Room to Breathe - Permission to be Human
By Marianne Simon
(Thanks to Holizna for music CC0)
Room to Breathe - Permission to be HumanFeb 19, 2023
He's Interested in Me. Wow. (Part 1)
I started out the new year wondering what I wanted to call in. In the invocation, I wasn't sure if I wanted to experience a specific project - a new book or performance. Maybe travel or some other form of adventure. But I also knew I didn't want to be limited by what I could only currently imagine. So instead I cast my net out wide - inviting in mystery, the unknown. I challenged myself to be surprised.
As you'll hear in this story, the Universe answered.
East, Towards the Rising Sun
It felt like I'd been in hibernation for over a year. Wasn't writing much, felt uninspired, unmotivated. I knew at some point it would shift, that something was happening beneath the surface, but it just wasn't time yet.
And then, at the beginning of the year, things started to shift. I could feel my energy changing, my sap was rising. Though I didn't know what was coming, I definitely felt an excitement, and anticipation that I hadn't felt in ages. "East, Towards the Rising Sun" was the invitation to my future. Unknown, wild, wonderous.
The Yellow Umbrella
All around, on this very gray day, other people rush by with their black umbrellas and blue umbrellas and brown umbrellas. Then she sees it, about halfway down the block, a flash of yellow, like a butterfly fluttering above the crowd.
This episode is a short story. Though essentially fiction, it blends in seeds of my own emotions and experiences with longing, love and letting go.
Home is Simple
This Too, Is True
For the last months of my mother's life, my sister and I were her 24/7 caregivers. For anyone who has gone through caregiving, you understand what a wild range of emotions it is. The heartache, the grief at where we are headed. The tenderness, the honor that is being of service in this way. But also, the part that is harder to confess, the anger, the frustration, the resentment. And for me, at times, the sense that life was passing me by.
This week's episode is an exploration of that rollercoaster of emotions. Giving voice, permission to feel all of it. The light, the dark, the communion, the regret.
It is only in this way that we can have compassion for ourselves, and navigate such hard times.
Wanted: Women Who Believe in Magic, Mystery and Miracles
When I was a little girl, my sister and I would go down to the garden to play “witches.” We’d get dressed up, borrow one of my mother’s pots and head out to make our brew. We’d add leaves, berries, the occasional snail, and some water. Thankfully, we didn’t drink the brew, but we’d call out our spells, wave our wands, laughing and cackling for hours.
As little ones, magic came easily, always at our fingertips. I want that back. I want that communion back.
There are moments when I open myself to it; I can feel it rippling through me, the magic. Not the “transport me to another room,” but the profound realization that we are miracles. The earth, her inhabitants, that there is water to drink, oxygen to breathe, all miraculous. The spark that is the difference between life and death, beyond comprehension.
This podcast, “Wanted: Women Who Believe in Magic,” is a calling, an invocation. For us to drop down below the seeming surface of the every day, open our eyes, and believe.
Let Me Feel This
There have been periods in my life when I have felt less than inspired and motivated, questioning purpose and direction. I remember praying for that spark, that awakening of a project, something that would excite me and light me up. But as month after month went by nary a flicker, I began to worry that I was doing 'nothing with my life.' Was I wasting this precious gift? And that sent me into the exploration that is this podcast. How can we find value and worthiness in the everyday. Not just when we're on fire with a new passion, but in the moment by moment, minute by minute that is us, living our lives.
Love in the Kitchen
For those of you who’ve had teenagers, or really, any relationship in which no matter how much you love someone, it seems as if there no way to reach them across the divide.
In times like that, perhaps the invitation is to consider other ways to express love that is not relying on words. Words that can trap us, trip us up, leaving us further apart than before.
In this week’s episode, I remember a time when my daughter was younger and the wall between us was tall and wide. And one evening, I discovered the magic of putting love into my soup…
A Woman of the Earth
What freedom can be found in remembering that we are OF the earth, not separate from Her?
One day, during the Covid lockdown, I looked in the mirror and noticed how far I had come from my typical 'out in the world' self: with my wild hair, ragged pajama bottoms, and, yes, I noticed how I smelled.
But this intrigued me and inspired an exploration into what it would feel like to surrender to our natural selves, our original selves, without trying to hide and cover up so much.
A "Woman of the Earth" is a dive into the beauty of all that we are. That reflects the life we have lived. From the silver scars of childbirth to the roundness of our hips to the lines that are our laugh lines, grief lines, may this Woman give you permission to be yourself.
Gardens of Plastic and Stone
Living in Los Angeles, the distress from the ever-worsening drought is palpable. And as a landscape designer, I hear over and over that folks are struggling for affordable answers as they watch their lawns turn to dust. Unfortunately, in the absence of viable options, they are resorting to paving them over with pebbles, or worse with artificial grass, making conditions even worse. This week's episode considers a possibility that bridges the gap between dying lawns and a completely transformed landscape. We call it "20% for Nature." Come listen.
Coming to the Mat
Last year, as a result of some issues with my feet, I took up yoga. That new practice, which became more about a commitment to my body, and less about how easily I could touch my feet, inspired a new relationship with my body. She became a friend. And with that a different way of caring for her/us. Thank you for listening.
It feels like every time we pick up the paper or listen to the news there is another horrific thing that has happened that breaks our hearts. It's easy to forget that in the midst of the chaos and pain there is still beauty, grace, and joy. 'Accidental Joy' is about finding joy in an unlikely place. Thank you for listening.
We Are Enough
How often do we struggle with worthiness or a sense of belonging? For as long as I can remember I have looked outside for an invitation to join the circle, to be made welcome. This piece explores what it would feel like to claim our own lives and create our own circle of abundance and welcome. Thank you for listening.