
Holy Sh*t I Have ADHD
By Holy Sh*t I Have ADHD

Holy Sh*t I Have ADHDJul 27, 2022

Kai Northcott - Episode 74
This week Robbie & Jordan welcome neurodivergent content creator & coach Kai Northcott to the show!
Kai tells us about how their dissatisfaction with a traditional career led them on a journey to learn about how their brain works differently. Kai also tells us about the 8 Seasons model they use in their coaching and its roots in the Earth Skills community.
Follow along with Kai's work on Instagram at @kai8seasons and check out the 8 Seasons Consulting website at 8seasons.consulting.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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The Stories We Tell Ourselves - Episode 73
Robbie & Jordan talk about both the narratives we make up for ourselves as ADHDers, and the fabulous imagined lives we think others are leading.
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Playing Water Polo With Dolphins - Minisode 14
This week we catch up and Robbie tells a story of sensory overwhelm at a recent networking event.
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Gratitude and Gratuities - Episode 72
This week Robbie and Jordan talk about haircuts, the latest in tipping culture, accessibility & accommodation, and trying to cultivate gratitude.
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Prioritizing - Episode 71
This week Robbie and Jordan catch up and talk about loneliness, the difficulty of socializing, and how isolation compounds itself, which turns into a discussion about juggling and prioritizing all the different aspects of being a person. Robbie talks about flying Business Class for the first time and Jordan talks about the best melon he's ever had.
Check out Robbie's new website accessibledimensions.ca and reach out to learn how she can help your organization become more accessible.
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The Importance of Emotion in ADHD / 2 ODD Ducks - Episode 70
This week Robbie and Jordan discuss Dr. Russell Barkley's lecture "The Importance of Emotion in ADHD," advocating for including more emotional symptoms in the DSM diagnosis criteria. We unpack our own feelings about his work and springboard that into a fun discussion about Oppositional Defiant Disorder (ODD).
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Shallow Connections - Episode 69
This week Robbie and Jordan catch up and discuss Sari Botton's article "The (Pandemic) Time Warp," exploring our own feelings of time compression and accelerated aging in the past few years. Along the way we discuss the value of so-called "shallow" connections and the importance of building community locally and offline, in a way that's resistant to the whims of a platform owner.
Check out more of Sari Botton's work at saribotton.com.
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Dmitry Pushkarev - Episode 68
This week Robbie and Jordan are joined by Dmitry Pushkarev, founder and CEO of Sidekick. After a career in academia at Stanford University, Dmitry left to work in Silicon Valley and has since founded and sold several companies. His latest project is Sidekick, a web browser designed to keep users focused by minimizing distractions and interruptions.
Dmitry tells us about how living with ADHD has impacted his career and sense of self, transitioning from professor to founder, and how he used his industry knowledge of marketing through browser UX to design a browser that was on the user's side.
Check out Sidekick at meetsidekick.com and Dmitry's DJ mixes on his Soundcloud.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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BBC vs. ADHD w/ David Levy - Episode 67
This week Robbie and Jordan welcome David Levy of ADHDcounselling.uk and N20 Counselling back for a UK ADHD news roundup.
A recent BBC Panorama documentary featuring reporter Rory Carson stirred up a lot of controversy and inspired a flurry of op-eds. David takes us through some of the responses from both sides of the fence as well as his own thoughts on the matter. Along the way we learn what's new with David's practice, his mental health fanzine The Frame and its upcoming Neurodiversity issue, and why he doesn't like thinking of stimulants as "medication."
David is a BACP-certified Counsellor who practices in-person in London UK, as well as online. Follow David and ADHD Counselling:
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Articles discussed in this episode, as well as bonus reading:
Rory Carson: "I don't have ADHD, but three private clinics say I do." https://www.bbc.com/news/health-65534449
BBC Panorama: "ADHD: Private clinics exposed by BBC undercover investigation." https://www.bbc.com/news/health-65534448
Nancy Doyle: "ADHD Short Cuts: A National Scandal For UK." https://www.forbes.com/sites/drnancydoyle/2023/05/15/adhd-short-cuts-a-national-scandal-for-uk/
Kate Nicholson: "BBC's ADHD Documentary Has Raised A Lot Of Eyebrows – And Not About The Clinics." https://uk.news.yahoo.com/bbcs-adhd-documentary-raised-lot-141724035.html
James Jackson: "Panorama’s gonzo documentary risks making people think that I’m faking ADHD." https://www.independent.co.uk/voices/bbc-panorama-adhd-mental-health-b2340491.html
Mike Smith: "Is it really too easy to be diagnosed with ADHD?" https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2023/may/17/nhs-psychiatrist-adhd-underdiagnosis
Peter Hitchens: "Does ADHD Even Exist?" https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-12096593/PETER-HITCHENS-know-question-loads-trouble-does-ADHD-exist.html
Adrian Chiles: "No, ADHD is not a con." https://www.theguardian.com/society/commentisfree/2023/may/18/no-adhd-is-not-a-con-if-thats-the-message-you-got-from-panoramas-expose-you-werent-paying-attention
Sophie McBain: "There are concerns around ADHD overdiagnosis. But what about misdiagnosis?" https://www.newstatesman.com/science-tech/2023/05/concerns-adhd-overdiagnosis-misdiagnosis-mental-health-depression
Kelly Given: "BBC should apologise for sensationalist ADHD documentary." https://www.thenational.scot/comment/23530060.bbc-apologise-sensationalist-adhd-documentary/
Rachel Charlton-Dailey: "Dangerous coverage of ADHD means women like me don't feel like we can ask for help." https://www.glamourmagazine.co.uk/article/adhd-overdiagnosis-coverage
Diyora Shadijanova: "'The real ADHD scandal is NHS under-funding – not over-diagnosis.'" https://www.womenshealthmag.com/uk/health/mental-health/a43941270/adhd-panorama/
Sarah Ditum: "My online test said I had ADHD. But this easy diagnosis is flawed." https://www.thetimes.co.uk/article/my-online-test-said-i-had-adhd-but-this-easy-diagnosis-is-flawed-lddl6923b
Stella Akinwumi: "BBC denies ‘stigmatising’ ADHD in Panorama documentary after major backlash." https://metro.co.uk/2023/05/23/bbc-denies-stigmatising-adhd-in-panorama-doc-after-major-backlash-18828479/
Nadine Batchelor-Hunt: "Tory MP Wants Government To 'Throw The Kitchen Sink' At ADHD Backlog In NHS." https://www.politicshome.com/news/article/calls-government-throw-kitchen-sink-adhd-waiting-list-backlogs
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Arbind "Arbdog" Gill - Episode 66
This episode is brought to you by Jordan and Stopped Clock Vintage. Check out stoppedclockvintage.com for 800+ pieces of vintage clothing, collectibles and more!
This week Jordan sits down with Arbind Gill, a performer and pharmacist based in Calgary who was diagnosed with ADHD last year.
They get into the ups and downs of adult discovery, growing up knowing you were "different," and how ADHD has impacted her life and career. They also discuss Arbind's creative and performance work in improvisation, music, and video, her love of karaoke, and how to be a sober party animal.
Arbind also talks about about growing up with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and the way OCD is misunderstood and mischaracterized in popular culture, and she also corrects some ADHD myths and misinformation about medications and interactions from one of our previous episodes.
You can find Arbind on Youtube and Twitch as Arbdog, check out her videos on How To Win Solitaire Every Time, Eavesdropping in Fire Emblem and the latest instalment of her Marvel Cinematic Universe reviews. You can also see Arbind improvising with Off The Book and check out the rest of her work on her Linktree page.
JORDAN'S AUDIO NOTE: due to a confluence of things going wrong during recording I had to use single-track Zoom audio which had a huge loudness disparity between me and Arbind. I did the best I could to even it out in the editing process but when there's crosstalk it can be hard to hear her.
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Robbie: accessibledimensions.ca

Selling Yourself - Episode 65
This week Robbie and Jordan talk about the tensions and contradictions of working for yourself as an ADHD-er. Aspects of ADHD make for good leaders, founders and CEOs, but ADHD people can often be crippled by rejection-sensitive dysphoria, an inability to deal well with critical feedback, and a lack of organization which can make the ins and outs of running a business difficult. Other people believe in us, so why is it so hard to believe in ourselves?
More info on the YMCA Self-Employment Program Robbie recently completed can be found on their website.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Carling Middlestead of I Did Not Sign Up For This - Episode 64
This week Robbie and Jordan are joined by Carling Middlestead of the I Did Not Sign Up For This podcast. Carling shares her ADHD discovery story and we reflect on growing up undiagnosed, the tension in being true to yourself while trying to meet societal expectations, and so much more.
Check out I Did Not Sign Up For This at ididnotsignupforthis.com or on Instagram, Twitter, TikTok, Facebook and Patreon.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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That Harry & Gabor Thing - Episode 63
It's a movie-length episode this week as Robbie & Jordan get deep in the weeds on Dr. Gabor Maté's live public ADHD diagnosis of Prince Harry, ADDitude Magazine's lengthy response, and Maté's follow-up op-ed from last week's Toronto Star.
We also talk about the self-help industrial complex, public figures with cults of personality, and why you should never worry about being a hypocrite.
CORRECTIONS:
-Jordan gets a bunch of facts about Rush wrong at the 14 minute mark but who cares? Rush sucks.
-Around 59:20 Jordan says "exacerbate the symptoms" when he meant the opposite, "mitigate."
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ADHD & POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome) - Episode 62
This week Robbie and Jordan chat about POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome). Have you ever "stood up too fast" and felt faint or dizzy, with fuzzy vision and a rapid pulse? POTS correlates with ADHD, Autism and other neurodivergences, but the condition isn't widely known and symptoms overlap with many other conditions. Fortunately, the tests are simple, and lifestyle changes like upping your water and sodium intake can resolve symptoms for some people.
CORRECTIONS: a) The test for POTS involves measuring heart rate after standing, not blood pressure as Jordan said. b) Robbie refers to a hormone in dental freezing compound; this is epinephrine, not norepinephrine.
Robbie refers to an episode of On Being featuring Amanda Ripley and Jordan mentions an episode of The ADHD Adults on ADHD & eating disorders. You can also check out HSIHADHD 14 where we discuss our own struggles with body image and eating disorders.
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Sailing the Friend Ship Through Stormy Waters - Episode 61
This week Robbie and Jordan talk about some of the difficult aspects of friendship. Why do some friendships feel one-sided? How come friendships can fade out with no real catalyst? How do you lovingly tell someone their behaviour is unacceptable?
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New Year, New Me, Same ADHD - Episode 60
Robbie and Jordan discuss the annual tradition of New Year's Resolutions as 2022 swiftly draws to a close. Do resolutions actually help people with ADHD or is it another guilt mechanism? Do you make resolutions or intentions for the new year? Tell us about them!
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Dealing with amBIGuity - Episode 59
Happy holidays from HSIHADHD!
This week Robbie and Jordan talk about confusion, ambiguity, and how our ADHD brains cope with uncertainty in our work and personal lives (spoiler: not well!).
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Where Have We Been? - Episode 58
Jordan's been sick most of November and we haven't been able to record! Robbie and Jordan learn what's new with each other since Jordan's visit to Vancouver last month and talk about youth competition, the comparison trap, and the power of the human mind to gross itself out.
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Live from Robbie's Office - Episode 57
Recorded the day after our live event, Oct. 22 2022; the audio quality isn't great on this one because we're sharing a mic and crashing our hands into things gesticulating wildly. Sorry about that!
Jordan's in Vancouver! He and Robbie discuss burnout, dog vs. cat people, and much more.
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Robbie: This isn't about maturity- Minisode 14
Robbie pops in for a quick check-in and chats about the misguided narrative that people with ADHD lack maturity.
HINT: We're adulting just fine, thank you very much.
What do you tell people when they say you need to get your poop in a group? Send us your thoughts and suggestions. Drop us a line or a voicemail. We LOVE hearing from you.
Recorded and produced by Robbie McDonald
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Robbie and Jordan on the Fly - Episode 56
This week Robbie and Jordan have a quick catch up and chat about ADHD Standby Mode, anxiety, and Jordan's upcoming trip to Vancouver for OMG I Have ADHD.
OMG I Have ADHD is a one-night speaking event taking place Thursday, Oct. 20 at Vancouver's CityStudio (1800 Spyglass Place) from 5:30-9pm. Robbie and Jordan will both be there to speak, as well as several past HSIHADHD guests (Ryan Walter Wagner, Santina Mozgiel and hart caplan) and Dr. Anita Parhar from the Adult ADHD Centre.
Robbie and Jordan are grateful to the Simon Fraser Student-Community Engagement Competition for their monetary assistance and encouragement producing this event.
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Social Media and Authenticity - Episode 55
This week Robbie and Jordan catch up and as usual the conversation turns to social media. If every platform is pivoting to video, social media becomes more performative than ever as stills get deemphasized and artists of all stripes are suddenly expected to be reel-friendly. Can we use social media in ways that feel natural to us? Is there even such a thing as "authenticity" online?
We also talk about the difficulty of filling up on veggies, public photography, and our upcoming event OMG I Have ADHD.
OMG I Have ADHD is a one-night speaking event taking place Thursday, Oct. 20 at Vancouver's CityStudio (1800 Spyglass Place) from 5:30-9pm. Robbie and Jordan will both be there to speak, as well as several past HSIHADHD guests (Ryan Walter Wagner, Santina Mozgiel and hart caplan) and Dr. Anita Parhar from the Adult ADHD Centre.
Robbie and Jordan are grateful to the Simon Fraser Student-Community Engagement Competition for their monetary assistance and encouragement producing this event.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Chris Gilham of Gambling Education Network - Episode 54
Content warning: this episode contains a discussion of suicide. Listener discretion is advised.
This week Jordan speaks with Chris Gilham of Gambling Education Network and the All Bets Are Off podcast.
Chris is a recovering gambling addict and alcoholic who learned of his ADHD last year around his 40th birthday. We talk about Chris' work with gambling recovery, quieting the ADHD noise in your head, the saturation of gambling in UK sport, the power of advertising, and plenty more.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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hart caplan, Existential Psychotherapist - Episode 53
This week Robbie and Jordan are joined by Existential Psychotherapist hart caplan of Nightingale Counselling & Research.
It's a very juicy conversation as we talk Good Enough-ness, the Existentialist philosophical outlook, "ADHD Mouth Stuff," and so much more.
hart joins us around the 10 minute mark.
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Routine Maintenance - Episode 52
This week Robbie and Jordan catch up and talk about the care and maintenance of routines. What routines are working? Where do we need routine but don't have it? What routines could be refined?
We also chat about car culture, the KLF burning a million quid, and ice cream made from shrews.
CORRECTION: toward the end of the episode we talk about grape ice cream, and Jordan repeats what is evidently an internet hoax about grape ice cream and dogs. The real reasons grape ice cream is rare are apparently much less interesting. He regrets the error and is appropriately embarrassed. That said, grapes are NOT safe for dogs and should be kept where they can't get to.
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David Levy - Episode 51
This week, David Levy joins Jordan for a chat about his work at adhdcounselling.uk, his own adult ADHD discovery journey, and what he's learned about himself and others since finding this new perspective. We talk about barriers to assessment and diagnosis, advice for newly-discovered ADHDers, and a lot more!
David is a BACP-certified Counsellor who practices in-person in London UK, as well as online. Follow David and ADHD Counselling through Instagram and Twitter.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Joel St. Julien - Episode 50
Composer, musician and sound artist Joel St. Julien joins Robbie and Jordan for episode 50.
Joel recently released "Masking," a gorgeous electronic album borne from his experience discovering he has ADHD earlier this year.
It's a great conversation about self-forgiveness and growth, his creative process as a musician, and so much more.
Check out Masking on Joel's Bandcamp, and follow him on Facebook, Instagram and Twitter.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Christie Faye Collins - Episode 49
This week Nomi founder Christie Faye Collins joins Robbie and Jordan on the show.
They discuss Christie's Autism discovery, dating while neurodivergent, and Christie tells us about Nomi, a dating and friendship app she's developing to serve the neurodivergent & disabled communities.
Learn more at nomiconnect.net.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Todd and Andrew - Minisode 13
This week Todd has a question about dating with ADHD and Andrew drops by with some kind words of encouragement.
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Welcome Back - Episode 48
After a whopping 5-week forced absence we're back in the saddle! This week Robbie and Jordan catch up and answer some questions from our patrons. It's a really great chat!
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Talkin' Sh*t 2 💩 - Episode 47
We're all over the place this week! Robbie talks about getting overwhelmed on a trip to the clinic, and Jordan gets overwhelmed trying to unpack the nature of justice.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Figuring It Out feat. Carla Ciccone - Episode 46
This week journalist Carla Ciccone (New Yorker, Bon Appetit, Catapult) joins Robbie and Jordan on the show.
They discuss Carla's pandemic ADHD discovery, her career as a writer, justice sensitivity and rejection-sensitive dysphoria, internet dogpiling, and much, much more!
Check out Carla's ADHD column Late Bloomer at Catapult, and find more of her writing on Twitter and her website. You can also check out her piece about getting sober that inspired Jordan to do the same.
For more on Empire Records/Rex Manning Day, check out episode 1 of Niko Stratis' new music podcast V/A Club.
You can also check out Dani Donovan's ADHD Comics and other resources and Nedra Tawwab's book Set Boundaries, Find Peace.
CONTENT WARNING: this episode contains a discussion of sexual violence. Listener discretion is advised.
Audio note: there is a droning sound from yard equipment at times; I've done my best to mix it out but it's still noticeable, you're not imagining things.
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Thank you to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much.
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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April Fool's - Episode 45
Robbie and Jordan catch up after Robbie's recent move. We also discuss Jesse Meadows' recent piece What Is A Working Memory? and chat about how hard it is to be a trusting person on the one day a year where everyone's lying.
If you've got some money to spare, please donate to Bryce's Facial Feminization Surgery fundraiser!
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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Growing Up Twice Gifted feat. DJ Perron - Episode 44
This week Jordan sits down with Daniel "DJ" Perron. We discuss growing up "twice gifted" and undiagnosed, the alienation of being different, and how DJ's life has changed since learning he has ADHD. We also talk about how ADHD relates to his career in DevOps, and DJ introduces Jordan to Marshall Rosenberg's Nonviolent Communication.
Special thanks to Diane Fung for sending DJ our way.
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Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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The Grass Is Greener - Episode 43
This week Robbie and Jordan talk about Jesse Meadows' piece Rhythmanalyzing ADHD, Akshay Kulkarni's CBC piece about nature access and ADHD, International Women's Day through the eyes of the Gender Pay Gap Bot, and Amanda Deibert's absolutely staggering tale of trying to get paid more.
Postscript: Jordan's COVID test came back negative.
Wanna try body doubling and Pomodoro sessions? Drop in to Jordan's Twitch channel 7-11 AM Mountain, Mon-Fri! (in theory! if I can get my sleep under control! Thank you for your patience!)
Thank you to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much.
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
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We did it - Episode 42
We're in a celebration mood this week. The OMG I Have ADHD project received funding from Simon Fraser University, and this show hit 50,000 plays as well! Thanks to everyone who's been a part of the show, our first year has exceeded our expectations.
Wanna try body doubling and Pomodoro sessions? Drop in to Jordan's Twitch channel 7-11 AM Mountain, Mon-Fri!
Thank you to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
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Talkin' Sh*t 💩 - Episode 41
This week Robbie and Jordan talk about short term memory problems, feeling scatterbrained, trusting yourself and others, and... poop? 💩
Check out Jordan's previous appearances on the Zeitgeist Lab Collections podcast talking about Community and Trailer Park Boys.
Wanna try body doubling and Pomodoro sessions? Drop in to Jordan's Twitch channel 7-11 AM Mountain, Mon-Fri!
If you're a Rocket League player, add Jordan's Epic ID: OlympicToad632
Check out François Rabelais' classic satire Gargantua and Pantagruel, with illustrations by Gustave Doré, free on Project Gutenberg.
Thank you to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
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Let's Talk - Episode 40
This week is equal parts laughter and anger as Robbie and Jordan discuss Big Telecom's presence in mental health supports.
We also chat about being too stimulated to sleep, asking peers who are under-resourced for help, and belatedly celebrate our one-year podcast anniversary!
Jordan's eBay store is currently running a big sale through the end of January, with 30% off most inventory. Check it out if you're in the market for vintage!
Wanna try body doubling and Pomodoro sessions? Drop in to Jordan's Twitch channel 7-11 AM Mountain, Mon-Fri!
Thank you to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

The Three Rs: Rants, Raves and Ruminations - Episode 39
This week Robbie and Jordan cut loose! We talk about "panoramic attention," being on both sides of misdirected anger, birding, and the US Postal Service.
Also mentioned are audio ecologist Gordon Hempton and his recent appearance on On Being, sound artist Lawrence English and his label Room40, anarcho-primitivist writer John Zerzan, and Jess/Queervengeance's Instagram.
Wanna try body doubling and Pomodoro sessions? Drop in to Jordan's Twitch channel 7-11 AM Mountain, Mon-Fri!
Thank you to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

What's New In 2022? - Episode 38
This week Robbie and Jordan reflect on the first year of the podcast and chat about their plans for 2022. We also chat about Christmas baking, keeping momentum going in your life, and "resolutions" for next year.
Thank you to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

Santina Mozgiel, ADHD Therapist - Episode 37
This week Robbie and Jordan sit down with Santina Mozgiel, ADHD therapist and a registered Clinician in the Vancouver area.
Santina tells us a very funny story about her ADHD discovery, and the three of us get deep into self-perception, executive function, somatic work and the mind-body connection, ADHD resources, and more!
You can book a session with Santina or learn more about her practice at theadhdtherapist.ca.
Thank you to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
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Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

Our Year of Discovery - Episode 36
This week Robbie and Jordan catch up, talk about work (surprise!) and reflect on how we've grown in the past 12 months since learning we have ADHD. We also talk about fight, flight, fawn and freeze, and Jordan sums up 9 seasons of the WB's Supernatural in 30 seconds of yelling.
Speaking of Supernatural, Jordan mentions Mischa Barton when he means Misha Collins. He apologizes to both Mis(c)has for the error.
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers, your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

ADHD and Touch - Episode 35
This week Robbie and Jordan get in our feelings and talk touch. We discuss tactile sensitivity, feeling overwhelmed by touch, self-touch as self-care, and the perils of pedicures. We also talk posture, shaving, and rank our top 3 tactile sensations!
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers Grace K, Jessika-Don M, Carla H, Thomas B, Lindsey B, Dave M, Jill B, Page N and Brianna G. Your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
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Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

Back to Reality - Episode 34
This week Robbie and Jordan are back in their respective provinces and catch up on the last week and change. We talk about impostor syndrome and employment, body image and diet, the dawn of the Metaverse and the uncanny valley.
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers Grace K, Jessika-Don M, Carla H, Thomas B, Lindsey B, Dave M, Jill B, Page N and Brianna G. Your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

Building Your ADHD Community feat. Ryan Walter Wagner - Episode 33
This week Robbie and Jordan finally sit down with photographer, artist and musician Ryan Walter Wagner. Ryan was also an early listener of the show who identified with a lot of our experiences, which ultimately led him down the road to diagnosis.
We talk about working for yourself, impulse control and emotional regulation, the grieving process that accompanies the ADHD discovery, understanding yourself better, and Ryan's many creative projects.
Check out Ryan's Adult ADHD portrait series and his other work on his website, follow him on Instagram and Facebook, and listen to his photography podcast What's Good. You can also check out his business Good Side Photo and follow them on Instagram and Facebook.
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers Grace K, Jessika-Don M, Carla H, Thomas B, Lindsey B, Dave M, Jill B, Page N and Brianna G. Your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
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Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

Putting Yourself Out There - Episode 32
Live from Vancouver, it's Monday afternoon! Jordan is visiting so this week the show is brought to you from the comfort of Robbie's couch. We chat about Robbie's media appearance, the vulnerability and judgment that can come with "awareness," and being your own PR person.
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers Jessika-Don M, Carla H, Thomas B, Lindsey B, Dave M, Jill B, Page N and Brianna G. Your support means so much!
Robbie mentions Cicely Belle Blaine's piece "Why I Take Drugs To Answer Emails."
Towards the end of the episode Jordan speculates about podcast listener demographics. Apparently the gender breakdown is ~51%/49% men/women as of January 2021, so he apologizes for the incorrect assumption. Whoops! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

ADHD Awareness Month - Episode 31
This week Robbie and Jordan unpack the idea of "awareness" for ADHD Awareness Month. What IS awareness? Can it affect change? What are the limitations of awareness? We also discuss the Facebook outage, media consolidation, and some of our favourite jobs we've had over the years.
Awareness chat begins around the 16 min mark.
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers Carla H, Thomas B, Lindsey B, Dave M, Jill B, Page N and Brianna G. Your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
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Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

20K Celebration and the Comparison Trap - Episode 30
This week HSIHADHD celebrates 20,000 plays! Thanks to everyone who's checked the show out so far and the 300 or so of you who tune in every episode.
Robbie and Jordan discuss the trap of comparing our own career and life paths to other people's, especially those younger than us, and healthier ways to conceptualize and measure success on our own terms.
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers Lindsey B, Dave M, Jill B, Page N and Brianna G. Your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
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Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

The Vagus Nerve - Episode 29
This week Robbie and Jordan talk about the vagus nerve and its effects on regulating our parasympathetic systems, the gut-brain link, and ways to stimulate the vagus nerve to ease anxiety and find calm. We also chat about the stalemate Canadian federal election, the pressure we put on ourselves to feel productive, and Robbie surprises Jordan with some fan art from listener Susannah! Check out her portfolio, and follow her on Instagram, Twitter and TikTok!
Correction:
The sci-fi series Nick co-produced and featured in was the Psyborgs, not the Psybernauts per Jordan's bad memory.
More from this episode:
Proudly ADHD Podcast interview Dr. Ian Macnaughton about trauma and ADHD, somatic therapy, and more.
Michelle Frank on polyvagal theory in ADDitude.
Med Tech Dive's Maria Rachal's analysis of the possibilities non-invasive electrical vagus nerve stimulation offers to both patients and profit. The Deep Dive section has a good background.
Med Tech Dive's Maria Rachal on the first FDA-approved VNS treatment.
Susie Baxter presents self-massage exercises for the vagus nerve.
The Alash Ensemble perform Tuvan throat singing accompanied on the Doshpuluur, a 3-string lute.
Anna-Maria Hefele demonstrates and explains polyphonic overtone singing.
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers Lindsey B, Dave M, Jill B, Page N and Brianna G. Your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye

Hoary Old Cliches - Episode 28
This week Robbie and Jordan talk about money anxiety, negative thought loops, body doubling, external positive reinforcement, and more!
Thank you so much to our Patreon subscribers Lindsey B, Dave M, Jill B, Page N and Brianna G. Your support means so much!
Production and music by Jordan Lane.
Find HSIHADAD online:
Twitter: @hsihadhd
Instagram: @holyshitihaveadhd
Robbie: twitter.com/robertadinvan
Jordan: linktr.ee/thefresheye