Pickles and Vodka: a Mental Health Podcast

We play a listener voicemail sent in response to the question “What’s going on with you?” This unlocks a conversation about fitting in and doing the work in the face of constant existential dread that wants you as miserable as possible. Lauren gives a treatment update, Christina talks about beer, and we disagree about gratitude journals. Enjoy! Special thanks to Orion (@robotakiss) for this week’s voicemail! Follow Pickles and Vodka for biweekly polls, behind-the-scenes updates, or to start your own conversation: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

How do you curate a sense of security in the face of uncertainty? We don't really have the answer, but we DO have lots of anxiety-fueled stories. Tangents this week include introducing parents to friends (and why Christina loves it), which country Lauren is considering escaping to with her dog, and Jodi Picoult. Enjoy! Follow Pickles and Vodka for biweekly polls, behind-the-scenes updates, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Since we're too depressed to stick to our regularly scheduled program, we're treating everyone (but mostly ourselves) to another movie discussion! This week, we watched the 2015 Pixar film Inside Out, which follows a preteen as her emotions attempt to guide her through life's big changes. We laughed, we cried, we went on many tangents, and ultimately devastated ourselves while analyzing this incredibly poignant film. Tell us what you thought! Follow Pickles and Vodka for biweekly polls, behind-the-scenes updates, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Lauren makes an announcement, then we talk about types of barriers that keep us from accessing the help we need. This one is extra vulnerable, y'all. Content warning for eating disorders (including some sensitive language around weight) and substance abuse. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Our listeners respond to the question “What helps when nothing really helps?” We also use a negative experience to start a conversation about accountability, communication, and personal growth. Enjoy! Special thanks to listeners Heather and Orion for sending in voicemails this week! We really want to send y’all stickers. Follow Pickles and Vodka to take part in the biweekly poll, send feedback, or just say hi Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Sometimes life is hard and solutions seem impossible. In your bleakest moments, can anything make it better? Christina and Lauren share what has helped them at their lowest, how to determine what you really need and ways to ask for it, what REALLY doesn't help, and what's been distracting them from their pain. Tangents include bodychecking, DND, harm reduction, and memes. Stay tuned for Part 2 in which we share YOUR experiences! Check out the links below for ways to answer the question "What helps when nothing really helps?" and send your response by Friday 2/24 at midnight EST to be part of the next episode. Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

What do you keep putting off even though it would help your mental health? We read answers from listeners, admit to ways we're procrastinating and how it's hurting us, fail a quiz, make ourselves depressed again, and almost procrastinate wrapping up the episode—but not without landing on an unexpected conclusion. Enjoy! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

What do you minimize and why? More importantly, what would it take for you to believe that it’s valid? In this episode, we tackle this question for ourselves and also hear what some of you had to say. Listen to hear how we minimized ourselves into “rock bottom” only to minimize some more, ways we flew under the radar by ignoring our needs, and why we should all be emotional maximalists. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Inspired by tabloid news, your attention-deficit cohosts have a conversation about labels in the mental health world. Topics and tangents include: Ways we feel stuck and ashamed in our eating disorders this week Glennon Doyle’s recent anorexia diagnosis and ensuing controversy Differentiating professional diagnoses and personal labels Labels we’ve given ourselves, labels others have given us, and labels we’ve reclaimed How online dating has changed the way we label ourselves Reddit and r/ProED (RIP) When it’s healthy to internalize labels and when to let them go Our most low-effort (but still delicious) palate cleanser yet CONTENT WARNING: We talk about eating disorders more than usual on this episode, though we try not to go into detail when it comes to behaviors. No pressure to listen if this type of conversation is triggering to you in any way. Follow Pickles and Vodka to join the conversation or just say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka: a Mental Health Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Article: Author Glennon Doyle reveals anorexia diagnosis: ‘I did not believe it’ Reddit thread: Glennon Doyle’s newest podcast episode. (Anorexia diagnosis) Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Today's episode draws from listener feedback to discuss ways we can set boundaries for ourselves and what to do when your boundaries aren't respected. Topics (and tangents!) include: Getting reported on Instagram Our attempts to diagnose ourselves with ADHD (and what we learned thanks to Google) Listening to your gut and creating boundaries from a place of self-respect How to form boundaries when you have low self-esteem and worry about losing people How to say no and exit with grace Times we've broken our own boundaries Times someone else drew a boundary against us Physical boundaries, verbal boundaries, using body language to convey boundaries, and everything in between Lil Peep, Everybody's Everything, and substance use A bill of rights Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka: a Mental Health Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Your imperfect yet oh-so-professional cohosts return in the new year to dish about the past and take a messy look into family dynamics. (Dish about family? Look messily into the past? Take your pick.) Topics (and tangents) include: The incident that blew up Lauren’s life right after we recorded our in-person episode two weeks ago More insurance nightmares The LIVE ON-AIR death of Gary the microphone A milestone for Christina and why she doesn’t want to talk about it How our respective families deal with secrets and what happens when they get out Our reactions when family members share they’ve been sharing similar struggles Thinking back to all the times we were f*cked up at family events and wondering why nobody said anything Anxieties around spilling our guts on the Internet for anyone to hear Ways addiction and depression has been talked about (and covered up) in our families Being vulnerable with people who don’t know how to respond Controversy around weed Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Happy New Year, hot and spicy pickles! Today we are FINALLY releasing the episode we made in Lauren's living room after meeting in person for the first time. We answer listener questions, give out tragic awards, and attempt to hold it together in the only ways we know how. Enjoy!  Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

This week we’re baring it all in an attempt to keep being honest on this stupid show. Topics include: Why we’re tired of being strong for the holidays (and in general) Ways we’ve been struggling and why talking about it is hard Mental roadblocks preventing you from seeking support Turning to substances and self-harm instead of being vulnerable Putting on a shell to protect yourself from being disappointed Being vulnerable at the wrong place or time Spilling your guts online vs IRL Drifting away from friends and blaming yourself Ways vulnerability has helped—and hurt—us Things you can do to make vulnerability more accessible As we wrap up another year of Pickles and Vodka, we want to thank you for taking a chance and being vulnerable with us. Y’all keep us sane. (Or at least sane-ish.) We are recording LIVE and IN PERSON for the first time ever next week! Follow us on social media to join the fun: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

It's messy, it's nonlinear AF, and it's definitely not for everyone. We are, of course, talking about recovery. Today's Pickle Poll episode draws from listener comments and voicemails to discuss the following: How we define recovery (or lack thereof) for ourselves Chronic mental illness, losing hope, and seeing recovery as an unaffordable luxury The “anecdote equals fact” approach and why it pisses Lauren off How to get to a place where you actually want to recover How to replace self-destruction as an outlet The temptation to make recovery your entire identity Recovery gatekeepers and how Christina keeps people guessing Lapses, relapses, and everything in between Performative recovery and being honest with yourself Finding a reason to recover (and what to do if you don't have one) Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Find a cozy seat and join us this week as we talk about therapy! Topics include: The events that led us each to therapy for the first time Times therapy saved our lives Times therapy traumatized us How therapy can help bring out your inner child Getting ghosted or fired by your therapist Paying for therapy Setting boundaries with your therapist Contacting your therapist after hours (and which of us has done it) Pros and cons of group therapy Tips for someone who is looking for their first therapist Virtual vs in-person therapy Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

This week we’re talking about the ways we and our listeners have romanticized mental illness in the past, why we trick ourselves into forgetting how bad it actually got, and how to find meaning outside of our pain. Subtopics include: Feeling guilty as an adult who previously idealized their mental illness when others seem to struggle without a choice Is romanticizing mental illness a sign of immaturity or naïveté? Whether romanticizing mental illness at a young age is related to diagnoses later in life The role of media and celebrities in bringing awareness (and romanticization) to certain mental illnesses Fear of becoming less interesting when we pursue healthy coping methods Seeing someone else model a toxic behavior and attempting to copy them Only romanticizing our lives when we’re struggling Symptom switching Feeling nostalgic for the past and accidentally repeating history Ways we remind ourselves that we are more than our mental illness Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Christina's personal Instagram: @xtinajumper Lauren's personal Instagram: @laurenafh (but mostly @picosauve) Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Christina picked the topic for today’s episode and we ran with it! Join us for an extra vulnerable conversation where we discuss the following: What is imposter syndrome and who suffers? Feeling like you don’t deserve to have a voice How we have struggled (and continue to struggle) with imposter syndrome in our personal lives and on the podcast Types of imposter syndrome and which ones we relate to Short- and long-term effects of imposter syndrome Feeling like an imposter when you’re sick and in recovery Feeling fake as a result of undergoing change (even though change can be good!) Ways we validate ourselves and take up space Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Today we cover a topic we’ve been wanting to do forever: toxic positivity! Through listener comments and personal stories, we discuss the following: Not being allowed to be unhappy Why we can tend to be overly positive when supporting someone who is struggling Stonewalling ourselves to fit in with positivity culture External vs internal toxic positivity Not being able to trust people who are positive all the time Is it possible to choose our attitudes? Good ol’ minimizing Letting people see the natural state you live in Being grateful while suffering Is stark realism the response to toxic positivity? Toxic positivity as a response to starting recovery What happens when you stifle wounds in positivity instead of addressing them Motivational quotes in design Other tangents include: Our voting stories Lauren making contraband cold brew in treatment and Christina’s stance on Starbucks as a former employee Weed as anxiety relief Contemplations on straight edge and recovery as a way of life vs a state of being Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Today we talk about different types of trauma and whether we agree that distinctions matter. Subtopics include:  The difference between “big T” Trauma and “little T” trauma and why the terms even exist How even "little t" trauma can lead to serious repercussions if overlooked Comparing your experiences to others and minimizing what happened to you  Reconciling trauma with its well-meaning inflictors  Sex, religion, and divorce...oh f*ck!  The pervasiveness of intergenerational trauma  Self-inflicted trauma and ways you might be gaslighting yourself  Cultural trauma and how the same events can affect people differently Friend breakups and how traumatizing they can be  How accepting the validity of your trauma can help you connect to others  Also included in this episode:  Lauren's moving drama  A surprising Pickles and Vodka reference from a listener  Why we aren't having kids Christina to quit vaping???  Our most extra palate cleanser yet  Enjoy!!  Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Happy Halloween, hot and spicy pickles! Today we discuss the following topics: Minimizing death while being afraid to talk about it Losing people young and being forced to deal with it before you’re ready What it’s like to be in your 30s without ever having experienced an interpersonal death Nonlinear grieving and why every reaction to death is appropriate The number one disrupter of funerals Possibility of afterlife, nihilism, and dying without religion Christina coming out as an atheist to her parents after a motorcycle crash Why a good mortician is absolutely necessary (and why all good morticians deserve raises) Lauren’s shocking secret and Christina’s reaction Historical reasons why modern society is less comfortable with death Death as an abstract experience vs medical event Using death as an excuse to celebrate life Vampire tropes and what they can teach us about being alive Alyssa’s life hack for accepting the idea of not existing anymore This episode wouldn’t be possible without the help of Alyssa, who kindly sent in voicemails in response to our questions pertaining to the death industry. Follow her on Instagram @_flesh_daddy_ to see her horror-themed art and visit her Etsy Shop @TheFleshDruidess to buy a spooky print! Other advocates mentioned in this episode: David Khallili, LMFT of Rouse Relational Wellness @rousetherapy (hear his interview with Christina on #67 Smorgasboard of Delight) Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

On this episode, your infamously imperfect cohosts have a conversation about perfectionism. Subtopics include: How Christina REALLY felt about the 100th episode Where do you draw the line between self-improvement and perfectionism? How we're trying to give ourselves some slack Lauren’s new therapist and how many sessions is too many before calling it quits Putting guards up as a result of asking for help and getting burned Lifejournal, pen pals, and the advent of digital cameras Wanting your place to be always spotless in case you die away from home Perfectionism at work Redefining the concept of “perfect” Cats Enjoy! Don’t forget to answer this week’s Pickle Poll by following us on social media below (or answering the question directly below if you're on Spotify!): Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

IT'S OUR CENTENNIAL, BABY! Christina reminisces about starting Pickles and Vodka by herself in 2018 and what it was like to be bulimic and in active addiction while putting out new episodes every week. Lauren reveals what was going on in her head when she took on the role of cohost and why she's decided to reject toxic recovery dialogues and embrace realism. Most importantly, we discuss the concept of vulnerability and why uncomfortable conversations can be the difference between isolation and healing. We play a bunch of listener voicemails, go on some noteworthy tangents, and feel a lot of feelings. CHEERS, FRIENDS! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

As we prepare for our 100th episode next week, we decided to switch things up with another movie review...and it's f*cked up, Daisy! Listen as we break down the Oscar-nominated film adaptation of Susanna Kaysen's 1992 memoir, Girl Interrupted (1999, dir. James Mangold) and tie it into our own experiences in psychiatric institutions. Side topics include mental health in the 60s, our thoughts on Angelina Jolie's magnetic (and slightly triggering) performance, racism and sexism in the context of the time period and what has and hasn't changed, normalization of neurodivergence, psych ward movie tropes, and soooo many tangents. Lauren takes the Pickle Palate Cleanser to the next level and hilarity ensues. Enjoy! Don't forget that you have until October 14th to send in messages to be featured on our 100th episode! See below for ways to get in touch: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

This week we're talking about another juicy topic: coping mechanisms! We discuss the different types of coping and how to tell when habits cross the line, where coping mechanisms originate and our earliest memories, laughter as a coping mechanism, harm reduction, trading one coping mechanism for another, and how internal and external forces can shape the way we cope. Content warning for disordered eating and self-harm. Enjoy! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Clip is from #38.5 Return from Hiatus Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Inspired by technical difficulties, we're talking all about how we cope with our emotions when our plans fall apart! Topics range from the lighthearted (which cities we think are the flakiest, eccentric psychiatrists, baking mishaps) to the serious (car accidents we’ve had, financial emergencies, anxiety around unexpected loss and planning for your death), but we make sure to end on a deliciously ridiculous note. Enjoy! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Leave a voice message! Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

It's a bonus episode! Lauren sits down to tell the story of how she spent the weekend of 9/9 in an ER holding room and then a psych ward. Although we bring our signature humor, this is definitely a more serious episode with mentions of suicide, depression, food/weight, and psychological trauma. Listen with care and stay safe. (Don't worry, there is a hilarious Pickle Palate Cleanser at the end to balance everything out.) Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

IT'S THE REGRET EPISODE!! Lauren starts us off by revealing something that happened to her last weekend, then Christina shares a journal entry from last year. We discuss the differences between regret, nostalgia, and wistfulness, then we play a voicemail from listener Alyssa and tie it in to our own experiences with regret. Topics include the feeling of wasting youth and alienating others, regret about our love lives (or lack thereof), hasty decisions we made when we were young, decisions made by and for other people, wasting time changing ourselves for the wrong reasons, unfortunate career moves, and how our regrets inform the way we treat ourselves these days. Finally, we take a hilarious quiz with REGRETTABLE results. Enjoy! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, photos, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Credits song is Brahms Intermezzo Op 118 No 2 played by Lauren

Lauren finally surprises Christina with a topic—and it’s all about approaching mental health with your coworkers! We share some of our mental health-related work horror stories, tips for drawing boundaries with fellow employees (and how to know when to trust them), how to advocate for yourself and others at work, what to do if a coworker is struggling, HR fiascos, the challenges of remote teams, and more. We have a lively discussion about pizza, then Christina introduces a new segment where Lauren takes a quiz. Enjoy the chaos and happy Monday! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Quiz: What Kind of Pickle Are You? by angrylauren on Buzzfeed Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

In light of the recent changes to Pickles and Vodka, Christina and Lauren finally tackle the topic on everyone's mind these days: burnout! We talk about what burnout ISN'T, preserving energy for the things that energize you, being unable to enjoy free time, tips for coping with and preventing burnout, ways to give your brain a vacation (healthy and not), and why burnout is normal but can lead to more troubling issues down the road. We play some insightful listener voicemails and get unexpectedly emotional over a Tolkien reference. Enjoy!  Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi:  Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast  Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast  Twitter: @PicklesVodka  Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com  Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive

Pet lovers rejoice! This week, Christina and Lauren talk about the ways their pets have impacted their mental health—and not just in the ways you’d expect. Topics include how to know you’re ready for a pet when coping with mental health is a challenge, how our struggles can affect our pets and vice versa, our fear of pet trauma, and why our pets are the best pets. We also share our pets’ origin stories and recount some of our pet parent lows. Enjoy! This episode touches on some difficult themes such as pet death, suicide, and eating disorder talk. Listen at your own discretion and stay safe. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

This week, we talk about listeners’ favorite (and least favorite) depictions of mental illness in the media! Tangents include sleep aids, smoking in malls, which music tattoos we have, what to do when a depiction of mental health is so good it triggers you, Lauren's hot take on side characters, and Christina’s brain on COVID. Enjoy! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

For the podcast's first EVER movie review, we pick apart To the Bone, the 2017 drama starring Lily Collins and directed by Marti Noxon. Topics include Lifetime stereotypes, the lack of diversity in eating disorder treatment, which scenes triggered us the most, the Keanu Reeves of it all, and what conversations we should be having when it comes to anorexia in the media. Lauren has a hot take about peyote and we compare our real-life treatment experiences with escapades from the film. Enjoy!Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Christina brings back a former guest to share some exciting new developments. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

In this solo episode, Christina talks about being chronically depressed even when life is good, then reads a journal from 2016 that proves it's all about perspective. Listeners share their tips for how to keep going when nothing is going your way. Enjoy! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

We’ve got a guest in the house this week! Christina brings on her friend Jas to talk about growing up around undetected addiction and anxiety, the series of events leading to her 7-year incarceration, and navigating the difficulties of re-entering society while juggling depression and fragmented familial relationships. This is one episode of Pickles and Vodka you won’t want to miss! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Christina tells the tumultuous tale of her recent motorcycle trip, reflects on turning 30 this week, and reads some mental health warning labels submitted by listeners—with a couple surprise guests thrown in for good measure. (Fun fact: this episode was almost titled “Two Gas Cans In”, but then Christina got tired.) Cheers! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Sarabande by Musick's Recreation. Milena Cord-to-Krax Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Christina is burnt out, but so is everybody. This week's disaster is brought to you by anxiety, weed, fan art, cat dingleberries, self-deprecating jokes that hit a little too close to home, more anxiety, attempts at motivation, and wtf-is-even-going-on-anymore!! This week, Christina appeared on Bongloads and BullS*it to talk about cannabis and mental health. You can watch it on Youtube or follow @bongloadsandbs on Instagram for ways to listen. Content warning for substance use, eating disorders, and suicide. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Today’s episode features more than a couple of shocking confessions, an obnoxious amount of body positivity, and a chat with Kentucky’s next self-love superhero. Kayla Douthitt talks about having at eating disorder in the south, the seemingly innocuous factors that can lead to insecurities, and what steps parents can take to build healthier body image with their kids. Find the answers to these (and why Christina is banned from Whole Foods) by tuning in! This week’s guest was Kayla Douthitt. You can follow her on Instagram @wisdomwellnesssky and listen to her podcast What’s Eating You? to dive deep into understanding your body, mind, and spirit. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Christina brings her sister Caroline back on the podcast to answer a question submitted by a relative, which leads to an unhinged (and often hilarious) conversation about growth. The podcast has its first criticism. We learn from listeners which “negative” emotions they were able to reframe and use to the advantage of their mental health. All this (and a lot of weird jokes) can be heard on this episode! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Content warning: this episode contains discussions about suicide/suicidal ideation Alternate title: Christina learns about Judaism and gets real existential! Writer Nikkole Anjuli calls in to talk about chronic pain, the intersection between physical and mental disability, suicide, psychedelics, and becoming a Jew during COVID. Christina brings up the issue of stagnancy in self-improvement and why it’s not necessarily bad. Catch all this plus a Gandalf surprise in this extra spicy episode of Pickles and Vodka! This week’s guest was Nikkole Anjuli. You can read her literary work on Instagram @writewordslikestones and support her on Patreon. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

It’s an extra special solo episode! Christina celebrates 3 years without alcohol by sharing the never-before-heard details surrounding her last drink and why she dislikes the term “sober”. The second half of the show focuses on life lessons submitted by listeners and the benefits of starting a conversation about mental health...especially when the world is more f*cked than ever before. This is one Pickles and Vodka you don’t want to miss! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Party sound effect by winsx87 via Freesound.org Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Another OG P&V guest returns in this roller coaster of an episode! (And yes, it is heavily peppered with innuendos.) Bianca chats with me about her ongoing breakup and how utterly gut-wrenching it feels to end your first relationship when you gave it your best efforts—even at the expense of your mental health. Tangents include sexual bird talk, Christina being Bianca’s supervisor at Starbucks, making friends as the sad single gorl, and lots more. Enjoy the ride! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Future transition sound effect by komit.wav via Freesound.org Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Vulnerability takes the spotlight in this emotional solo episode! Christina shares some recent family difficulties and the effects they’ve had on her mental and physical health, then reads a journal entry from 2011 that illustrates how much her concept of self-care has changed. Finally, she reads some hilarious (and often eloquent) listener responses to the age-old question: “how are you?” Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Today we have an OG guest on the show! Rachael Goodrich returns to chat about surviving lockdown with two asshole toddlers and ADHD in a New York apartment, her expensive plant habit that took everyone by surprise, a new business venture based on improving mental health, and LOTS of motorcycles. Christina talks about Roe v Wade and gets upset, then asks for money (naturally). This is one episode of Pickles and Vodka you don't want to miss! ART FUNDRAISER: Donate to the Blue Ridge Abortion Fund and receive a beautiful, custom typography piece! $5 gets you a digital print PDF, $15 gets you a card in the mail. All proceeds go toward keeping reproductive healthcare accessible in Virginia. Follow @depressivetype on Instagram for complete details. RACHAEL'S BUSINESS: Doomed NYC Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Christina returns from a spring break...of sorts. Tune in to hear about the mediocre phenomenon that is faux relapse, feeling high while actually sober, self-censorship, and hiding anxiety. She reads excerpts of a piece written by the podcast's VERY FIRST guest about what he's learned in his 20s, then shares listener answers to last week's poll--including a voice message!! Enjoy this miserable/beautiful episode and don't forget to leave a review about how it made you feel. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Things I've Learned in my 20s by Lorenzo Felton on Facebook Future transition sound effect by komit.wav via Freesound.org Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

This might just be the most chaotic episode of Pickles and Vodka to date. Christina begins by sharing from the bullet journal she kept as an alcoholic, then launches into a FOMO-inspired rant. We dive into the world of mental health-inspired vanity plates before the show is interrupted by an unprecedented phone call. What follows is a chain of events that perfectly illustrate the everyday chaos in the life of a chaotic podcast host. ENJOY!

Is being in control overrated? Will sober dancing at a wedding ever NOT be awkward? What do Pickles and Vodka listeners consider cheaper than therapy? Is Christina ever going to quit writing the description and publish this?? Find the answers in this short but sweet solo episode! Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

After last week’s anxiety extravaganza, Christina is back…and it’s a full house! The episode starts off by reminiscing about the early days of Pickles and Vodka, victory in bulimia recovery, recognizing mental health advocates on the podcast scene, and a story about missing a family member’s wedding. Then the second half of the episode features past guests Caroline and Ginger Lou Jumper, who have returned for some lively debate about past mistakes and finding the silver linings. You don’t want to miss this romp of regret! This week’s recommendations: Feelin Weird (specifically the WEIRDOCALLINSHOW episodes) Dopey: On the Dark Comedy of Drugs and Addiction Beautiful Anonymous with Chris Gethard Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced by Christina Jumper

Welcome to a very special, very chaotic episode of Pickles and Vodka! Christina attempts to be entertaining and instead kills the mood by getting vulnerable about existentialism, performance anxiety, and TikTok. She also answers questions from listeners, reveals a secret past life, and introduces the concept of a mental health charging station. If anyone is listening, we hope you enjoy the mess and stay safe during these challenging times.  Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Depressed Fish Tiktok by @k_the_1 Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper

Christina reflects on 1 year of recovery by once again baring her soul to the internet in the form of audio journals. Topics include: Second chance to start my life again (10:49) Scared that nothing matters (11:38) I’m not weak if I don’t do anything (13:58) Reality, overthinking, and my journey (15:49) It all comes down to me being high (17:43) It’s getting harder to be OK (20:02) Ruining relationships (21:40) Straight up relapse (23:46) My definition of hell (25:46) I’m an aDuLt (27:22) The playground (30:16) A good day (33:37) Canceling out good w/ toxic behavior (38:20) Target for disappointment (39:46) Bulimia as the ultimate hobby (41:28) I’m freaking out right now (42:57) Taking risks (46:54)
Is long-term recovery possible? (49:32) Feeling full (53:06) I don’t want to waste 10 more years on this (56:59) Thinking about death (57:41) Accepting just fine (1:00:45) This cannot continue without repercussions (1:05:12) Asking for help and acknowledging my accomplishments (1:08:29) FUTURE XTINA LISTEN TO THIS (1:12:01) Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper

This not-quite-solo episode sees the return of Christina’s sister Caroline and introduces listeners to some very questionable habits. The sisters chat about getting your period again in eating disorder recovery, crying while brushing your hair, financial insecurities, soft girls, fear of your first death, and grammatically inappropriate flirting on Marketplace. Christina reads another journal entry from 2012 and reflects on perfectionism, blurring the lines between life and death with drugs, and why a trip to Target is sometimes all you need. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper

WE’RE FEELING NOSTALGIC, Y’ALL. Joining Pickles and Vodka today are Steph and Lex, two cousins and cohosts of Chasing Childhood, a podcast where they watch favorite childhood movies and determine whether they hold up or not. Unfortunately, childhood for Steph and Lex was not without its trauma, which we talk about in this interview. Topics include sweeping mental illness under the rug, getting stoned with relatives and spilling all the tea, why Steph thought her cats were trying to kill her, unlearning behaviors and figuring out who you are, and why we should cancel self-deprecating humor. There may or may not be a Smashmouth moment. Follow Steph and Lex on @chasingchildhoodpodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper

It’s another short, sleep-deprived solo episode! Christina reveals new and old fears and insecurities, talks about addiction (as usual), reads TWO journal entries from 2012, and gets a little poetic. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper

Eileen Winn is a queer, neurodivergent, agender writer and poet from Ohio. They also happen to be getting their master's in Florida while going through a divorce after coming out as a lesbian to their husband of 10 years. And that's just the beginning! Listen for a gleeful descent into the world of gender, parentification, Tumblr, cats, societal conformity, and making meaning out of being miserable.  Eileen is currently earning their MFA from Florida Atlantic University. They work on the editorial boards of Swamp Ape Review and Alien Literary Magazine. You can find their work in (or forthcoming from) the 2020 Sundress Anthology Best of the Net, Cherry Tree, The Shore, in the Breakup Book anthology from Purpled Palm Press, and more. Without purple pens, much of their work would not exist. Follow them on Instagram @shift.aced or on Twitter @weirdmuseum. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Become a monthly supporter Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper

This week's solo episode is short but sweet! Christina reads a journal entry from 2012 and addresses why we feel guilty for having good things, trauma comparisons, assigning meaning to "failure", and whether or not you deserve to get help and feel happy. (Spoiler: you do.) Don't forget to rate and subscribe wherever you're listening from! For 15% off Sex Worriers: A Mindfully Queer Guide for Men’s Anxiety Around Sex and Dating, visit http://www.bit.ly/pickles15 or enter PICKLES15 at checkout. Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper

We’re starting off 2022 with a bang! This episode features David Khallili, a licensed marriage & family therapist who specializes in sex anxiety, queer multi-ethnic issues, polyamory & kink, and so much more. (Seriously, it’s ridiculous how versatile he is!) Listen to hear him talk about growing up as a first generation American, his years of working at a sex shop and what it taught him, how he got into his field, and whether or not it’s possible to raise your kid not to be an asshole. Christina starts off the episode with a bloody story and a live mindfulness exercise. Don’t forget to rate and subscribe!  For 15% off Sex Worriers: A Mindfully Queer Guide for Men’s Anxiety Around Sex and Dating, visit http://www.bit.ly/pickles15 or enter PICKLES15 at checkout.  Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi:  Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka  Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com  Credits:  Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive  Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper

It's that time of year again! (If you said "time to voice our strong opinions on New Year's resolutions", you're only partly accurate.) That's right, we've arrived at the 3rd annual Hot & Spicy Pickle Awards, where Christina recognizes 2021 guests of the podcast and reflects on all the lessons they’ve taught us. Sparkly attire optional.   WATCH ON YOUTUBE  Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi:  Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast  Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast  Twitter: @PicklesVodka  Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com  Credits:  Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive  Elevator music is by Kevin Macleod from OrangeFreeSounds.com  Episode is produced not for profit by Christina Jumper

Join Christina as she attempts to summarize the utterly insane rollercoaster ride through mental health that was the year 2021! She covers what it was like to ask for help and go to treatment for bulimia, leaving a secure job and moving across the country to be closer to family, misadventures in unemployment, the importance of having a ho phase, sobriety and harm reduction, showing gratitude to herself as well as her supporters, and a WHOOOLE lot more. Bonus content includes a mother-daughter Q&A intro with former guest Ginger Lou Jumper as well as a special segment featuring holiday recs–and anti-recs–from listeners.  Follow Pickles and Vodka for updates, guest inquiries, or to say hi: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com  This week's shout-outs: Chasing Childhood Self-Care is for Everyone Credits: Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive Elevator music is by Kevin Macleod from OrangeFreeSounds.com Metal clip is from Santa Claus Is Not Coming To Town by Alexander Nakarada of Serpent Sound Studios Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper 

Grab a tissue box and put on your fuzziest socks, because this episode packs a punch to the feels. Eli returns to finish the story of falling in love with her soulmate from across the pond, then being forced to make an unimaginable decision when he drops some devastatingly unexpected news. We talk about the difference between the NHS and American healthcare, the awkwardness of death, the importance of end of life planning, and what you can do to make the end a little less scary. Get in touch with Eli on Instagram @gothgrandpa to keep up with her adventures. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Eli is an elementary school teacher who lives, works, and dates in Brooklyn. Her secret? She got engaged to a man she met online, then flew overseas to help when he revealed he had a terminal illness. The events that ensued not only changed Eli as a person, but changed the way she felt about human connection in general. Part 1 today covers Eli’s early exposures to death, how her grief led to a number of comorbidities, why nobody wants to plan for their own death, telling people about your deep dark past, and more. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

It's another solo episode! This week, Christina reveals why she went off the grid and what's been helping her ease back into sanity. Topics include getting blindsided, staying hopeful in a sea of disappointment, getting stuck in the shame cycle, and the joys of crying in your car. As is the new podcast tradition, she revisits another journal entry from 2009 and comes face to face with some uncomfortable truths. Comic relief appears in the form of a viral tweet and self-deprecating humor. This week's recs: - Mental Illness by Aimee Mann - Once Twice Melody by Beach House - Dopesick on Hulu Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Today's episode is a tale that spans 3 continents and provides an unflinching look into one couple's dreams, tragedies, and recovery. Jérémie André recounts growing up as an emotional late bloomer, how gratitude training helped him express affection to his parents for the first time at 31, meeting the love of his life in Australia, and the heartbreaking journey they were forced to endure in their quest for a family. Content warnings for suicide, miscarriage, and abortion. Want to hear more from Jérémie? Listen to Just Interesting People, the podcast he hosts with his wife, or follow him on Instagram @jeremieandre_fr. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Christina reveals some exciting changes to the podcast before diving into the dusty pages of a 12 year-old journal. Tangents this week include beach mishaps, TikTok, dystopian sci-fi, and when you should let yourself be extra. Content warning for mentions of self-harm. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Mary returns to finish telling the story of her abortion and the impact it had on her physical and mental health. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

This week, Christina's friend Mary opens up about her recent abortion as well as the path her life took to lead up to it. She describes growing up as an only child in a religious household, guilt around food from an early age, bipolar disorder, changing views on sex following an assault, substance use, messy relationships, and more. As you can tell, this episode covers especially sensitive topics and listener discretion is advised. Take care of yourselves and stay tuned for Part 2 next week! Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

For the first time in the history of Pickles and Vodka, we've got a dynamic guest duo for your enjoyment! Kyle Wise and Luke Colson met each other in addiction recovery and together created their hit podcast, Well That F*cked Me Up! In this episode, they spill all the behind-the-scenes secrets as conversations revolve around brutal childhood trauma, using substances to cope, why we self-sabotage, how to change the way you think about "rock bottom", and how it all ties in to Hollywood late night and an alligator attack. Christina shares a recent setback and her reactions to it. WATCH THIS INTERVIEW ON YOUTUBE Follow Kyle and Luke on Instagram @wellthatfuckedmeup and find podcast episodes on their website. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

When Leticia Francis recalls healing from a toxic relationship with her groomer, she means figuratively AND literally! Listen to this episode to hear the unbelievable true story of how Leticia coped with childhood abandonment and rejection, how it almost destroyed her life, and how she uses her experiences to help women gain clarity and confidence in their careers. Content warning for grooming, suicide, and descriptions of violence. Follow Leticia on Instagram @blaquerosecoaching and learn more about her business at www.blaquerosecoaching.com. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com or leave a voice message below for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Hold on to your hats, because this week features a riveting interview with Adam "Lutch" Lutchman, host of I Didn't Read Your Book, recovering Catholic, and recreational philosopher. We talk about unlikely friendships, the psychology behind the judgements we make, being an influencer vs being someone of influence, and how to accept your authentic self when your authentic self is always changing. Content warning for suicide, accidental death, abortion talk, and self-harm.⁠ Follow Lutch @idryblutch and listen to his brand new podcast where he offers a peek inside the minds of published authors. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

This one goes out to all you creatives out there! In today's episode, Nadya Goest of Expression Quest podcast gets real about her chronic perfectionism and what she went through before taking herself seriously as an artist. Topics include her immigrant background, what it means to be punk, the importance of keeping your work and art separate, why it's ok to half-ass something, and some lessons she's learned through interviewing artists from a variety of backgrounds. Go listen wherever you get your podcasts! Follow Nadya on Instagram @nadya_goest and listen to her art podcast @expressionquest for more insight into the intersection of creativity and mental health. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

What are the real costs of eating disorders that nobody talks about? Join Christina and her sister Caroline as they discuss aspects of their illness  they wish they'd known from the beginning, including dental disasters, going into debt, losing all your friends, and room-clearing farts. (Yes, they went there.) There's a surprise appearance from another past guest, then Christina reads a sobering letter from a listener that proves that nobody is invincible as they think they are. Content warning for mentions of suicide, food, and weight. Recovery from eating disorders is possible. If you're ready to take the next step, here are 70 resources to support eating disorder recovery. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Christina interviews mental health writer Becca about her plethora of problems, including a recent discovery that turned her head upside down. Topics include familial trauma, eating disorders, addiction, maladaptive daydreaming, raw vulnerability, and finding the silver linings. It's Christina's last week in Seattle, so the podcast will take a short break while she moves across the country. Follow Pickles and Vodka on social media for riveting updates! Follow Becca on Instagram @reds2amthoughts for all her mental health writing! Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

It's Christina's birthday weekend, so we're taking a break from our normal content. This short yet emotional minisode covers fear of recovery, what to say when people ask how they can help, podcasting faux pas, retiring your twenties, and why you deserve to f*cking eat. Content warning for bulimia and suicidal ideation. Jacqueline's bulimia recovery course: www.bingebreakers.com Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

For the first time in this podcast's history, Christina brings her ex-boyfriend on as a guest! Listen to hear Andrew Stevens talk about his nonverbal learning disorder, living in Seattle with anxiety, being in a relationship with someone who struggles with their mental health, and much more! So sit back, relax, and get ready for a fun (and sometimes incredibly awkward) ride. Follow Andrew on Twitter @ajstevenswrites for links to all his publications! Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

This episode features Jacqueline Davis, host of the Binge Breakers podcast, bulimia coach, and Christina's not-so-secret role model. Tune in to hear Jacqueline reveal how she became a coach, the years of eating disorders she endured prior, how to tell your partner your secret, the correlation between bulimia and substance abuse, what it means to be "normal", and so much more. Christina gushes about Midwestern accents and urges listeners to reconsider the importance of their stories. It's a packed episode and we both hope you enjoy! Follow Jacqueline on Instagram @bingebreakers_bulimia or by visiting her coaching website, www.bingebreakers.com. Her podcast, Binge Breakers - Bulimia Recovery, can be found on all major streaming platforms. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Joining the podcast for our final episode of Pride Month is Micah Roldan, a trans activist, educator, mentor, and YouTuber. He shares all about his rocky childhood descent into manic depression telling his wife he was trans, being socialized as a woman of color and then being thrust into a male world, dealing with mental and emotional ramifications of transitioning, and how our identities can put us in boxes. Content warning for drugs and suicide. Follow Micah on Instagram @realisticallyfree for links to his YouTube channel and his podcast! If you or someone you know are in need of LGBTQI+ mental health resources, NAMI is a good place to start looking. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Bea is a juvenile mental health education speaker, recovering from an eating disorder that started when she was 14, and queer advocate who talks about her recent explorations into the world of polyamory. She and Christina discuss casual puberty things, starting your sexual experiences early, how to respond to comments about your body, telling your parents about your multiple partners, talking to kids about depression and suicide, and so much more! Christina talks about podcast-related anxiety and may cry into her seltzer at some point. Content warning for sex, descriptions of appearances including weight, and suicide. Follow Bea on Instagram and TikTok @butterfliesandbeas to learn more about the cool things she's doing in the mental health space! If you or someone you know are in need of LGBTQI+ mental health resources, NAMI is a good place to start looking. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Get ready to feel all the feelings with me and my guest today! Kye Plant is a Canadian artist, musician, mental health advocate, and host of the Feelin Weird podcast. In this episode, they share the events that led up to creating the podcast, their views toward mind-altering substances, what it's like to feel like an alien in a human capitalist society, and how they choose to exist in the world. This one is especially awkward in the best possible way. Enjoy the ride! Follow Kye on Instagram @feelinweirdpod to listen to recent episodes, get some cool merch, or join their Patreon for extra goodies. If you or someone you know are in need of LGBTQI+ mental health resources, NAMI is a good place to start looking. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH! Joining Christina on air this week is Rachel Lynn Taylor, a self-identifying queer fat woman who just got out of treatment for atypical anorexia. Topics covered include starting over in your late 20s due to mental illness, the fat liberation movement and what it means to have an eating disorder in a larger body, chronic pain and disabilities, coming out as bisexual in the church, and being who she wants to be in spite of her many challenges. Christina talks about debilitating anxiety, shot girl summer, and...shin splints? Tune in to hear all! Find Rachel on Instagram @railynnt to send her a message and keep up with her journey.  If you or someone you know are in need of LGBTQI+ mental health resources, NAMI is a good place to start looking. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Buckle up for a rocky drive as Christina reconnects with fellow motorcyclist and artist Adele Ball, who joins the podcast to talk about her life-changing journey through grief, vulnerability, and healing. Adele shares about the devastating loss of someone close to her, driving across the country in a van she built with her former partner's dad, suppressing emotions through self-harm and eating disorders, and reaching out to an online support group. Christina spends the intro talking about her 2-year soberversary, imposter syndrome, and some exciting podcast news. Content warning for suicide and eating disorders. Find online help for your eating disorder: ANAD & Project HEAL Christina's piece on 2 years sober from alcohol: sobriety sucks and it's amazing Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for guest inquiries or just to say hi!

This episode features Marconi, internet comedian and host of suicidelogs, a podcast about distracting yourself from suicide by talking about every topic under the sun. He and Christina get into why he chose that name for his show, anxiety and cannabis as a coping skill, how podcasting changed him, and his random phobia of babies. Christina spends the intro revisiting the theme of relapse and why we need to change the language surrounding recovery. Content warning for suicide and drugs. Article I reference: Why We Don't Say "Committed Suicide" Find Marconi on Instagram @suicidelogs and to check out his podcast or get in touch. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Chas Neal of Man.Kind Counseling chats with Christina about why he started a psychotherapy practice for men, the dangers of toxic positivity, what growing up in the South taught him about priorities and why it was problematic, the truth about addiction in the therapy world, and more! Listen to Christina talk about mental health awareness and why her cat may be taking over the podcast. Enjoy! Find Chas on Instagram @chas.mankindcounseling and on his website www.counselingformankind.com to find out more about his practice. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Joining the podcast is Lauren, a 41 year-old eating disorder sufferer and treatment veteran. She and Christina talk about the struggles of paying for treatment, what happens when your insurance fucks you over, the stimulating world of laxative abuse, and The Best Little Girl in the World. Christina admits to messing up and describes how to avoid a full relapse. Enjoy! Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

Settle in for a tumultuous tale of familial trauma, relationships gained and lost, the cycle of addiction, and an epic search for identity! Javaughn of Decent Takes Podcast shares his ongoing mental health struggles and how he comes to terms with being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Christina talks about depression and has some strong opinions about Burger King. Content warning for drug use and suicide. Find Javaughn on Instagram @decenttakes and Twitter @DecentTakesShow for more decent content! Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

We’ve got another minisode for you! This week, Connor is back to talk about attachment theory, coffee shops, and why he’s taking a break from social media. Christina spills some hot tea and gets vulnerable as always. Stay tuned for a full length episode later this week!

This week, Rob Kalwarowsky is here to talk about performance anxiety, being a self-professed psycho high achiever, what to do when told you’re just not “depressed enough”, and lots more! Christina gives another life update and is a general hot mess. Content warning for suicide. Find Rob’s projects at www.robsreliability.com or by following his mental health podcast @highperformancenarrative on Instagram.

In lieu of a guest this week, Christina turns to some of her old audio journal entries in order to reflect on just how much she's changed in the last 6 months. Listen to hear brutal honesty, raw emotion, some crying, and maybe a brief catfight. Content warnings for mentions of bulimia and substance abuse. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

It's the first episode of 2021! This interview--recorded before Christina went to treatment--features Rachel, a formerly incarcerated mother of two and survivor of relational trauma. Their conversation is about having too many feelings, being honest with yourself, the catharsis of vulnerability, escaping a toxic relationship, how to give yourself true freedom. (There may or may not be sad music involved.) Christina provides a brief update about her time in treatment so far. Enjoy! Content warning: This episode contains mentions of suicidal ideation, relational trauma, and religion. Follow Pickles and Vodka for more updates: Instagram: @picklesandvodkapodcast Facebook: Pickles and Vodka Podcast Twitter: @PicklesVodka Email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com for inquiries about guest appearances or just to say hi!

It's the last episode of 2020 and have we got an action-packed hour for you! We kick it off with some big news from Christina, then jump to an interview with Connor in his cat-free apartment. Listen as they reflect on social isolation, starting a new job during COVID, accepting help, what they're never going to take for granted again, and why it's ok to be a little bitch. Connor opens a Christmas present from Christina's mom and discovers a shocking foot fact. The episode concludes with the second annual Hot and Spicy Pickle Awards as well as a message of encouragement. Enjoy! If you're struggling with mental health and want to talk about it on the podcast, email Christina at picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com or send a DM via Instagram @picklesandvodkapodcast.

2020 strikes again! In this minisode, Christina explains her recent break from the podcast and reflects on the last few months in hell. Topics include breakups, audio journaling, losing memories to mental illness, the importance of saying how we really feel, and realistic ways listeners are dealing with seasonal affective disorder. If you're struggling with mental health and want to talk about it on the podcast, email Christina at picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com or send a DM via Instagram @picklesandvodkapodcast. 

Grab your favorite beverage, put on your fancy headphones, and join us for this week's episode featuring musician Cody Anderson! He and Christina chat about men's mental health, social anxiety, addiction, escape, and the healing power of music. Bonus song recommendations included! Outro music: Claire de Lune by Claude Debussy Cody's rec: Deacon Blues by Steely Dan

Christina's guest this week talks about her drive to meet expectations and the affects it has had on her self-perception. Listen to hear on growing up with a toxic parent, the intersection between eating disorders and pleasing others, the unique struggle of facial dysmorphia, and COVID romance.

We interrupt the podcast's normal schedule to bring you the first ever minisode featuring Connor, Christina's friend and previous guest! Listen to their chat about a bizarre incident that happened on Christina's roof, recommendations for holding up during a world crisis, what's become important to them, and a surprise appearance from a kitten who just wants to be a guest on the podcast. Enjoy! If you want to hear more from Connor, listen to episode #21 of Pickles and Vodka or follow his art Instagram @drawntoconn.

This episode is a meaty one! Christina chats with Key, her old RA from Bible school, and they discuss topics such as spiritual abuse, reconstructing your life after years of being told what to believe and how to act, when and how to educate your friends on social media, health scares, and more. Sensitive topic warning for suicide and PTSD.

The podcast is back from hiatus with its timeliest episode yet! This week's episode features Dr. Rachel Zoffness, a pain & health psychologist with 2 published books and a column in Psychology Today. She and Christina talk about the concept of anxiety contagion, the science behind emotions and pain, conspiracy theories, self-care for the end of the world, and more. Stay safe and enjoy!   Find out more about Dr. Zoffness on her website or by following her on Instagram @therealdoczoff. Her article, Anxiety Contagion: Tips for Relief, is referenced in this episode.

Joining Christina this week is Lucysarah, founder of the Fox Run and longtime sufferer of endometriosis. We talk all how her mental health and physical health are intertwined, why she started a collective of womxn empowering womxn, and how she keeps the light from going out in the face of unrelenting hardships. Follow Lucy on Instagram @lucysarahh and find out more about the Fox Run at @thefoxrun or www.thefoxrun.co.

Settle in for a special episode featuring Kara, creator of the popular meme account @karakcals and my youngest guest to date! She tells me about the dilemmas faced by mentally ill individuals in China, navigating a diverse cultural and technological landscape, how she started using social media to change lives, and the importance of dark humor. Christina learns about TikTok and reveals a surprise returning guest. Enjoy! (And wash your hands.)

This week, guest Andrew Jackson of the Container Podcast talks about feeling stuck in life—different ways you might find yourself stuck, how you can become your own solution, and why it's so hard for most people to change. He and Christina also discuss their religious upbringings, being vulnerable to strangers, and a surprise employer in common. Follow Andrew @ayjaxon or at linktr.ee/ayjaxon.

Just in time for Valentine's week is the episode you've all been waiting for: how to survive living alone! My guest Anne talks about her experience with solo living, surviving depressive episodes and isolation, her work in inclusivity training, and why she doesn't have a cat. (We also share some bomb cleaning tips! You're welcome, world.)

This episode’s guest is Mara, who dives into a near and dear topic: our old friend, addiction! Listen to hear her stories about smoking heroin in art school, becoming sober, and finding self-acceptance following a relapse. We also discuss the addict’s “journey”, our beef with 12-step programs, and how to talk to people about this stuff. For alcohol harm reduction tips, visit http://www.hams.cc.

This episode, Christina is joined by Annie, who talks about living with dependent personality disorder. You’ll learn about the struggles that come with such a rare diagnosis, how pets can provide crucial support, and witness a massive pop culture reference fly over Christina’s head.

Coming to you all the way from Virginia is this special episode featuring Christina’s brother, Andrew, who talks about managing his emotions in the face of a recent disappointment, how to increase your emotional intelligence, and why he stopped offering advice.

What do you do when you’re sober for the holidays? Record a podcast, obviously! Christina flies solo this week and reads listener emails about surviving this time of year from a mental health standpoint. She also gives out the first annual Hot & Spicy Pickle awards.

Joining Christina this week is Elena, a 21 year-old college senior who talks about her longtime struggle with bulimia, getting fired by her therapist, disclosing mental health to a date, and the unique way she deals with it all. Special appearance by Allister. As we approach peak holiday season, don’t forget to submit your mental health holiday survival tips and stories for an upcoming episode! Just email picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com.

It’s been a hot minute, but Christina is all moved into her new apartment and the podcast is back with a new episode! This week, guest Adie shares their insights about about the intersection of mental health and disability, ways to stay positive in the face of traumatic events, and how to find value in existence when all your reasons for existence seem to have vanished.

No matter how many hours of therapy you put under your belt, sometimes you’re not going to know how to handle the shit that life throws at you…and that’s ok. This week, Christina is joined by Kelly, who talks about surviving 28 years of depression, how she found comfort through unexpected resources, and some surprising Shia LaBeouf facts. (She also divulges her number one tip for getting through a bad day.) If you’re going through a crisis and need support, text “NAMI” to 741741 to chat with someone, or visit www.nami.org.

Christina reconnects with Nadiya, one of her former customers and a yoga teacher with a penchant for love, sex, and other wholesome drugs. The two chat about why we feel the need to wear different masks for different people, the challenge of embracing the struggle in your 30s, and how to adopt a meditation practice if you hate meditating. Follow Nadiya’s yoga practice on Instagram @nadiyastar or visit her website www.nadiyayoga.com!

Christina reflects on leaving the job she’s had for 6.5 years before jumping into an interview with Sabrina, a trans skater and artist. Among the many topics discussed are growing up queer in the middle of nowhere, the importance of community, issues faced by intersex individuals, and how to take action for yourself when nobody else will.

How do you be there for a friend who's reached their breaking point? This week, guest Connor shares his insights as a gay Seattle artist accustomed to the intense highs and lows that come with relationships. We chat about being friends with your parents, the do's and don'ts of vulnerability in the workplace, and whether "scab" is an appropriate word to use on the internet. Follow Connor's art on Instagram @drawntoconn!

Christina’s back from visiting family in Virginia, and she’s bringing a brand new episode in which her sister-in-law, Abby, talks about her Filipino background and how mental health was approached. You’ll hear about the struggles faced by first-generation Americans, parental woes, what to do when you realize your family isn’t normal, and the healing power of…turtles? We also issue a challenge to listeners at the end of the episode.

Coming from the home studio this week is Jamie, a Chicago native and climber extraordinaire with a history of mental health that could be considered…rocky? (Sorry, I couldn’t resist.) Listen to hear our hot takes on marrying young, trying scary new things when you’re depressed, and the concept of passion—what it is, what to do when you’ve lost it, and how to reframe it as a struggling adult.

As the summer draws to a close, the podcast brings you an episode all about the impact of mental health on long-term relationships. Rachel talks about surviving a traumatic past and how it affects her today, how to deal with being the “nutty one” in a relationship, and how she learned to nurture not just her significant other, but herself. Christina shares a gratitude list and a stellar business idea.

Gather round and explore the wonderful world of obsessive compulsive disorder! This week, Christina interviews Diana about her diagnosis, including how it has affected different facets of her life and how she’s learned to manage it over the years. (Listen long enough and you might even discover some surprising bird facts.)

The podcast takes a deep dive into the world of schizophrenia, polyamory, and…opera? This week’s guest, Winnie, shares how she has learned to live with her diagnosis from an early age, and gives tips for how to care for your mental health without access to external resources.

This week, former heroin addict Sophie talks about her messy relationship with drugs, food, and romance, and how diagnosing herself with complex post traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD) has opened her eyes to a new way of dealing with life.

Christina returns from treatment and introduces a very special guest: her mom, the one and only Ginger Lou! In this episode, Ginger reflects on her tumultuous journey with addiction, how faith saved her, and the importance of forming a healthy identity.   If you are thinking about suicide, the following resources are here to help: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ https://www.crisistextline.org/

Christina chats with Diane, a 25 year-old transgender woman in recovery for her eating disorder and other addictions. Tune in to hear about the events that led her to treatment, what it was like growing up different, and how she’s been able to find peace in life after years of self-medicating while trying to embrace her identify following personal trauma.

After a brief intermission, the podcast is back! This week, Rachael talks about the time her parents sent her away, her many adventures with ADHD, how becoming a mom made her reevaluate everything, and how she makes it work as a small business owner in Brooklyn while juggling her own mental health issues. (Spoiler: it’s really practical advice.) Follow Rachael on Instagram @doomednyc for glimpses into her shop and her life.

This week, Syd talks about what it’s like to pursue a creative life while grappling with the feeling of being trapped within a stifling belief system and nearly losing everything in the process of breaking free. Follow Syd on Instagram @videmusart or become involved in their creative community at www.patreon.com/videmusart.

Join Christina and her British guest, Em, who describes in detail what it's like to live with borderline personality disorder while juggling several comorbidities as well as a series of complicated relationships.

Friendships take work under any circumstances, but what happens when mental illness gets thrown into the mix? This week, Katherine talks about losing and gaining relationships, coming out in college, and how to find that sweet balance between isolation and recharging your batteries.

Fresh from the hard drive of Christina's ex comes the long-awaited lost episode! Tune in to hear Rachel talk about what it's like working in an adolescent psych ward, her own personal medication rollercoaster, and adventures in Crossfit. (Bonus Netflix movie suggestion included.)

How does mental health fit into the world of education? This week, Anastasia gives the inside scoop on her own academic journey, the American special education system, service dogs, and how to live your best life in the face of depression.

Christina is joined by her sister, Caroline, and the two discuss a topic near and dear to them: FAMILY. How does nature vs. nurture play a role in a person's mental health journey? Is it possible to overcome a lifetime of baggage and emerge with self-confidence? What is Christina's opinion of Bird Box? All is revealed in this week's episode.

Madison talks about her experiences with childhood suicidal ideation, spiritual trauma, and defining grief after the death of a close loved one.

The podcast hits the road and interviews Bianca about her long history with depression, social anxiety woes, pros and cons of getting outside your comfort zone, and an unexpected coping method.

Lorenzo has a LOT to say about anxiety, isolation, the military, and how to cope when you find yourself starting over in life.

The obligatory intro episode that answers all your burning questions about what the podcast is all about, how to practice guilt-free self-care, and how fancy socks can change your life.