
Logan Lo - On (or Close to) Schedule
By Logan Lo

Logan Lo - On (or Close to) ScheduleNov 13, 2020

Someone that believes in himself
Finally got my piña colada the other day, along with alla the seafood I would have had in Miami had we gone. It wasn't ideal but it was something.
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So Far, So Fast
I was supposed to be in Miami this week. Instead, I met up with a Frenemy and my old buddy, Paul, among others.

You bet your sweet...
I told my son that I'd always come back for him. Except, first, I had to fix my internet and that meant ripping cable off the wall.

You realize it's my birthday
My son was only home for a few days and I didn't get to do most of the things I wanted to do with him. But it was better than nuthin. And he sang to me to boot.
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Right. Our home.
My Halloween was nothing like I thought it would be. Which makes sense, because nothing is ever like I thought it would be.

You get to decide
There's this billionaire and almost billionaire that you'll recognize once I tell you about them, but they only got to be that way because they didn't want to be good at what they did.

The Shot Queen
Did I ever tell you that it was my cousin Ras that introduced me to Mouse? I figured I should just tell you.

The unexamined life
What do rent regulation and Trump's border wall have in common? They were both meant to solve a completely different problem than people think. And neither works.

All the Wrong Ghosts
I never touch Alison's keys. I suppose I should, someday. Not yet, though.

A Kettle of Hawks
You can tell if an animal is a predator or prey, depending on where its eyes are.

Conversations with Mouse
Saw a few people this weekend but, really, the best conversations of the weekend were with Mouse.

Overcorrecting
My friends make fun of me for walking around with a huge camera like a tourist. But I don't care. Someday, the digital ink will be all I have left.

We ALL have problems, Logan
Knowing your own value and the value of things is powerful. Have you ever heard of Lao Gan Ma Crispy Chili? If not, you heard about it here first. It'll be the next big thing. Trust me on this.
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Father-to-Father
My dad woulda been 82 this week. I wish I we had a chance to speak as two fathers. I wish a lotta things.

Herding cats
I've been in my head for a buncha various reasons. And my friends came and pulled me out. It's a good reason to have friends.

Everyone else does
Mouse met Alison's parents this past weekend. That was pretty surreal. And then I hung out with her brother and sister-in-law.

First bike ride
Had some nice human interactions this past weekend. One was with a stranger, the other was with my son.

He's ambulatory
In a last minute thing, some friends and I ended up having a seafood dinner literally on the street in the rain the other night.

It's not ideal but it's something
Chad and I have a new FSB talking about the Man from Nowhere. Also met up with RE Mike and Mouse for dinner the other night. All-in-all, not a bad few days.
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Goodnight, Uncle Jay
My uncle Jay just passed away. Don't be too sad. He lived a good long life and was loved and respected. We should all be so lucky.

Your computer is updating, Ms. Claire
There's a story that I was just reminded of about the kid that I wanted to tell you. He just started kindergarten, in a manner of speaking, you see...
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Don't let damaged people damage you
A number of my single friends are finding that dating in general is no fun but dating during a pandemic is the pits.

I'm not saying no
We did another Scenic Fights shoot this past weekend and Mouse ended up driving us around town. All-in-all, it was a really good weekend.

In the gutter
Got into my first accident with the scooter. Nothing too serious, I suppose. I'm glad I was wearing a helmet.

Naked Chinese Man
Naked Chinese Man
A buddy and his girl came by for dinner the other night and we played one of Alison's boardgames that's been here for years.

Rolling in Brook
That video I was in got a million views in about 11 days. A million. I'm guessing most of those were my mom. Also, I rolled for the first time in ages out in Brooklyn.

McDonald's Wars
I have a lotta rules I live by that probably wouldn't make sense to you on the surface.

That was REALLY unexpected
Somehow, that video I told you about got close to half-a-million views in FIVE DAYS. And Mouse and I took a bike and scooter ride downtown via the Hudson River Greenway.
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That was unexpected
My son says some pretty mature things, I think because I choose not to speak to him like a child.

You're in danger
I wouldn't let my son play tug-of-war and you shouldn't either. You have no idea what forces are at play here.

You alright, man?
Had an indoor BBQ to see off Chuck the other day when I realized what "grief-stricken" really means.

Grief-Stricken
Had an indoor BBQ to see off Chuck the other day when I realized what "grief-stricken" really means.

You don't know what you don't know
You don't know, what you don't know, until you know, that you didn't know it.
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The beach, a bike ride, friends, and food
I had a really nice weekend with Mouse, Chad, and some other friends. Avoiding pain is as good as happiness.
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Modern Loneliness
It's been three years since my dad died. It doesn't feel like three years.

Three Old Friends
If you've been reading this blog for a while, met up with three old friends of mine around the way.

But wait, there's more
That miserable week ended with me getting locked out of my apartment.

Then they started cutting open my floor
The next day, I was back to dealing with the flooding situation - both with a jacked-up hand and a jackhammer.
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Where to begin?
I thought I broke two fingers. I did not but the alternative wasn't much better.

It's not that bad
Ran into an old gym buddy of mine way back during 9/11. It's funny what's different and what remains the same.

Sweet Dreams
I painted the boy's room the other day with the help of some friends. There's a reason I didn't for so long.

Goodnight, Luciano
This fella named Luciano Anthony (Bianco) died last month. I wanted to tell you about him.

The Call of the Void
There's a particular type of suicidal thought called "The Call of the Void," that I feel, more than you might imagine,

Bodies to get over bodies
I understand some of what I do in life may seem grotesque to you. Somehow, I tell myself, that if I'm honest, that makes what I do better.

About Naya
This is kinda not part of my regular blog stuff; I was asked if I was a feminist once. I didn't know how to answer that.

When it rains, it pours
You would think my week would improve. You would be mistaken.

If you want something done...
...get a busy person to do it.
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Why do you have to ruin everything, Logan?
My apartment flooded the other day. That's exactly as much fun as it sounds.
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Heartgirl was Queen of my Heart
Finally told someone my sad story: Alison was the queen of my heart and I was her guard.
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No new contestant
Meant to meet up with a new contestant last week but I bailed and saw the most important woman in my life after Alison.

Hating being single
Parted ways with someone recently. And two women in my life just chatted with each other in a cool way.

Weapons invite death
Agreeing with the Gracie brothers, the very people the law Mayor DeBlasio is claiming to help will be the ones that will have to deal with the consequences of the police having less-lethal options to do their job.

How JFK killed the hat industry
To say that Trump killed his fellow Americans by the thousands is probably accurate.
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Pandemics and lifestyle
Made a pitcher of mojito the other day, met another girl with a dog, and thought about pandemics. All-in-all, a pretty busy day.

Young Boy Logan
I don't give everyone I meet a name because I never know if something is going anywhere enough to merit that.

Who am I?
People are actually only 43% human. The other 57%? Not human.
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Familiar unfamiliar territory
I've spent the last several 4ths of July by my lonesome but this year may be different.
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Cutting it Close
I saw my family on Monday for the first time in months because of COVID. It was glorious.

Clinically or...?
Chad and I've been trying to repair a bike for two months now. We shouldn't quit our day jobs.

Si vis pacem, para bellum
City's opening up again but I don't think people fully realize the price that has to be paid.

Sticks and stones
Since I've recovered from COVID, it's like someone turned up the volume and brightness on my life again.

Batman, rabbits, deer...
Since I've recovered from COVID, it's like someone turned up the volume and brightness on my life again.
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The world's loneliest creature
Have you ever heard about the loneliest whale in the world?
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There're only two types of people in the world
If you're the average of the five people you spend the most time with, who are you spending quarantine with?

Owing a debt
After the Trail of Tears, the Choctaw sent the starving Irish $170 to help them with their potato famine.

Mixed Signals
Some old friends have been keeping me company these days, in a manner of speaking.
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Cleaning the darkness around us
It's a horror when you realize you love something or someone that doesn't love you back.
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What’s the difference between 3rd Degree Murder and Involuntary Manslaughter?
My weekend was weird and centered around people potentially breaking into houses and knives.

Iceland has no mosquitoes
My weekend was weird and centered around people potentially breaking into houses and knives.

On Children
Kahlil Gibran once said, "Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself."

Some of us are Trees
99% of a tree isn't alive. Kinda like me.

Getting Strangled at Home
If you told me last year that the country would be in lockdown, and the only person I'd see was my BJJ coach, I woulda thought you were insane.

Waiting to Find Out
Alison, Ryan Reynolds, and Robert Landsberg all understood what it was like to love something greater than yourself.

The Algorithm
I run all information I get through three-steps to try to understand it better.

A Litmus Test
I've become a cautionary tale and a litmus test for those around me.

Giving me a Chance
Now that I've gotten the coronavirus under control, I've been catching up with people I've not spoken to in ages.

It's something
My BJJ coach Chad Vaźquez came by to give me a private BJJ lesson on my mats; it's not ideal but it's something.

Trading our Sad Stories
Saw my son briefly the other day. It was too brief. And my quest for fried chicken continues.

Damaged People Are Dangerous
This lady named Josephine Hart once said something like: Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
Watching the news these days, I'm reminded of things like that. If nothing else, I survive things. Even when I don't wanna.
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Yes, Really
Just a few days ago, the amount of people in the US that died from Covid-19, 58,355, surpassed the number of people that died from the Vietnam war, 58,220.
9.26 people died each day in the Vietnam War but 589.44 Americans died each day here from Covid-19. But each one of those numbers was a person. And now, people are pressuring change at the risk of more lives. I don't know how anyone is ok with that.
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Doubling-Down, Pt 2 - Baseline
This is a long entry because I recently got confirmation of something I thought I knew.
Did you know that you need a physical injury for cancer? You can't mentally will someone to get cancer, you have to have something actually injure you - a virus (HPV), a particle (asbestos, coal), a physical action (tick bite), something.
Well, when you hurt someone, without early intervention, that injury metastasizes like cancer. And the loneliest people in the world not only don't intervene, they double and triple-down, to ensure that there's no relationship.
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Doubling-Down, Pt 1
Got a lotta time to think and write. Let me tell you a story about a dude I know.
Do you remember when I gave you that three-step PSA on how to apologize?
The words: “I’m sorry.” Some manifestation of contrition: “I feel awful about what I did; there’s no excuse.” Some overt act to try make things right again: "I'll make it up to you. Let's go to counseling."I submit that a lotta lonely people are the ones that don't understand that apologies are a three-step process.

Stupid attractive
Been thinking a lot of best friends and loyalty lately.

IDGAF
I'm getting audited again. After everything that I've been through, it's hard to care, even though I know that I should. Honestly, though, IDGAF.

Goodnight, Nick
A fella I've known practically my whole life just passed away, right before his birthday. That bothers me more than you might imagine.

Lunch by the River
Met up with my coach, BJJ instructor Chad Vaźquez, for lunch downtown at the John V. Lindsay East River Park in Manhattan. It was the first time I saw a friend - well, really, anyone since the coronavirus hit. It was weird seeing other human beings again. But good.