
Sponge
By Ithaka O.

SpongeNov 16, 2023

043_A dreamer dreams a polar dream.
“Objectivity as represented in the stereotypical Enlightenment way relies on the separation between observer and observee, when, in reality, in actual reality, the two cannot be separated and therefore objectivity isn’t objective in the way that a separationist dreams of.”
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Resources for this episode
- "The Spectral Arctic: A History of Dreams and Ghosts in Polar Exploration" by Shane McCorristine
- Shane McCorristine
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/043-a-dreamer-dreams-a-polar-dream/
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042_I don't know what I know.
”Unconscious and subconscious information rises to the surface of the conscious all the time.”
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/042-i-dont-know-what-i-know/
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041_Eerie, meanie, gory, woe. Symmetry softens random blows.
“If only there had been some kind of explanation. Any explanation.”
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/041-eerie-meanie-gory-woe-symmetry-softens-random-blows/
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040_The power move called submission.
“There is comfort in obeying authority.”
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Resources for this episode
- “Professor Marston and the Wonder Women”
- “DISC assessment”
- “MBTI” (Myers Briggs Type Indicator)
- Yin Yang
- “Eureka”
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/040-the-power-move-called-submission/
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039_Fire and water rebirth the transformer.
“It would be so nice if humans, in general, could overcome their own limitations before things hit the bottom. However, maybe it’s not possible, especially without hitting an emotional bottom first.”
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Resources for this episode
- “V for Vendetta”
- Episode 31 about my hairstyle change
- “I Found A Reason,” sung by Cat Power
- “Chungking Express”
- Game of Thrones
- Previous episode about no-needless-suffering meditation
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/039-fire-and-water-rebirth-the-transformer/
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038_To suffer, or not to suffer, that is the question.
“Perhaps the most crucial choice that we make is whether to struggle or not. And if and when one chooses to stop struggling, the struggle stops. Rationalization, intellectualization, as well as reasoning cease to matter. Instead, what matters begins to matter.”
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/038-to-suffer-or-not-to-suffer-that-is-the-question/
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037_The universe trickles into (out of?) me via the Klein bottle.
“Perhaps I should live my life the way I write fiction, especially the way I write fiction with so-called restrictions.”
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Resources for this episode
- “Random Word Grotesqueries”
- “Agora Phantasmagoria”
- “Watermelon Love Song”
- Dean Wesley Smith
- Klein bottle
Full transcript and links
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036_Full emptiness, empty fullness.
“If there is something to be found in emptiness, can such an emptiness be truly empty? What does it even mean for something to be empty?”
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Resources for this episode
- “La jeune fille sans mains (The Girl Without Hands)”
- “The Tale of the Princess Kaguya (film)”
- Studio Ghibli
- 007 ⌨️ By showing its true colors, a story unfolds.
- “Noir Urbanisms”
- Animated wonder
- “Sin City”
- “300”
- 035_The present vanished into the past in the future.
- Why Physics Says You Can Never Actually Touch Anything
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/036-full-emptiness-empty-fullness/
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035_The present vanished into the past in the future.
“In the present, the past has vanished and the future has not yet materialized. Thus, the past is a figment of the imagination and so is the future. Moreover, in the future, the present will become the past, and in the past, the present was the future, so this very present moment either will be a figment of the imagination or used to be one. Given this, what is the desire to be in the past, the future, or the present? Moreover, what does it mean to be in the past, the future, or the present?”
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/035-the-present-vanished-into-the-past-in-the-future/
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034_Merry Nostalgia, Mr. Sakamoto.
“The playful obsession with one’s state of being, independent of artificial constructs, is a fundamental element in finding a creative well that never dries up.”
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Resources for this episode
- “Ryuichi Sakamoto: Coda”
- Donald Glover
- “Her”
- “Beef”
- Yellow Magic Orchestra
- Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence
- From “The Revenant”
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/034-merry-nostalgia-mr-sakamoto/
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033_Message received.
“In articulating a message, delivering it by using the stories the recipient is accustomed to is highly effective.”
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/033-message-received/
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032_To a world of unconditional love.
“One cannot give what one hasn’t unveiled in oneself; moreover, one cannot receive what one hasn’t unveiled in oneself. So it is with unconditional love.”
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Resources for this episode
- “Joe Bell” directed by Reinaldo Marcus Green
- The Youtube video from a Korean spirituality channel where I heard the phrase “conditional love is like hatred.”
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/032-to-a-world-of-unconditional-love/
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031_Mother Daughter Head Shaver.
“Opposing extremes coexist in a person, and an experience that allows a person to see that in a short period of time can have a freeing effect.”
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/031-mother-daughter-head-shaver/
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030_Laughing my way out of horror.
“Humor makes the most gruesome horror bearable—even enjoyable.”
😂🔪😂
Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/030-laughing-my-way-out-of-horror/
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029_!Shock!
“Shock value is underrated, especially the value of sustained shock, considering that it is an excellent way to veil other sustained emotions that may not be as immediately appealing as shock.”
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Resources for this episode
- “Snuff” by Chuck Palahniuk
- Episode 18, “Freeze-blue glaciers for your burning-hot wound.”
- Shock Value
- Episode 28, “The path of least resistance to the core.”
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/029-shock/
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028_The path of least resistance to the core.
“The biggest step toward taking the path of least resistance is deciding to acknowledge what that path is for oneself at a given moment, without automatically accepting the norms of one’s surroundings.”
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Chapters
- 00:00:00 --- Opening
- 00:21:52 --- Zeitgeist reflector
- 00:36:36 --- Lazy adoption of mainstream paradigms
- 00:52:07 --- The (new) path of least resistance
- 01:17:13 --- Body work
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Resources for this episode
- “The Burnout Society” by Han Byung-Chul
- Han Byung-Chul
- Philosopher, Culture Theorist Byung-Chul Han's Commencement Speech
- Ep. 18, “Freeze-blue glaciers for your burning-hot wound.”
- from Aim Dreaming: [Ep. 41] 피로사회: 그 너머의, 숨 쉬듯 하는 사랑
- “How technology changes the way we understand ourselves.”
- NPC
- Path of least resistance
- My Buy Me a Coffee page
- Episode 25, “Every-other-Thursday’s child has far to go.”
- Episode 26, “She is the air he breaths.”
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/028-the-path-of-least-resistance-to-the-core/
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027_No one way to hear the music.
“Until we find a way to safely and reliably break down the barriers of what we have come to call “the five senses,” the easiest way to see something that can’t be seen, taste something that can’t be tasted, touch something that can’t be touched, smell something that can’t be smelled, and hear something that can’t be heard is through writing.”
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Chapters
- 00:00:00 --- Opening
- 00:05:53 --- The futility of counting senses
- 00:14:25 --- AIs and barriers of senses
- 00:22:24 --- Mushrooms
- 00:26:33 --- Writing, the smoothest barrier-breaker + audiophile
- 00:56:05 --- Finally, some Chopin + how Zach died
- 01:39:03 --- Other renditions of the sonata
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Resources for this episode
- “Final Fugue” by Ithaka O.
- “Humans have a lot more than five senses—here are 18”
- “The Doors of Perception” and “Heaven and Hell” by Aldous Huxley
- Synesthesia
- “Arrival”
- “High Dose SHROOMS Trip Simulation (POV)”
- “Fantastic Fungi”
- “Fantastic Fungi” post from June 13, 2022
- Hotel Between Worlds series
- “Undoing Cycles” by Ithaka O.
- Episode 22, “You walk in the forest.”
- Ithaka On My Mind on Spotify (for the story playlists)
- “Agora Phantasmagoria” by Ithaka O.
- “Your Ears Can Actually Tell The Difference Between Hot And Cold water”
- 고막사람gomaksaram
- “The History of Plumbing in New York City”
- The Piano Sonata No. 2 in B♭ minor, Op. 35
- The Piano Sonata No. 2 in B♭ minor, Op. 35 played by Josef Hofmann (Publisher info: Everest LP, 1929.)
- Evgeny Kissin's play
- Cho Seong-Jin's play
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/027-no-one-way-to-hear-the-music/
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026_She is the air he breathes.
“When we’re presented with the option to find meaning through play, meaning that solely comes from stability swiftly loses ground.”
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Chapters
Not exactly three hours, but this episode is still pretty long. So, it has chapters.
- 00:00:00 --- Opening
- 00:07:10 --- Stability without the charm of meaning
- 00:22:54 --- Marriage and affairs
- 00:35:30 --- Humans, suckers for meaning
- 00:44:33 --- Edited puzzles
- 00:54:33 --- The Other Woman
- 00:59:09 --- Co-puzzling
- 01:06:50 --- Foreign language pattern matching and being in sync
- 01:31:10 --- Insomnia and the meaning of life
- 01:55:43 --- Old puzzle, new puzzle, and the final scene
- 02:14:14 --- Some lines from a poem
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/026-she-is-the-air-he-breathes/
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025_Every-other-Thursday’s child has far to go.
“No amount of information does any good, if not acted upon, and the best way to act upon anything is to form a steady, healthy, and supportive long-term relationship.”
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Resources for this episode
- Burnout Society (Müdigkeitsgesellschaft)
- Monday’s Child
- The meaning of Thursday’s child
- Decision to Leave (헤어질 결심)
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/025-every-other-thursdays-child-has-far-to-go/
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024_To live long and prosper.
“Within a given life, longevity trumps almost everything else.”
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Resources for this episode
- Coil
- Payhip
- MacMillan buys Pronoun (2016.5.26.)
- MacMillan shuts down Pronoun (2017.11.9.)
- Draft2Digital
- Streetlib
- Publishdrive
- Sponge sustainability thoughts (From February 2023)
- A post that I read a long time ago. (From January 2023)
- soulless labor by “Stories. Not a blog.”
- My Buy Me a Coffee page
- BTC love: bc1qcna5ufd8gdxm6zkll8nxmskp0cx2nsw6lrzm5u
- Episode 3, "I have an excellent example of a monopoly that must die."
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/024-to-live-long-and-prosper/
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023_We don't know what we don't know, but we can know we don't know.
"The belief that the acceptance of the existence of the unknowable contradicts reason and logic is one of the most unreasonable and illogical beliefs to cling to."
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
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022_You walk in the forest.
"The terror of not knowing what is going to happen next is one of the most freeing feelings for some creators."
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Resources for this episode
- "Undoing Cycles" by Ithaka O.
- Dean Wesley Smith
- "Writing into the Dark" by Dean Wesley Smith
- Kristine Kathryn Rusch
- "Tim’s Vermeer," a documentary
- "Ithaka" by C.P. Cavafy
- Ithaka’s Fiction
- Ithaka’s Blog
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/022-you-walk-in-the-forest/
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021_What does Ithaka sound like in German and Korean?
"A listener who shall remain anonymous asked me if I could record something in German and Korean, because this listener wondered what I sound like in those languages."
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Resources for this episode
- Aim Dreaming (아임 드리밍) podcast
- “비워뒀던 자리와 하지 않은 모든 것들”
- "Die Verwandlung" by Franz Kafka on Project Gutenberg
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/021-what-does-ithaka-sound-like-in-german-and-korean/
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020_To fall in love with pain leads to no gain.
"Pain might be an inevitable part of our lives. But even so, pain is, on its own, utterly meaningless beyond the fact that the word means pain."
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Resources for this episode
- “Repetitive Strain Injury: A Computer User’s Guide” by Emil Pascarelli and Deborah Quilter
- Episode 18, “Freeze-blue glaciers for your burning-hot wound.”
- Episode 19, “Let it be known that I do not object to the machine overlords.”
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/020-to-fall-in-love-with-pain-leads-to-no-gain/
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019_Let it be known that I do not object to the machine overlords.
"To worry about the demise of human translation due to AI is to both underestimate and overestimate translations. And, perhaps, by extension, to worry about the demise of human narration due to AI is to both underestimate and overestimate narrations."
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Resources for this episode
- Google Books came out with a tool that writers could use to have their ebooks on Google Books narrated by AIs
- DeepL
- "Because They Don’t Bleed Red" (my SF story)
- Scrivener
- Vellum
- “Be Yourself. Everyone Else Is Already Taken.”
Full transcript and links
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🚨Please Note🚨
This episode was prepared in late November/early December 2022. I learned in mid-December that Google Play Books now allows for multiple narrators in their AI narration tool. (The tool lets you set a "Default narrator" and "Additional characters," with different voices.) Please keep that in mind as you listen to this episode.

018_Freeze-blue glaciers for your burning-hot wound.
"To eliminate suffering altogether is to eliminate too fundamental an element from life. Besides, sometimes, suffering is the path to beauty."
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/018-freeze-blue-glaciers-for-your-burning-hot-wound/
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017_Hey sister! Hey mister! Am I your type? (Was? Will be?)
"Personality tests cannot help but be accurate representations of the present, but they cannot predict the future."
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Resources for this episode
- Where I took my free MBTI test
- MBTI test, according to Wikipedia
- Percentage of each personality type
- my Korean podcast, 아임 드리밍
- my English blog
- my Korean blog
- my newsletter -- this one exists no more! (for now)
- my Korean newsletter
- My fiction in English
- My fiction in Korean
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/017-hey-sister-hey-mister-am-i-your-type-was-will-be/
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016_Darling, destroy me, for you're beautiful.
"The possibility of destruction is the most seducing element of beauty."
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Resources for this episode
- “Why Were The Nazis So Stylish? // Secret History Revealed”
- “Real Men Real Style” Channel
- “Monstrosity: The Human Monster in Visual Culture” by Alexa Wright
- Mob Boss style
- Viking style
- Cowboy style
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/016-darling-destroy-me-for-youre-beautiful/
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015_The most time-consuming kink ever.
"Some kinks cannot be satisfied with a simple, honest erotica story."
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Resources for this episode
- Ithaka's Blog
- "The Complete Guide to Writing Erotica: Launch Your Erotica-Writing Gig to Success: The Writing Business" by Sophie Chandler
- “Henry and June” by Anaïs Nin
- Chuck Palahniuk
- Big Bang Theory
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/015-the-most-time-consuming-kink-ever/
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014_We need to talk about love at actually-not-first sight.
"Love at first sight isn’t as first as it might appear at first sight."
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Resources for this episode
- “Superluminal” by Vonda N. McIntyre
- “Dreamsnake” by Vonda N. McIntyre
- Clarktech
- Endgame, per Merriam-Webster
- Endgame, per Urban Dictionary
- Gossip Girl
- “The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma” by Bessel van der Kolk
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/014-we-need-to-talk-about-love-at-actually-not-first-sight/
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013_Criminals and sinners, but never everywhere to everyone.
"There are always worse crimes than a given crime, and worse sins than a given sin, in one person’s eyes or another."
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Resources for this episode
- “The Radleys” by Matt Haig
- “Twighlight” by Stephenie Meyer
- "The Mirror and the Palette" by Jennifer Higgie
- "Les Misérables" by Victor Hugo
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/013-criminals-and-sinners-but-never-everywhere-to-everyone/
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012_Let me feel your flesh, blood, and bones.
"Practicing what you preach while preaching is totally possible, and to do that, you just gotta do some things yourself."
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/012-let-me-feel-your-flesh-blood-and-bones/
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011_Will you burn my evil books, please?
"To have my books burned would be an honor."
📕📕📕
Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/011-will-you-burn-my-evil-books-please/
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010_Begone, devil, for you don't know my name and face.
"There is a part of us that wants to believe that the knowledge of an opponent’s face and name holds power."
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Resources for this episode
- Death Note
- "Lullaby" by Chuck Palahniuk
- Harlan Elllson tells you to pay the writer
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/010-begone-devil-for-you-dont-know-my-name-and-face/
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009_I dream of a flying home.
"A flying castle might be too much, but a flying house would be ideal."
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/009-i-dream-of-a-flying-home/
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008_You think you know her, but really, you don’t.
"Anything can be a mirror."
🧊🧊🧊
Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/008-you-think-you-know-her-but-really-you-dont/
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007 ⌨️ Written Segment Alert: By showing its true colors, a story unfolds.
"Skin color, as well as all other colors, can be chosen for effective and efficient propaganda."
[There aren't any recorded alerts for written episodes other than this one. You can see all written episodes here: https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/written/]
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Resources for this episode
Full written segment and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/written/007-by-showing-its-true-colors-a-story-unfolds/
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006_The pursuit of the One Story is futile.
"Every era and every place has its romanticized ideology."
💍💍💍
Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/006-the-pursuit-of-the-one-story-is-futile/
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005_Between grotesque complexity and smooth oneness, we chew.
"The more complicated an organism’s features, the more repulsive they get for other organisms."
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/005-between-grotesque-complexity-and-smooth-oneness-we-chew
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004_A smile harbors grotesqueries.
"Too much power makes a person powerless."
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/004-a-smile-harbors-grotesqueries/
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003_I have an excellent example of a monopoly that must die.
"Bowker’s existence is a disgrace to American capitalism and along with Bowker, all monopolies should die."
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/003-i-have-an-excellent-example-of-a-monopoly-that-must-die
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002_I shall draw from the body of legendary wheels.
"To make something richly meaningful, don’t reinvent the wheel, just draw from the body of legendary wheels."
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Resources for this episode
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/002-i-shall-draw-from-the-body-of-legendary-wheels/
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001_I do it for love. The market decides.
“There was no past in the history of humanity that can be glorified for the separation between art and the market.”
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Resources for this episode
- "The Mirror and the Palette" by Jennifer Higgie
- How to Pronounce the Names of Some Dutch Painting Masters
- Dutch Golden Age
Full transcript and links
https://sponge.ithakaonmymind.com/audio/i-do-it-for-love-the-market-decides/
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