Just Maria KV

You can find out more about these all here:
https://www.justmariakv.com/post/reflections-and-gifts-from-2021

Sending lots of love to everyone out there!

What the last "8-9 Month Incubation Period" has shown me.

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www.justmariakv.com/blog

Thank you for taking the time to tune in

How does one make peace with life's more difficult emotions?

I don't know, but this seems to be my journey present moment.

Reflections on week four of the new job. 

Week two of my journey at the new job has been about leaning into patience.... of myself.

Slowing down and being OK with not knowing... allowing myself time, space, ease and grace to get to know the company culture and ways of working a bit more.

I haven't worked in a work environment that really allows space and honors people's feelings and emotions before, it's an incredibly beautiful thing to be a part of, but also asks for a shift in my state of being and operating.

I'm being asked to slow down, trust, and BE... which is an adjustment for the impatient, incessant do-ing nature of me....  

Sharing what week one of Sounds True has been for me, a combination of gratitude and fear (the fear part I wasn't anticipating), but I did want to take a second to document my journey in its entirety.

More to come!

Grateful for the start though even if I'm still navigating through the integration.

This week we began to write our story, focusing in on

 The Power of Intention

 The Power of Commitment

 The Power of Acceptance

 The Power of Creativity

 The Power of the Pause

 The Power of Gratitude

And of course, some Rest & Reflection.

It's been such a powerful practice coming into the new year. In 2021, with ALL of the craziness of the world around us, how do we come to realize and know that we are that Super Hero we have been longing and waiting for?

Absolutely free to join as we strongly believe that this is what the world needs more than ever...

It's time that you realize that you are enough... just as you are.

So come and join us as we write the story of the future that we have all been dreaming of... together.

Link to join is here: https://www.weare-justus.com/posts/writing-our-story-invitation-to-journey-with-us

Share my hopes and dreams with the launch of my own company and how I can often get in my own way.
Would love to have you join us (free to join) here

https://www.weare-justus.com

My final reflections on the live journey of hosting this course for the first time with Intention Inspired.  

Week Three Reflections live here:  

https://www.justmariakv.com/post/30-days-of-authenticity-i-am-enough 

https://www.justmariakv.com/post/30-days-of-authenticity-using-my-deepest-core-wound-as-a-portal  

Week Two Reflections live here: https://www.justmariakv.com/post/30-days-of-authenticity-week-two-the-embrace-of-what-is 

Week One Reflections live here: https://www.justmariakv.com/post/working-with-my-fear-and-longing-to-be-seen  

It's been a pretty epic journey, you can find out more about 30 Days of Authenticity here: https://intentioninspired.com/join-authenticity/

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Reflecting  again on what I have witnessed within myself this past week has left me with the following  

Day 1: I am Conscious: I was surprised to witness that my fear of being seen really surfaced here, that and my fear of the unknown. The tools I equated navigating those fears is curiosity and trust with the unknown, and being brave and willing to show up and speak my truth with the fear of being seen  

Day 2: I am Loved: it was beautiful to be able witness my own ability to receive love deepen here and also get clear on how I am truly learning to love ALL parts of myself which includes the part of me that is insecure or sad/mad/angry/wounded  

Day 3: I am Powerful: The reminder of the power of being awake, aware and at choice as well as remembering how easily I can shift my focus/gaze/perspective surfaced here from just the simple act of looking up.  

Day 4: I am Compassionate: I actually really loved how this day played out because it reminded me that I am human. It grounded me back into what is. I was actually pretty upset this week but I was trying to pretend that I wasn't, and on Day 4 I really allowed myself to be with what is and my world shifted as I just loved and held myself as I was.  

Day 5: I am Open: The I am statement I ended up with was: I am willing to be with what is  

Day 6: I am Forgiving: I realized that Bianca AGAIN stems from my desire to be "seen" - which also ties into the largest fear rising in me in terms of the course itself.  I long for it and I'm terrified of it all at the exact same time, two sides of the same coin... yet again ANOTHER theme for me within this course.. 3.0  

So if I'm going to adjust to a purpose statement/intention for the rest of 30 days of Authenticity. Something that challenges me a bit, it's:  "I am willing to be with what is and allow myself to be seen."  AHH. deep breathes Maria, deep breathes.

I think it's important that we are all compassionate with ourselves right now.

One of the key things I got from Amy Leo in 30 days of Love (and there were a lot of beautiful and profound moments within that particular journey), was that we are only ever able to operate from our current level of consciousness/awareness.

As I'm diving in to do the work, I'm realizing that there are all kinds of things both within myself and within society the world around me that I have put up with. But I think it's so important here to not beat myself up for that. I wasn't at the level of consciousness yet that these truths would have really landed. I wasn't back then who I am now.

The podcast is about two things

1. Being compassionate with yourself as we all start to do the work to uncover our unconscious biases and the veils are lifted within how our society is currently running and what needs to change

2. Using that new level of awareness for good. Now that we are uncovering and surfacing our unconscious biases, how can we affect change? How can we as Michael Beckwith asked us  a few days ago "Be the best versions of ourselves that we are capable of being?"

Also, how are you guys doing?

Sending love and light out there.

I have actually felt a bit overwhelmed yesterday and today, I have been struggling with focus. This entry.is going to be a bit harder for me to put into words but I am going to try.

I've recently tuned into a man named John Wineland and he talks about how we have two energies within us - masculine and feminine. I knew that before (that I'm made up of both) but I didn't really understand what that meant, or the difference between the two. The masculine energy is related to consciousness/action/form/structure, the feminine is related to flow/pleasure/passion/receptivity. And ideally we are living with both in balance and harmony.  My whole life I've pretty much been in my masculine and am now slowly learning to embrace my feminity. But that means I've been so caught up in being in the flow that I've gotten out of balance, with my masculine energies crying out because they're longing for integrity and structure, not just a constant feeling into what feels right in the given moment.

I was on a call this morning where a woman asked a question that spoke to exactly where I was at. She was talking about how she feels a bit like she is lacking in focus and yet longing for it at the same time. John suggested that in the morning she spend time tuning into 3-4 things she might need to do that day in order to go to sleep that night without any thought. Then, she needs to block out time to focus on those particular things. She also mentioned her inner rebel will probably come out and yell about the structure, and he suggested she should allow for its expression (as in he stomped around and screamed a bit impersonating his own) but then move on and get to work.

This resonated for me because I currently feel like I'm weaving through two things.

1. The need to be in flow

2. The desire to get sh*t done

And they currently feel like they are battling it out.

So what am I planning on doing? Incorporating the practice of meditation and stillness to get more clear on the three or four things that would keep me up at night that I need to actually tackle during the day, and blocking on the time to do them.

I also set a 5-minute timer and sat in stillness before writing this post, and it was interesting to me because I'm also realizing that I need to let go of the "multi-tasker" that lives within me. As it's NOT productive, it's distractive.

So stillness for me is showing up as clarity, and ease and calm. My mind seems to be running a million miles an hour and telling me all kinds of things that I should be doing and that I should be doing them right now, my body seems to be telling me to rest, relax and feel into the next moment, and I need a healthy balance between the two. I'm planning on using time in the morning to be still and focus on priorities, blocking out time in the day to focus in on those said priorities (without multi-tasking and distractions), and also having PATIENCE AND COMPASSION with myself if I fail.

This is an interesting thing to emerge from my practice of stillness today, but it is what it is. I'm currently feeling a bit out of whack, and my body/mind is asking for unity, form, and structure.

This particular podcast is about really trying to get to a state of acceptance (haven't fully got there yet, but I'm getting closer), where I'm appreciating what is, acknowledging what I want, and opening up the space for me to be able to receive it.

Phew! Lots of internal work going on here, but it's like I'm laying the foundations for the rest of my life, so despite the discomfort, I'm grateful.

Today, I have changed the story that I have been telling myself to realize that I am enough, JUST as I am. I have been saying this for a few years, it's my mission on my website, but I didn't really understand what it full meant, and now I do.

With 30 Days of Love with Amy Leo and Intention Inspired we have been weaving our way through the intentions of I am Enough and I am Unbroken.

I've been so grateful for this because as these deeper truths sink in I am able to not only re-create my own story, but also re-create the world I am birthing through Crown Jewels: Book One, and it feels immensely good.

I've realized that there waves of grief.

Yesterday, I was feeling so good!

I had done a burning ritual and released stuff with the full moon, but today? Today I woke up sad. I woke up sad and feeling really lonely.

I was sad and a bit upset with myself. "Why am I not fully healed yet? Why isn't this heartache gone? I thought I had released it all!!"

But I'm learning to not judge myself for these feelings that I am allowing to surface, to hold myself. To love myself. To know that they are temporary and will pass.

But it's a cycle, and what I connected to today strongly, is that I need to really know that I am enough, even when I'm caught up in the waves of grief, that I am enough. Just as I am.

Today I felt compelled to explore the idea of unconditionally loving myself. I realized that that is why 30 days of Love is surfacing so much for me. It's about truly understanding what that really means.

There is so much going on in my current moment that it's been hard for me to find words for it, but I am trying.

At the base of it all is an expansion of my level of consciousness that has been caused by awakening and stirring within my heart, but I'm in a bit of awe and wonder at everything that seems to be coming in at this current moment in time.

During this episode, I realized that what is allowing me to make peace with all of the uncertainty that's showing up in my life - is when I'm able to get that moment of trust.

Trusting in myself, but also trusting in the fact that I am not going through this alone.

Felt the pull to start recording my life and the authentic moments within it, so this the second episode of me doing just that.

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My Blog is here: www.justmariakv.com/blog  

Website is here: www.justmariakv.com  

The email I read was from a woman called Katie Stone at Ubuntu Wellness Y

ou can find out more about her here: https://www.ubuntuwellness.net/

I'm starting to realize that recording this podcast is really going to require a level of bravery, vulnerability and authenticity that I need to have the courage to do.

This is the first episode of me speaking my truth.