Dancing with Bipolar

Hi. Guess what.. I AM NO LONGER HOMELESS!!! Within 3 weeks my girl AA at Catholic Charities got me into a trailer with a year lease.. Yeah.. Something I had completely lost hope of while living at hope cottage. Funny huh. Im still processing a lot of the subtle undertones of how someone could make this happen in 3 weeks when the cottage couldn't do anything in 16 months. Hmm. Anyway that's what's up. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey. First shot well actually 2nd at this. The first was just plain bad. I actually do talk about some of what is happening with musical interludes. Like cop rock but not as horrible. STAY ALIVE. YOU MATTER!

Hey. There's a lot going on. You know its always feast or famine right?? However im getting better with rolling with the stuff and landing soft when its over. Things are absolutely about to flip in my favor. Homelessness may soon be a situation I can advocate for instead of living it.. We'll see. Stop by the Instagram to see my new angel wing tattoos done by the one and only Brandon at Woodys Old School Tattoo and piercings here in Flagstaff. Otherwise Im doing pretty good. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!!!

Hey . so honestly this is a 2day show and I got super distracted. It happens. Today I am one week out from the curriculum part of this discipleship.. Woot woot! Then I go on a little rant about resources for the homeless. Never a dull moment.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hi. I'm pretty sure I'm really angry and disappointed with "authority" figures in my life. The two step of untruths they practice make me feel morally filthy. 2 more real classes left to go and I finish my commitment to myself to complete this program. Then I honestly dont know.. Its kind of a good thing.. This show rambles some but there is a nice tie up at the end 🤠 HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONYA.🦄 STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey.. I'm on pain meds right now so this what I recall the show being about. Ice..ice. ouch.. movie.. ouch.. urgent care.. broken finger.. pain meds. Home.. pajamas. That's about it. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey there. Yeah the title kind of gives this away but sometimes it's good to be transparent. Lol. It's ALWAYS good to be transparent!! There's some other tidbits as always and I am interrupted mid way with an apology 🍔. Show is scattered as am I. THANK YOU POSSE FOR LISTENING. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!!

Hey.. Holy Crap posse I've lost my ever loving mind.. I'm not feeling manic at all yet the evidence has not followed the proper chain of command so. Whatever! Oh yeah thanks for buying my Merch on TeePublic.. Tag me on Insta wearing you gear or drinking coffee or your baby in a Dancing With Bipolar onesie...😎. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey.. MANIA LIVE I am still manic-ish. My mind is at ultra warp speed but my body is not. Having a hard time keeping it even mildly under wraps. Idk. I just want to show the reality of how it is.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

I'm going manic.. I'm nearly at the point of not being able to head it off on my own, but I'm totally attempting to do so.. there's just an underlying feeling of frantic ness in everything right now. Been so triggered. I get into some of it. But you'll soon hear I'm not pulling it together very well at the moment. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey. Welcome to 2023 posse.. WE MADE IT!!!!!! This is a seriously discombobulated show so enjoy that.LoL. Just glad to be here in 2023. Love Each of you. STAY ALIVE. YOU MATTER!

Hey.. only one more day to go and finally the worst few weeks of the year will be done.. I absolutely dislike this season. Ugh. I stopped taking the lithium and decided to save my thyroid my way.. So There institutionalized health care. Otherwise I'm still DawnSherine and that's all good. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey There... So this is an infomercial basically about my health. As usual started pretty mopey and Eeyore but flipped it quick.. one of my skills.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey there. This is a completely rambling mish mish show. I'm not even sure I tie it together neatly at the end. However there is a lot of laughing and even a message I think 🤔. Happy Thanksgiving.. I love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey. I know it's been a minute but I've been struggling with suicidal ideations and now the first weeks of being on lithium. 😩. I was not hospitalized though so that's a win. I've also been struggling with some crap in the house which in hindsight is totally unimportant in the big scheme of life. Listen as I figure that out. Also a little bit as my mission to help street homeless with mental health diagnosis's come to fruition. I love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hi. Yeah I'm slogging through some deep depression.. Hit like a sledgehammer between the eyes. I'm working it out but you all know I don't hide my shit from you. This is real. Raw and honest. If you are in the US and feeling suicidal please call 988. Love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey. Been a week of whirlwinds and completions. I got through a bunch of stuff I never wanted to do yet really great because of it. The hard things really bring the greatest rewards. So the 🦒 and I are speaking again and I have fully released Christopher so we can both do what we're meant to do at this time. So yeah it's been a week. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey.. this show is all over the place. I didn't start with a clue as to what I was going to say anyway. Lol. However there is something about plants drinking #mountaindew that is super cool and/or delusional. I'm good either way. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey..it's been 2years since the unthinkable happened. Time doesn't heal all wounds it just helps it become less intense. Please seek help if you feel suicide is the only option.. I promise you it is not. Christopher's story is one that never should be told with this ending. Honor his memory by STAYING ALIVE.. YOU MATTER

Hey. I've been doing a lot of work in the area of forgiveness and you know there is actually something to it. Whether you believe in God or not it's not a bad thing to do - for your own peace of mind. Plus some other tasty tidbits of wisdom. 😂. Thank you all for listening. I love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. Seriously I was all kinds of upset when I started this but I've calmed my butt down by talking to you guys and just working it out.. Had some stupid unfortunate things come to light today but nothing really earth shattering in the big scheme of things.. I'll definitely survive and take care of the immediate things I can fix.. compared to poverty, hunger and war my worries are stupid. Welcome to the posse to all the new listeners. 🤠. Love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hi. I've had a serious slump in my depression the past few weeks. Finally went and got some help and a med adjustment so I'm on my way back up. Started a new show so I can split the discipleship out of this show..yay!!! Check out the new show Zen of the Stigmata if you're interested in the remaining amount of time I'm in the "program" and possibly into missionary work. https://promocards.byspotify.com/share/65e4bdb0f75b6accbf9e1857cabf02eb066daaed.. Anyway Love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey.. still feeling pretty awful. This depressed mania is fatiguing. Theres some underlying factors of course that aren't helping. I'll ride it out though. Just want you guys to know I'm going through it too. You're not alone. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey. So the title says it all. Mixed mood rapid cycling right now. Trying to rein it back in without too much attention on me.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey. Omigosh monsoons are here and this was a good one. I wanted you folks to hear what it's like to be in a tent while a monsoon moves over you. I also talk about my roommate schmoozing it up with the directors this weekend and how much IDGAF. Otherwise all is well for the most part. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey everyone. Well as predicted the depression has hit. Can only stay up for so long before gravity pulls you back down. I'm just flat out stressed, overwhelmed and triggered. Things just seem chaotically out of control and I'm just tired of nothing making sense anymore. However I still have a 🦒in my life that makes me smile. I'll get through this..promise. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. I might be manic. I might be falling hard for someone 🦒. Yeah I don't know what's happening, but I don't want parts of it to stop. I try to rationalize what is happening pretty poorly in my opinion. Either way here it is. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. This is kind of a mess. Started on Sunday pretty angry and ended today fairly manic. It's life, right. I talk about a bunch of stuff going on with me with a bit of ranting and rambling.. however somewhere in here I know is a nugget of wisdom. Oh there is a bit of laughter at the end so at the very least listen and laugh as I rationalize dating during discipleship..🦒💛🦡. Yeah this is a ride. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

On Jordans very first promo appearance for her YA novel - Clean up on Aisle Three we discuss bipolar, meds, support systems, glitter tooth and Halsey.. Jordan can be found at Jordanjotsjoy on Instagram,Twitter and Facebook. This is an amazing interview for a newbie. Lol . STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey there.. so it's been a super good week even with the sunburn, higher than normal blood pressure and heart arrhythmia; of which I am pretty sure are inter-related. I've done a lot of shadow work these past few days and I honestly think I'm working through some barriers to a fulfilling future. Oh yeah I have a mind altering crush on a man of God🌝. Never say Never STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

I jabber on about a lot of stuff here. Christopher and how I need to overcome the grief surrounding his death, a little about Peanut and Doc, maybe becoming a missionary at some point and that golden nugget of wisdom.. And trains. Yup wouldn't be a podcast without BNSF making an appearance 🚂. Love each of you STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER. Season 4: The year of Discipleship.

I interview Dustin Bailey Celebrate Recovery Regional Mental Health Champion - West. We talk Bipolar, God and Celebrate Recovery plus having intimidating IQ's. Lol. This is a good one.. check it out. 😎. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey everyone. It's really been a week with the fire here in Flagstaff and all that coexists with such an event. However it snowed and the fire is much less at the fire front of my thoughts so I can concentrate on the real meat and potatoes of my life. Lol. This is pretty much a free fall from stress and bullshit ( which actually never ends btw). Love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Just a super quick catch up to let you all know I'm doing fine. Thanks to everyone reaching out to me I appreciate your support more than I can say. 💛. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. This is a shout out to those of us feeling pressured to be someone that we are not supposed to be. YOU ARE YOU AND THAT'S PERFECTION!! Otherwise not a whole lot going on. I feel good mentally and physically. I'm extremely grateful for each of you for being a part of the show. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

So I'm not a 100% right now. If I were I would be worried that I'm no longer human yet I'm being judged for not being full of joy by someone who doesn't cry about anything. At least I'm not in denial right? Life hurts and sometimes the pain lasts longer than a second and processing things is individual. So as usual there is a roundabout epiphany here Love Each of You. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

A week and a bunch of reflection later I realize what a sniveling idiot I was. Granted things are never Perfect anywhere and what I was whining about was legit; however it was somewhat uncalled for and didn't really reflect well on the progress I've made.. C'est la vie. So this show is a true hodge podge of the past week and a huge epiphany I had today about how absolutely blessed I am.

Hey. It's the eve of Bris's birthday. I'm not going to lie I've been grieving, his death and the loss of the perceived future I hoped for us. I've also been compounding the grief with a whole lot of nothing. But seeking anything to take away the pain of his suicide. Just believe me when I tell you it ends on an upbeat.🌞😇😎. Love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey everyone. Just one of those weeks that the downward slide hit hard. I think I got it figured out and nothing that a trip to Sedona AZ can't heal. 🌞. Season 4: The Year of Discipleship. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey everyone.. this is kind of a mashup of all kinds of thoughts and reflections of my past week. Of course there is a bigger message involved among the chatter and laughter which I'm not going to tell you 😄🌝🌞. It was a good week though I'll give that info up. I love each of you. Season 4 is the year of discipleship btw. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey everyone.. I might be a tiny bit manic so there's some jumping around from topic to topic but I do pull it together and have an epiphany towards the end.. This is a truly block buster moment. Hi to the Czech republic and thank you for listening. I love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey.. kind of blah and just not feeling like anything is moving forward. I hate the hurry up and wait aspect of life and really hate when I feel like my life is suspended due to consequences way beyond my control. Guess that's life. Ugh.😞. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey there. So I'm not really sure what this show was really supposed to be about. Seriously.. I honestly just wanted to talk to all of you and in the process answered a question I didn't even know I had.. Love Each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey it's my birthday.. 57 years of life and guess what? I just started to understand what it is to live. Better NOW than later. Anyway enjoy the interview and my birthday introspection. Oh btw HAPPY 2022. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!!

New Year's Eve in Arizona. Out with the old and in with the new. Plus almost happy birthday to me. Let's Welcome Singapore and India to the posse. Oh I still want a circus pony for my birthday. 🦄🎂. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Ok.. so I had a couple of really bad days.. I let myself go there , (not on purpose) and dug myself out.. Each of us has the power to change ourselves in order to change our part of the world.. you are my posse which makes you one of the strongest people on Earth.. seriously.. Oh there's a surprise in the last 2 minutes for the kiddo in all of us. PEACE , LOVE AND JOY FOR THE HOLY DAYS!! STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Another bad morning.. I hate being lied to as much as I hate this situation I put myself in. I don't know what God wants me to do anymore but contemplating my choice to live or die everyday is probably not what he wants. I have a lot to figure out by the 3rd when I get paid. I won't act on my bad impulse but I'm willing to move on ASAP. I think that's what I'm supposed to do. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey everyone. I was definitely going through it when I recorded this a few hours ago. Most of us go through some depression at this time if year I am no exception.. the lesson here is that I worked through..saw my doctor and got a med adjustment. No shame in asking for help ever.. Thank you everyone for getting the show to over 35 thousand downloads. I love each of you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey.. it's a week out from Christmas. This is my attempt at a Christmas message. I love you .. All of you. May the spirit of the season fill you hope and love. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hi everyone.. so I survived Covid and my cruisemates which was more difficult than the virus... I talk about the mental health strain from being in isolation and the pain from being back stabbed by my fellow quarantine people. Shout out to SOUTH AFRICA.. KENYA MY MONGOLS AND KAJANKISTANIAN.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER.

Guess who got Covid?? Yup. So just a quick catch up here about how much fun im having in quarantine and how I'm dealing with it. At least there's 4 of us quarantined together so the party rarely ends. I'm doing well with very few symptoms.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hi. Yeah this is a show that started with no direction did a u-turn and wound up somewhere.. not sure where.. in summary glad we got through Thanksgiving, don't do things in grief, stay compliant, isolation mode is survival,and a bunch of other rambling.. lol. Let's Welcome POLAND to the posse. As always love my Mongols and Tajikistanians... STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

You know those days when you just don't know how you're gonna get through it? Yeah it started out like that but it won't be ending like that. My transition into the safe house has become easier as I have discovered nature trails closer than I knew a week ago. I fill you guys in on my new therapist and how Christophers suicide still has me reeling as I adjust to a place he and I never shared. Lots of tears on this one and then the huge OMG as I get my sign that God and Christopher have not forsaken me. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!!

I fill you guys in on my first week of being displaced in Flagstaff AZ. It's not as awful as it sounds considering I chose this over the Hell of Running Bear. Also a little bit about what had to be left behind and a few tears over Peanut and Christopher. Ultimately I'm gonna be ok. The website IS BACK UP though it's brand new and nowhere near done but you can contact me there as well as the Dancing with Bipolar Instagram page. I hope to embed the show into the website soon. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!!!!

Hey hey hey.. After a 2 week vacation at the White Mountains most luxurious spa I'm back.. No suicide or anything crazy like that just a breakdown. I've relocated for a bit in AZ.. maybe Montana next..who knows.. salute to the 5th floor hagfiish.. missed you all. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

It's been a minute guys sorry. I lost track of time during this eviction process. I'm still at the StarGate so there's your clue as to how it went 😎. Been a year today from when I heard about Christopher's suicide.. a year since the rape and abduction. 10 years ago tomorrow since I moved to AZ.. that's a mind blower for me. Anyway this show is a little scattered but rest assured I'm well mentally and physically now that all this legal stuff is hopefully over I can get back on my game and continue advocating for our community. I love my posse. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

This is the runthrough audio I did of my story for Rock Bottom Storytellers III. You can find the live video on YouTubehttps://youtu.be/rFDB2I4yQYA.

hey everyone.. still above ground. Things are as weird as you could imagine and maybe I am in some form of long form delusion.. not sure. Rock Bottom story tellers Aug. 25th 830pm eat. Look for more info on Dancing with Bipolar Instagram. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. I've really been going through it here in the ghetto. Pending eviction death threats macing of Peanut and being led by God the whole time. The fact I'm not inpatient with all the haters around me leads me to believe it's all true including the astonishing number of downloads on Apple. So this is my story of how God or some other being has kept me safe. RockBottom storytellers Aug. 25th 830 pm est live on YouTube. I love my posse. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

It's hard to believe it's been a year since Doc completed his mission and moved on. This is a brief history of my Boo Bah and how he changed my life. Also a very brief rundown on my current situation and a lot of things that I can not talk about that are affecting my daily life at this time. Moving is imminent. Much love to Mongolia.. Malta . and Nepal... STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

I fill you guys in on how I shifted that negative mindset from last week of feeling like the world was against me to maybe it wasn't the whole world.. I do realize how each of us affects the whole.. I speak about a very profound experience I had on Clubhouse where some deep seated (intergenerational) emotional wounds were released as well as some nasty entities in my home. Woo woo or not I honestly feel reborn. Thank you to EVERYONE that reached out to me.. I got you back 100%... Checkout Authentic Awakening on Clubhouse I will be setting up Room in that house soon. Also just for added guidance or distraction on YouTube Val333Tarot.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER.

I'm having a big bump in my stability due to forces beyond my control.. What I can control I am.. Asking for emotional help and guidance from those that love me and that I trust.. See I do follow my own advice. 😎 it's not all bad though I just need to snorkel through some sh*t.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Just say No if it feels wrong. But you guys wouldn't get the course for Free if I hadn't tried. Unedited course..lmao. Lesson 6 - Therapy. Lesson 7 - Nutrition you are what you eat mind body soul. Lesson 8 - Sleep, The Frenemy

You know if something feels wrong for you at the get go just say NO. After months of bullsh*t and angst and a green light Listenable pulled the plug on my course Thriving with Bipolar.. Whatever. I never wanted to be a sellout anyway. Here's my unedited class for FREE.. Lesson 1 - what is Bipolar. Lesson 2 what is Mania lesson 3 what is Depression. Lesson 4 I think i have Bipolar what do i do ? Lesson 5 - Medication

2 years ago I started this show for reasons I didn't understand.. I. Totally understand now. Thank you for listening.

Hey.. Where I'm at a week after Easter and maybe a tiny psychotic break but I'm still not sure.. Stress + Real Triggers = Surreal Confusion

Big Sarge and I discuss his honorable/virtuous military career and the havoc it created on his mental health - including suicidal ideation. How he has sought and received help while on active duty and his top 3 solutions to getting a grip on military mental health challenges and the suicide epidemic within active duty ranks . TRIGGERS : Combat situations.. Big Sarge and I will not be offended if you pass to help yourself. Suicide Hotline: 1 800 273 8255. Active Duty/veteran text chat 838255. Crisis Chat Line -741741. Out of country. Europe-00800 1273 8255. DSN118. Korea -0807 555 118 or DSN 118. AFGHANISTAN: 00 1 800 273 8255 DSN111. YOU ALL MATTER.. STAY ALIVE

I'm making a big deal about the exclusion of people receiving disability from this round of stimulus checks and how the American govt lied to us. Allegedly. Satire or not it's time to wake up and get a grip on the world around us.

Michelle and I discuss what it's like living in a home with a bi polar parent. Her book #Breakingintomylife. Her Culture of Compassion workplace ethos which includes Mental Health Employee Resource groups and her Youth Initiative :PERFECT -just the way you are in the tri state area. Jersey accent comes free ....

Heres a copy of my audio prerecord for my speech RETIRE THE STIGMA @podfest GLOBAL SUMMIT... We can do this folks. As a community.

It's Christopher's birthday... I couldnt let the day go by without a tribute to my first and loudest cheerleader Christopher Richmond aka. my Bris. Podfest Global Summit starts tomorrow March 1 -5.. My speech is on 3/3 @530 pm EST... USE code Dancing with Bipolar for free or reduced price tickets.. Be part of a Guineas Record. #podfam

Im not as ok as I think I am. Stress is a mortal enemy. I talk about a momentary (I hope) relapse into maladaptive coping skills and how I hope to prevent this in the future. Use Code Dancing with Bipolar to get free or reduced price tickets at Podfest Global Summit coming March 1-5.

Im trying to remember shit and it's just not happening.. I have exciting news about my role as a speaker at @PODFEST GLOBAL SUMMIT and My continuing efforts with Listenable... Oh yeah a newspaper article too.. My brain is short circuiting and I'm starting to forget basic stuff .

I talk about an episode of panic and rage I had last night after learning the trailer park I live in is banning pit bulls. My Peanut is ESA so I try to understand my illogical reaction to this news . Also a shout out to SWITCH who's new album drops 1/22/2021 show him some love on Instagram @switchb. YOU MATTER!

I have a conversation with SWITCH. Vancouver Island's soon to be breakout hip hop star. We talk meds addiction in patient stays etc. You know all the good shit. Find him on Spotify or on instagram @switchb. CHECK HIM OUT.

We Made It. I Am So Proud of every single one of you. We pulled it off. *sigh* My birthday interview with SWITCH tomorrow. Instagram @switchb. Find him on Spotify the easiest . YOU MATTER.

It's CHRISTMAS.. yay or thank goodness it's almost over. Listen to me talk myself out of a crap mood into a hope for a better 2021. Thanks to Santa Aka Joel Christopher Payne for the cameo. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EACH OF YOU. I LOVE YOU. YOU MATTER!!!

I'm livid after a Facebook back and forth with a "friend" of 9 years goes feral regarding the difference between a "normal" hospitalization and a mental health hospitalization. Ignorance is not bliss when it comes to this stigma. Man I'm still fired up. Hello Hong Kong.. Ok everyone stay strong through these next few weeks.. YOU MATTER... Let's ALL Stay Alive! OK?!!!

I talk about Grief Therapy and how I'm healing from losing Doc and Bris. I kind of go on a little rant about newbie podcasters which segways into why being honest is the only way I roll. I talk about hating my meds, screwing up and owning it. Thank you EGYPT first time on the charts there. Thanks Russia Sweden Australia and the good ol USA for listening a lot. I APPRECIATE Each of you. Hang on the holidays are almost over.. Contact me if it gets too hard. STAY ALIVE; OK?!

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I talk about how I'm dealing with our changing world during the pandemic. Also a little about Bris and Scott and the disfunctionality of both of them.

mental health month. self care self esteem and being kind. Intro song: Dinosaur Jr. - Whatever's Cool with me. Outro song - Let's Active - Badger

why I really want to help.. plus text chat crisis line and suicide prevention number. Intro song: Van Halen - Right Now. Outro Song : Jesus Jones - Right Here Right Now

is this good or bad for me as my relationship is hitting a curb. Intro song: REM - Fall on Me Outro song: REM - One I love. #scottward. #scottedwardward #scottwardaz

out of my mind..... Intro Song; Chris Webby - Chemically Imbalanced Outro Song: Chris Webby - Rookie of the Year

how my depression took over my life. a little about December and my letdown about "friends". still picking up the mess from December. Intro song: Robyn Hitchcok - Cathedral. Outro song: Chris Webby - Friend like me

Scott money abandonment trazadone night terrors intro song: Hole - Doll Parts. Outro song: Depeche Mode - Never let me down

Nami perfectly flawed #39 podcast staying stable Scott. Intro song: Greives - man down. Outro song - Throwing Muses - Say Goodbye

Catch up. Scott. The kitties. Staying stable. Infidelity. Littlebadcat creations. Intro song: Kelly Rowland - Work. Outro song Talk talk - Talk Talk

Medication detox withdrawals Scott. Being ill in general. Intro song: Brothers Johnson - Stomp. Outro song: Kendrick Lamar - Humble

More on meds... Overdosing. Death and closure. Intro song: Yelawolf - Til it's gone. Outro song : Dinosaur Jr - Not you again

People I should not associate with. Intro song: Third eye blind - semi charmed life. Outro song: Yelawolf - Trailer park Hollywood

Live in the middle of a mixed episode. All kinds of shit up in here. . Racing Thoughts. Intro song: The Verlaines - Doomsday. Outro song : The Tubes- Amnesia

National suicide prevention month meets International podcasting month. Say what?! Intro song : The wallflowers - one headlight. Outro song: Berlin - The Metro

Rundown of my week. The future of this podcast. #stayalive Intro Song: CAKE - The Distance. Outro song: Ram Squad - keep it real

I talk about a real bad night that could have included a sexual assault but did not.

I spill the truth on the last night I will ever spend with #scottward. Apple Charts #1 in Mongolia.. #thankyoumongolia #Mongolia Intro song - Guided by Voices: Game of Pricks. Outro song. - Loud Luxery x Ander's : love no more.

I thank my loyal audience for sticking it out with me. I honor my past co host Doc and my cheerleader Bris for probably not the last time. I give you a sneak peek into the future of my life and the show.

I speak with Jacob Thornton about his life with High Functioning Autism. We talk medications.. suicide and marathoning. Expect to be surprised and learn a little something. Jacob's podcasting service is a Facebook page where I found his podcast.

I try to memorialize my best friend Bris after a tragic accident. Catch up on the escape from Overgaard. R.I.P.CHRISTOPHER RICHMOND. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER +1

I explain how I trusted Scott for one last time and have basically lost everything that resembled my life.

I'm losing it or am i

My (alleged) perception of what occurred over these past few days (allegedly). Truth is I'm totally traumatized. Not dealing it...

I talk about how my lack of sleep is affecting me.. How my BPD gives me permission to punish myself. My apology to Bris and Austin from Don't worry about it: A teens perspective.

My week including COVID , the AZ heat and how quickly a friendship can turn bad.

I catch you guys up about the Tele doctor... Meds.. Being betrayed...stigma.. And the importance of having trust and love with someone

I'm Manic here's my Week in review

I talk about this weekend and my very bad decision

I'm still alive... A bit messy though

I'm really sick but real life gets in the way of this weep fest when Bris drops in and I continue recording though I though it stopped

Lowdown on my past week. Yes I'm a little bit depressed.

Second part of my interview with Dr Jason. We discuss further his VHAB App, recovery from habits and our lives with and without and within addiction.

Dr Jason and I talk about COvid19, community, addiction and briefly touch on his new VHAB app.

I give the lowdown on how I'm handling the Covid19 virus and how I'm trying to deal with it

It's been a minute since we talked about me.. Sweet little catch up..

RAE and I discuss her contributions towards the advancements of breaking the stigma around having a mental health diagnosis. We also discuss her music and new album and how gen z may not be slackers... RAEDUSOLEIL..COM

Update on all the goodbyes of last week.

3 unexpected incidents this week that shook my soul... Shout out to #chriscox for his interview. Shout out #Ireland. Listening to Firefall - just remember I love you.. Tissues recommended.

Chris and I discuss what it's like growing up with a parent with undiagnosed bipolar disorder

I discuss this past week and how my depression has side lined me from "normal" living . THANK YOU FOR LISTENING..

I talk about how Borderline personality disorder comingles with Bipolar. Upcoming guests and interview drops for me

A little about Kobe Bryant and grief occurring from sports news. Off meds...manic.. Restricted numbers and delusion...My appearances on Causepods with Matthew Passey and Threads Podcast : Life Unfiltered with Ben and Jason

I apologize for bad audio. Discuss what could have been a career ender all while rapid cycling.. I get props for that. I also highlight some changes coming and Thank you USA #157 IN mental health

* there are some sound issues ... I apologize. I promise not to mess with the mic in future shows.. * I talk about Jesus, feral cats , suicide and love triangles. Also some upcoming podcasts I'll be on.

I talk about my weekend, friends, and #1 in Bahrain while going Manic

bunch of random nonsense. Intro song: Chicago - 25 or 6 to 4 outro song : Green Day- Scattered

Depression set up house right in front of me. Didn't see it until a trip to The home Depot. Meltdown Day Extraordinary.. Intro song - Dire Straits - Skateaway. Outro song - Toad the Wet Sprocket -Fall Down

I speak with Estelle California about oppression childhood TRAUMA music life and the fine art of learning to love yourself. Intro song - Estelle California - STAR. Outro Song - Estelle California - Black is the new light. Look for Estelle California on Facebook. Twitter Instagram

It a New Year...

Just a drive by and a blooper for you. Intro song - Red Hot Chili Peppers - Savior. Outro song Sugar - JC AUTO

Update on the whole hotel abandonment thing #scottward. My depression battle continues and Christmas. Intro song - Stone Temple Pilots - Sour Girl. Outro song - CAKE - I will survive

Hi Everyone. The holidays are here events cancellation time is here. Crying, guilt and shame won't help anyone through these situations. Maybe this will help. Intro song: The Replacements- Unsatisfied. Outro song: The Verlaines - Heavy 33

Boom. Overnight depression moved in.

I speak with Eric about film making, TRAUMA, mentorship and life

I speak with Trevor about depression, dyslexia and childhood trauma. INTRO SONG: R.E.M. -LOW. OUTRO SONG-QUEENSRYCHE -SPEAK

I talk with Joanie about being a parent of a child with a dual diagnosis and how her product Boobalicious is changing lives. Intro song: The who- squeezebox. Outro song: The Beatles- I get by with a little help from my friends

Interview with Scott Silverman for national mental health day. We discuss suicide survival ,dual diagnosis, the opioid epidemic and other stuff. with some tech issues thrown in. INTRO SONG: Shinedown - Save Me. Outro song : Red Hot Chili peppers - Dark Necessities

My review of the movie Joker . ****SPOILER ALERTS MAJOR PARTS OF PLOT GIVEN****** INTRO SONG: Smokey Robinson - Tears of a Clown. OUTRO SONG: Iron Maiden - Tears of a Clown. #joker

Womanifestation course. money and business. Magnolia the elephant and Doc the dog. Scott. Intro song: Clyde Carson - Slow Down. Outro Song: Chicago - Getting stronger every day

catch up. meds. mania. Intro song : Idea of March - Vehicle. Outro song: Saxon - 747 (Strangers in the Night)

1st interview with Leanna Anderson regarding bipolar, schizophrenia affective disorder and holistic approaches to stabilization. Intro song: World Party - Ship of Fools. Out to song: Sugar - Changes

this is about the taboo topics of Tele med and suicide

a tiny peek into my family and mental health and damage bad parenting can cause. Intro song: Crazy-Gnarls Barkely

introducing myself to you my valued listener. Intro song: Hopsin - what's my purpose. Outro song: Hopsin - where will I go