Empower yourself to change who you really can change--yourself. 

Yoga teachers I referenced: 

Lisa Snyder is the co-founder of Tokeativity, the Global Feminist Community for Active Cannabis Culture. She's a visionary with strong ethics around inclusion and equity. I've been really enjoying the online gatherings Tokeativity has produced during the pandemic and it is truly a hub for smart, driven women who are passionate about helping others heal with cannabis. We talk about the creation of Tokeativty, and Lisa's journey as an entrepreneur and woman in tech. We also talk coming out and growing up in New Jersey! 

You're scrolling instagram and see all these perfect images of seemingly perfect people. Comparing it to your life, which is full of obstacles and hardships, feeling bad about yourself! Here's the truth--everyone is a mess! Everyone has life stuff going on. I talk about disinviting drama into your life, accepting the hard parts of life, and letting your self image rise to the level of humility. 

Scott K. Smith is a Reiki Master Practitioner, Energy Artist, Ordained High Priest in the Temple of Witchcraft and dear friend and teacher. This is our second conversation on the podcast (check out Episode 14 for his back story), and this time we focused on shadow work. What is shadow work, how do we examine our wounds and harder parts of our personality with compassion and love? How do we create balance between light and dark? How do these balances come together through our magikal practices? Ever striving to find a balance between being positive and not falling into "toxic positivity."

This toolbox is for anyone who wants to release body self loathing, but especially geared toward discomfort with body change. I wanted to share some of my top tools that help me when my body has changed and I'm feeling uncomfortable in my skin. Grab something to take notes with!

Diet culture will have us believe that losing weight is always a good thing, and that we are unworthy of love when we fail to meet arbitrary, ever changing beauty standards. I have been involved in the body liberation movement since 2002 and weight changes are part of the process of life. Post partum bodies are frequently under attack from unrealistic expectations upheld by folks with lots of resources a regular person doesn't have access to.

I process my experience going to a new doctor, getting weighed, being surprised at the numbers and figuring out how to feel aligned with myself and God rather than receiving "nonpliments" from well-meaning people who are tracking my body size.

After a car accident landed Jennifer Axcell on 13 prescriptions, many opiods, she was able to heal with cannabis. Wanting to help folks get better guidance for making health choices with cannabis she co-founded Leaf411.org the first free cannabis nurse hotline. Folks from anywhere can connect with a cannabis trained nurse to discuss treatment options for use--including first time cannabis use. 

Jennifer is a natural in the entrepreneurial space and we spent a long time talking about finding your purpose, uniqueness and figuring out how to do yourself on purpose and level up. Join our lively conversation and I hope it empowers you to step up your healing.

OMG you have so many more years left of your awesome adulthood. Are you waiting out on the sidelines thinking romance will never visit you ever again? I'm only a Juris Doctor but I'm diagnosing you with rotten self talk! I share lots of tools in this episode to help shed that belief! 

Love, joy, supportive partnership and belonging are your birthright!

We are all in the process of unfolding and becoming who we are meant to be! Whether it's late in life coming out gender and sexuality, bringing a dream or a vision to life, finding love at an older age, it's all about releasing other folks opinions and deepening your trust in your authenticity. Everything good in my life comes from being willing to show up as my full authentic self. Where are you holding yourself back?

I go through top tips of what I think will help you release the old version of you and step powerfully towards the future of your dreams!

During my adult life I have released a bunch of habits that no longer serve me: nail biting, self hate, shaming my own body, toxic codependent romantic obsession, investing in friendships that don’t nourish me, drinking coffee, drinking alcohol, sugar, dairy, soy, gluten, for a time corn, late night netflix binging, criticizing people I love and more!

In this episode I talk about how I did that, my mindset and tons of advice for releasing habits that aren't serving you and focusing on habits that nourish instead. But first and foremost, you're valuable just as you are and nothing needs to change for you to be worthy of love! (And love creates a great environment for change where shame creates a toxic environment for change!)

"...there's a lot about my life that's bothered me but I couldn't do anything about it. I just had to survive. You're going to have to find a way to survive me walking through the halls in hair and make-up." 

Dylan Hill grew up in North Carolina a local performer while going through a tumultuous childhood. He began wearing make-up to high school because it made him happy and expressed himself. "Even if you don't agree with my lifestyle I don't judge yours. I just live and let live." 

Dylan is a singer, performer, stand-up comic, and now Instagram talk show host. Dylan is one to watch!

The pandemic isn't over just because you're over it!--Instagram @hebontheweb

My bestie Rachael contracted the Corona virus from a family member when she chose to expand her pod. The story is heartbreaking and really comes down to bullying. I'm super happy to say Rach survived the fever haze and her corona experience, but it's a great reminder about being cautious. We speak in depth about how to have conversations with people about risk and safety and creating our boundaries. 

I also included a solo pre-roll about how to have HOPE in these uncertain times.

Part pep talk on the road to being your true self, part how-to manual, I break down what people pleasing is and what we can do to leave this behind. In this episode I break down how I shifted my mentality from people pleasing (ego) to living my authentic self (spirit). I could talk for hours about how much people pleasing is ingrained in us culturally. I really worked to distill this to action on what we can do to support living out our true selves. 

Release constantly worrying what other people are thinking and feeling. Just because a partner or family member is having a bad day doesn't mean you need to have a bad day. 

Resources from this podcast:

I lived the first 20 years of my adult life in New York City, Philadelphia and Los Angeles. 9 months ago I took the leap* to drastically reduce my expenses by moving to the forest and living in a tiny house. I recently got even tinier by moving to a 26 foot travel trailer within the same tiny forest neighborhood. I talk about organizing tips, surprises I encountered, my learning curve living in an RV and what I miss about city life and culture.

Jeff Scult left the busy world of mainstream advertising to entrepreneurialism where he learned "Getting cool with uncertainty" but got really sick. He realized that locked up inside "shoulding all over himself" was someone inspired to create and make real human connections. 

"It's a beautiful thing to realize the magic is in co-creation. We're always better together." His movement One Golden Thread, born from a poem by the same name, eventually morphed into a unique clothing line. Unisexy and unisize, the colors derive from his mother's paintings of nature. The fabric is a cutting edge sustainable material that feels like nature's cashmere. "You just want to hug yourself all the time."

This is the most philosophical episode of the podcast yet! Fear is not the enemy, it's our resistance to fear that's the enemy.
When we choose to listen to ourselves we are golden. We talk about staying in the joy of creativity in spite of the obstacles or scope of what you're working on. Lots of talk about slaying perfectionism!

Trystan Reese helps clients get out of defensiveness and fragility and open up to meaningful change. He's an anti-racism coach and a consultant who helps organizations be more inclusive to diverse populations. 

Trystan went viral a couple of years ago when he gave birth to his son. Coming out as trans was a journey--in the 90s we didn't have a lot of role models in the media for what was possible in gender and sexuality. Trystan's coming out story is the funniest I've ever heard. 

"My calling on this planet is to bring balance. Too few people have too much power and my life has been about wrenching the power from those hands and more evenly distributing it amongst the people."

He hacked insecurity by committing to getting 1% better everyday. I hope you'll enjoy our conversation, laugh and be empowered to more accountability in your relationships!

In these uncertain times things are hard out there! Cannabis is great medicine to improve mental health. It makes life a little more zesty and fun! 

"When I feel witnessed and supported by someone it's because they see me as not man or woman but 'other.'" McKay experienced internal dystopia as a young person growing up in conformist culture.

Raised as a Mormon in a small town in Idaho, McKay was seriously depressed by twelve years old. "My experience in my body was violent." That became disordered eating.

McKay says about their recovery, "I literally feel like I live in a different body because I have fun and joy in my body now. That was about giving myself permission to move and take up space." 

They were also a Whiffenpoof at Yale and went on a Mormon mission--they have had their fill of frolicking with boys wearing a suit.

McKay teaches dance aerobics, spin and helps people create homes through design and organization. We talk about the magic and healing of dance for the body, reclaiming shame and self determination.

P.S. If you think you recognize McKay from the Fat Kid Dance Party workout video--you're correct!

A quick episode to give you my tips for dealing with a bit of weight gain. We're talking mindset and micro lifestyle changes. After 20 years of work in the body liberation movement I've figured out how to have peace with my body at any size and any change!

Christine Dunn is a coach and consultant who helps business owners get their time back! She grew up in an entrepreneurial household, started a property management business right out of college and has gone through a few career permutations within the coaching world. We talk about her journey, coming out of the closet, developing a coaching and public speaking practice as an introvert and self care. So excited to share her wisdom with you! Christine has some amazing bonus webinars available just for my listeners--click the link below!

Prison abolition is creating a world free from violence and harm. It can be difficult for some to understand how this is possible since all most of us have known is a society that is based on prisons and policing. There are so many other ways of supporting and sustaining our society and it requires us to open up to new visions! My friend Sonya Mendoza has been working on prison abolition and anti-racism for 18 years and offered to be on my podcast to help educate folks who might not know where to start or want to learn more to advance this movement. Guided by Black women leaders, Sonya has compiled resources to continue understanding anti-racism and life post-police and prisons. 

Hadassah Damien founded Ride Free Fearless Money in 2015 with the goal to help folks understand finances and get out of the ACK! that so many of us feel when looking at our bank statements. In this episode we talk about her rise to financial literacy through many permutations. Raised evangelical Christian and poor, to coming out as a queer, getting into DIY media then eventually tech and now working as a banker with her side business helping folks feel more confident with money. She is a true glitterdone queen and shares her strategies for time management! 

Dr. Tanya Gilbert had a lot of different careers on the path to becoming the behavioral health expert that she is today. She helps folks have a happier life by learning how to find their individual paths to success. She works with folks from all walks of life to help them figure out "what's next." She's an out lesbian whose coming out in the late 1970s was just one of the many challenges she's walked through to become the whole-hearted, dream fulfilling visionary she is today. I'm so grateful for her sharing her wisdom in this episode and I think you'll really connect with her story and find inspiration to step outside your comfort zone and adapt to change! 

I moved again! My six month sublet was up and I relocated within my neighborhood. I’ve been reflecting on the role of change and failure in my life and shared a few of my takeaways on this week’s mini episode.

My friend Vic learned as a medical provider (she has letters behind her name that mean medical) that mostly people had root cause emotional issues that were manifesting physically. Her nerdy interests in holistic health, herbal medicine and natural healing coincided with her deep personal work healing from codependency. Now she shows her clients how to heal their relationships with everyone in their lives, especially themselves. We talk nourishing self care during The Corona, circuitous career paths that become true callings, laugh a whole lot at ourselves and healing with self love. Vic is a gift!! I'm so thrilled to share her with y'all!

I recently learned that your attitude has a huge impact on your energy level! In an effort to curate my best present moment experience, I've been working on cultivating "Christmas Eve Vibes." Christmas Eve is my birthday and it encapsulates for me good cheer and excitement for what's to come. You can sub out that for "Vacation Vibes" if that's more relevant. I talk through the feeling tone of anticipation and how it can aid our experience of uncertainty and tough times. Sharing my heart on all of that in this episode!

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