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Just Maria KV

Just Maria KV

By Maria Vandenburg

💗 My name is Maria Vandenburg.💃
💞 My website is:
I have a deep desire to share my journey, my hopes, my fears, my ups, my downs, my love, my light, and my "darkness" (which I believe there is beauty in). Thanks for tuning in ❤️

This podcast and all of my work is about coming to terms with who I am and stepping confidently into my own skin. Knowing that I am Enough, just as I am, and hopefully, a similar recognition for any and all who happen's to listen🌟​

Thank you for tuning in and taking the time to check it out❤️
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Surrending to the Process with Trust...

Just Maria KVAug 31, 2023

Surrending to the Process with Trust...

Surrending to the Process with Trust...

Current update on my employment journey
Aug 31, 202306:41
Is the Grass Greener on the Other Side?

Is the Grass Greener on the Other Side?

Life Update for 2023... highlights include

-My time with Microsoft supporting the Xandr and Netflix Integrations

-Emerging from my third dark night of the soul

-Traveling to Turkiye AND

opening up to what's next 🌱✨

Jun 21, 202310:37
Solstice/End of Year Reflections on 2021

Solstice/End of Year Reflections on 2021

You can find out more about these all here:

Sending lots of love to everyone out there!

Dec 23, 202115:41
Finding Calm in the Maria Storm

Finding Calm in the Maria Storm

What the last "8-9 Month Incubation Period" has shown me.

You can find out more here

Thank you for taking the time to tune in

Oct 11, 202113:25
Allowing the Uncomfortable

Allowing the Uncomfortable

How does one make peace with life's more difficult emotions?

I don't know, but this seems to be my journey present moment.

Jul 03, 202108:25
Deepening into Trust....

Deepening into Trust....

Reflections on week four of the new job. 

May 10, 202107:32
Week Two: Allowing for Patience and the act of Slowing Down

Week Two: Allowing for Patience and the act of Slowing Down

Week two of my journey at the new job has been about leaning into patience.... of myself.

Slowing down and being OK with not knowing... allowing myself time, space, ease and grace to get to know the company culture and ways of working a bit more.

I haven't worked in a work environment that really allows space and honors people's feelings and emotions before, it's an incredibly beautiful thing to be a part of, but also asks for a shift in my state of being and operating.

I'm being asked to slow down, trust, and BE... which is an adjustment for the impatient, incessant do-ing nature of me....  

Apr 24, 202109:18
The Start of My Dream Job at Sounds True

The Start of My Dream Job at Sounds True

Sharing what week one of Sounds True has been for me, a combination of gratitude and fear (the fear part I wasn't anticipating), but I did want to take a second to document my journey in its entirety.

More to come!

Grateful for the start though even if I'm still navigating through the integration.

Apr 18, 202110:22
Writing Our Story: Chapter One Reflections: The Power of Acceptance

Writing Our Story: Chapter One Reflections: The Power of Acceptance

This week we began to write our story, focusing in on

 The Power of Intention

 The Power of Commitment

 The Power of Acceptance

 The Power of Creativity

 The Power of the Pause

 The Power of Gratitude

And of course, some Rest & Reflection.

It's been such a powerful practice coming into the new year. In 2021, with ALL of the craziness of the world around us, how do we come to realize and know that we are that Super Hero we have been longing and waiting for?

Absolutely free to join as we strongly believe that this is what the world needs more than ever...

It's time that you realize that you are enough... just as you are.

So come and join us as we write the story of the future that we have all been dreaming of... together.

Link to join is here:

Jan 10, 202109:49
With the New Year comes the Launch of my First Company

With the New Year comes the Launch of my First Company

Share my hopes and dreams with the launch of my own company and how I can often get in my own way.
Would love to have you join us (free to join) here

Jan 02, 202106:14
The Start of the Inner MBA Program: Beginning with the End in Mind

The Start of the Inner MBA Program: Beginning with the End in Mind

The program I am going to focus on today is the Inner MBA, a program put on by Sounds True, LinkedIn, Wisdom 2.0, Mindful NYU, and a few additional organizations. The Inner MBA is "a nine-month immersion program to train leaders, entrepreneurs, managers, and employees on how to powerfully grow themselves and their companies" (Inner MBA website)

We had our all-day orientation yesterday and I was amazed at what the team was able to accomplish. We had close to 1,000 of us gathered from over 50 different countries to collectively launch this program. Tami Simon (Founder and CEO of Sounds True) and Soren Gordhamer (Founder of Wisdom 2.0) kicked us off for a day filled with interviews, visualizations, and interactions. One of my biggest hesitations/concerns with this program was "how am I going to feel truly seen and heard in a group of thousands?" Well, the Inner MBA team proved to me yesterday that I could. Throughout the day we broke off into 1x1 groups to discuss what was moving through us, and we had the opportunity to connect in community. I loved this almost as much as I loved all of the knowledge that was shared through Tami, Soren, Richard Stozzi-Heckler, Lisa Lahey, and Rose Macario.

During our opening exercise, Tami asked us three different questions and invited us to reflect on them. She asked us to "begin with the end in mind." So, if we are forward-thinking and envisioning ourselves nine months from now as graduates of this inaugural program, we were asked to ponder and answer three different questions

  1. What is the personal transformation that I/We want to experience?
  2. How do I/We want our work relationships to change?
  3. How will our world of work/organizations change and why does it matter?

I recorded a video talking through how this is currently showing up for me but I also wanted to record it below. As you will come to see (or maybe you have witnessed this within me already), I am the type of person that LOVES to document my journey. I love being able to reflect back on where I was as well as who I become, and this process enables that depth of expansion for me.

Sep 20, 202014:02
30 Days of Authenticity Final Reflections: I am Love, Light, Power and Balance, and I am Here

30 Days of Authenticity Final Reflections: I am Love, Light, Power and Balance, and I am Here

My final reflections on the live journey of hosting this course for the first time with Intention Inspired.  

Week Three Reflections live here:  

Week Two Reflections live here: 

Week One Reflections live here:  

It's been a pretty epic journey, you can find out more about 30 Days of Authenticity here:

Sep 05, 202016:44
30 Days of Authenticity Week Three Reflections: I am Enough

30 Days of Authenticity Week Three Reflections: I am Enough

30 Days of Authenticity. Day 21. I am Reflective

Lots surfacing for me today. I wrote a blog and recorded a video about it all here:

But the bottom line is that through my work this week, my allowance of what is, my being willing to show up exactly as I am (which this week was heartbroken) showed me that I can be loved and accepted for who I am, just as I am.

Something I never fully realized before the activities of the past week.
Although this week has honestly been one of the hardest moments of my entire life, I can honestly say that I am beginning to appreciate why I have been and continue to be experiencing this heartbreak and grief, because it is has allowed me to land into this purpose statement as we move into week four:

🌟I love, embrace, and accept myself just as I am. I am willing to be seen🌟

Aug 22, 202013:02
30 Days of Authenticity Week Two Reflections: Love and Acceptance of What is

30 Days of Authenticity Week Two Reflections: Love and Acceptance of What is

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Aug 15, 202020:21
30 Days of Authenticity: Week One Reflections - Working with my Fear of Being Seen

30 Days of Authenticity: Week One Reflections - Working with my Fear of Being Seen

You can join 30 Days of Authenticity here:  

Or Follow Me on Instagram here:  

Reflecting  again on what I have witnessed within myself this past week has left me with the following  

Day 1: I am Conscious: I was surprised to witness that my fear of being seen really surfaced here, that and my fear of the unknown. The tools I equated navigating those fears is curiosity and trust with the unknown, and being brave and willing to show up and speak my truth with the fear of being seen  

Day 2: I am Loved: it was beautiful to be able witness my own ability to receive love deepen here and also get clear on how I am truly learning to love ALL parts of myself which includes the part of me that is insecure or sad/mad/angry/wounded  

Day 3: I am Powerful: The reminder of the power of being awake, aware and at choice as well as remembering how easily I can shift my focus/gaze/perspective surfaced here from just the simple act of looking up.  

Day 4: I am Compassionate: I actually really loved how this day played out because it reminded me that I am human. It grounded me back into what is. I was actually pretty upset this week but I was trying to pretend that I wasn't, and on Day 4 I really allowed myself to be with what is and my world shifted as I just loved and held myself as I was.  

Day 5: I am Open: The I am statement I ended up with was: I am willing to be with what is  

Day 6: I am Forgiving: I realized that Bianca AGAIN stems from my desire to be "seen" - which also ties into the largest fear rising in me in terms of the course itself.  I long for it and I'm terrified of it all at the exact same time, two sides of the same coin... yet again ANOTHER theme for me within this course.. 3.0  

So if I'm going to adjust to a purpose statement/intention for the rest of 30 days of Authenticity. Something that challenges me a bit, it's:  "I am willing to be with what is and allow myself to be seen."  AHH. deep breathes Maria, deep breathes.

Aug 08, 202025:58
How I am being compassionate with myself

How I am being compassionate with myself

I think it's important that we are all compassionate with ourselves right now.

One of the key things I got from Amy Leo in 30 days of Love (and there were a lot of beautiful and profound moments within that particular journey), was that we are only ever able to operate from our current level of consciousness/awareness.

As I'm diving in to do the work, I'm realizing that there are all kinds of things both within myself and within society the world around me that I have put up with. But I think it's so important here to not beat myself up for that. I wasn't at the level of consciousness yet that these truths would have really landed. I wasn't back then who I am now.

The podcast is about two things

1. Being compassionate with yourself as we all start to do the work to uncover our unconscious biases and the veils are lifted within how our society is currently running and what needs to change

2. Using that new level of awareness for good. Now that we are uncovering and surfacing our unconscious biases, how can we affect change? How can we as Michael Beckwith asked us  a few days ago "Be the best versions of ourselves that we are capable of being?"

Also, how are you guys doing?

Sending love and light out there.

Jun 09, 202004:28
To Love Someone is to Take them on As Yourself

To Love Someone is to Take them on As Yourself

That's a quote I love from Teal Swan and a pretty good defining statement for my life in its current moment.

Remember when we thought life was challenging in 2019?

To say that these last few weeks have been a bit intense is a bit of an understatement.

I wanted to take a second to step back, slow down, and share what this journey has looked like for me.

Step One: Realizing our Interconnection and saying Enough is EnoughIt started with working through Day 26 of the 30 Days of Love series through Intention Inspired. On Day 26 was the Intention of "I am Connected" - which focused on the idea that I (we) are all interconnected. It was on that particular day that George Floyd's death came into awareness and my heart broke for the black community. That thought and intention fueled this post.

It started with me saying "enough is enough" and having a heartfelt desire to want to help, but not knowing how

Step Two: Asking What is Mine to Do Next. 

The next phase (which is currently going on in all honesty and actually will probably be going on for the rest of my life) was me realizing that it isn't up to anyone other than me to be the change I want to see in the world. So how I'm currently feeling called to do that? Well, I'm feeling pulled to show up, I'm being pulled to share what's on my heart (even if I'm fearful or scared of saying or doing the "wrong" thing or inadvertently or unintentionally offending or hurting someone. I'm also feeling pulled to educate myself, every day I'm reading articles and watching videos and tuning into podcasts. I've also joined two different study groups on the book "How to be an Anti-Racist."  BUT I'm also realizing that my own experience, is my own experience and what you are feeling called and compelled to do may be completely different than my own. It's been about tuning into our hearts and learning to follow our own guidance and our own intuition. It goes back to my first sentence here, no one else can tell you what's yours to do next, and I recognize that all of our paths are different and perfect for us.

Step Three: Learning to Love "The Other" - that's what this whole blog post is about actually.

It's what I talk about in the video (linked above). It's learning to see myself within you and see you within me. It's also about being compassionate with myself as well for not having the level of awareness that I do now, so that way I can learn to truly, see and know something that I originally considered "outside" of myself AS myself.

Lots more to unpack here, but what I am feeling pulled to is learning to move "from me to we"

I love you all, I would love to hear how each one of you are doing? Let me know. ❤️

Jun 07, 202013:56
Finding the Need for Balance

Finding the Need for Balance

I have actually felt a bit overwhelmed yesterday and today, I have been struggling with focus. This going to be a bit harder for me to put into words but I am going to try.

I've recently tuned into a man named John Wineland and he talks about how we have two energies within us - masculine and feminine. I knew that before (that I'm made up of both) but I didn't really understand what that meant, or the difference between the two. The masculine energy is related to consciousness/action/form/structure, the feminine is related to flow/pleasure/passion/receptivity. And ideally we are living with both in balance and harmony.  My whole life I've pretty much been in my masculine and am now slowly learning to embrace my feminity. But that means I've been so caught up in being in the flow that I've gotten out of balance, with my masculine energies crying out because they're longing for integrity and structure, not just a constant feeling into what feels right in the given moment.

I was on a call this morning where a woman asked a question that spoke to exactly where I was at. She was talking about how she feels a bit like she is lacking in focus and yet longing for it at the same time. John suggested that in the morning she spend time tuning into 3-4 things she might need to do that day in order to go to sleep that night without any thought. Then, she needs to block out time to focus on those particular things. She also mentioned her inner rebel will probably come out and yell about the structure, and he suggested she should allow for its expression (as in he stomped around and screamed a bit impersonating his own) but then move on and get to work.

This resonated for me because I currently feel like I'm weaving through two things.

1. The need to be in flow

2. The desire to get sh*t done

And they currently feel like they are battling it out.

So what am I planning on doing? Incorporating the practice of meditation and stillness to get more clear on the three or four things that would keep me up at night that I need to actually tackle during the day, and blocking on the time to do them.

I also set a 5-minute timer and sat in stillness before writing this post, and it was interesting to me because I'm also realizing that I need to let go of the "multi-tasker" that lives within me. As it's NOT productive, it's distractive.

So stillness for me is showing up as clarity, and ease and calm. My mind seems to be running a million miles an hour and telling me all kinds of things that I should be doing and that I should be doing them right now, my body seems to be telling me to rest, relax and feel into the next moment, and I need a healthy balance between the two. I'm planning on using time in the morning to be still and focus on priorities, blocking out time in the day to focus in on those said priorities (without multi-tasking and distractions), and also having PATIENCE AND COMPASSION with myself if I fail.

This is an interesting thing to emerge from my practice of stillness today, but it is what it is. I'm currently feeling a bit out of whack, and my body/mind is asking for unity, form, and structure.

May 27, 202008:06
Accepting What Is

Accepting What Is

This particular podcast is about really trying to get to a state of acceptance (haven't fully got there yet, but I'm getting closer), where I'm appreciating what is, acknowledging what I want, and opening up the space for me to be able to receive it.

Phew! Lots of internal work going on here, but it's like I'm laying the foundations for the rest of my life, so despite the discomfort, I'm grateful.

May 19, 202007:41
I AM Enough

I AM Enough

Today, I have changed the story that I have been telling myself to realize that I am enough, JUST as I am. I have been saying this for a few years, it's my mission on my website, but I didn't really understand what it full meant, and now I do.

With 30 Days of Love with Amy Leo and Intention Inspired we have been weaving our way through the intentions of I am Enough and I am Unbroken.

I've been so grateful for this because as these deeper truths sink in I am able to not only re-create my own story, but also re-create the world I am birthing through Crown Jewels: Book One, and it feels immensely good.

May 10, 202006:02
Riding the Waves of Grief

Riding the Waves of Grief

I've realized that there waves of grief.

Yesterday, I was feeling so good!

I had done a burning ritual and released stuff with the full moon, but today? Today I woke up sad. I woke up sad and feeling really lonely.

I was sad and a bit upset with myself. "Why am I not fully healed yet? Why isn't this heartache gone? I thought I had released it all!!"

But I'm learning to not judge myself for these feelings that I am allowing to surface, to hold myself. To love myself. To know that they are temporary and will pass.

But it's a cycle, and what I connected to today strongly, is that I need to really know that I am enough, even when I'm caught up in the waves of grief, that I am enough. Just as I am.

May 09, 202007:02
Episode 12: Unconditional Love

Episode 12: Unconditional Love

Today I felt compelled to explore the idea of unconditionally loving myself. I realized that that is why 30 days of Love is surfacing so much for me. It's about truly understanding what that really means.

May 07, 202005:38
Episode 11: I've realized this all about learning to love myself
May 04, 202008:25
30 Days of Love: Day 2 I am Humble Reflections

30 Days of Love: Day 2 I am Humble Reflections

I loved the reflection today on the role of the ego. I have been turned off by many spiritual teachers and programs with the idea that the ego is something that is "bad" and needs to be "mastered" or even "killed."

For me, personally, I find ease and peace with the idea learning to love my ego, to appreciate it's desire to want to protect and also it's desire to be seen and heard. Learning to come into a healthy relationship and balance with my ego has been key and it's something that I work on and work through pretty much daily.

Two things have surfaced for me today as I have been exploring the idea of humility.

1. The idea of having a healthy relationship and really loving and appreciating my ego/mind.

2. Teal Swan's words are coming to mind here and are what I experienced when completing the deeper dive as well as reading Amy's thoughts - that "to love someone is to take them on as yourself." Meaning to see yourself within them, to relate to and connect into them and see them within you. It's a little trickier when triggered, but magical when that switch can happen.

Also, my words have absolutely been failing me these days, because so much of what I have been feeling is well "feeling" (that's the closest way I can think to describe it), so I'm hoping I'm articulating this well.

Oh - and a deep love and appreciation for Amy Leo, that's super present for me right now as well.

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May 03, 202009:12
My Heart Awakening (Part Two.. or Three)

My Heart Awakening (Part Two.. or Three)

There is so much going on in my current moment that it's been hard for me to find words for it, but I am trying.

At the base of it all is an expansion of my level of consciousness that has been caused by awakening and stirring within my heart, but I'm in a bit of awe and wonder at everything that seems to be coming in at this current moment in time.

Apr 30, 202007:34
Episode 8: Trust

Episode 8: Trust

During this episode, I realized that what is allowing me to make peace with all of the uncertainty that's showing up in my life - is when I'm able to get that moment of trust.

Trusting in myself, but also trusting in the fact that I am not going through this alone.

Apr 28, 202009:36
Episode 7: Giving myself Permission to Feel my Feelings

Episode 7: Giving myself Permission to Feel my Feelings

Felt the pull to start recording my life and the authentic moments within it, so this the second episode of me doing just that.

For more details on me:  

My Blog is here:  

Website is here:  

The email I read was from a woman called Katie Stone at Ubuntu Wellness Y

ou can find out more about her here:

Apr 27, 202012:57
Episode 6: Getting Real with myself

Episode 6: Getting Real with myself

I'm starting to realize that recording this podcast is really going to require a level of bravery, vulnerability and authenticity that I need to have the courage to do.

This is the first episode of me speaking my truth.

Apr 25, 202009:51
Episode 5: Remembering that I'm not alone
Apr 24, 202009:00
Episode 4: Being Gentle and focusing on Love
Apr 23, 202011:55
Episode 3 - New Moon and Earth Day
Apr 22, 202007:46
Episode 2 - Finding the Need to Be
Apr 21, 202007:39
Episode 1 - The Start
Apr 20, 202010:20