The streamingconsciousness's Podcast

Remembering what was with gratitude and taking about what it taught me.

Asking for help. Asking for love. Revealing how much we rely on loved ones. Why’s it all do terrifying? I give some of my reasons. And what I want to do about it.

Healing. The much vaunted healing process. I know it’s important and stuff but does it have to be so annoying? Oh. And I’m happy again. Finally. Two corrections: Wayne Dyer was not the author of The Family Crucible; that was Drs by Augustus Y. Napier and Carl A. Whitaker. And of course I meant Han Solo and Indiana Jones, not Luke Skywalker.

While listening to Lewis Howe's interview with Ester Perel, psychologist and relationship expert. She described something called the Michelangelo Phenomenon in relationships. It blew my mind and caused me to think about my own relationship with the concept.
Psychology Today: The Michelangelo Effect
Current Directions In Psychological Science: The Michelangelo Phenomenon

Or does it matter? Have we invented the gulf between logic and emotion? Dunno. Let’s see.

The ridiculousness that seemed to spring up from nowhere and won't seem to die.

In which I share my wrestling with myself, others opinions of me, and my opinion of myself among others. Annnd then I went into pretty privilege. That will be part two.

Life breaks us, smashes us beyond all recognition sometimes. The process of unbreaking is hard, messy and turns us into something -- someone, completely else. But there is an art to it.

Stream of consciousness discussion about Noah Green's suicide by cop, falling in love and the poetry of Edna St. Vincent Millay.

Trigger warning: For mentions of suicide

Please take care of yourself and those you love below are resources for those who are struggling during this difficult time.

1-301-449-3082 Association of Black Psychologists

1-800-950-6254 National Alliance for Mental Illness

1-800-273-8255 Suicide Prevention Lifeline

1-240-485-1001 Anxiety and Depression Association of America

In which I discuss how not apologizing when you should creates all manner of drama. And why white supremacy means never having to say you're sorry.

In which I break down how I have decided to have conversations with white friends about their areas of unconsciousness around race, and why the 'heart stuff' might be so hard for black women.

In which I start learning how to have difficult conversations with white friends about their areas of racial unconsciousness.

A little more night music, because I was in a yearning mood. I love sad love songs. So of course, any love song evening must include a song by Adele (i deeply apologize). And talking a bit about my adventures difficult conversations. Talking with Nice White Lady friends about their unconscious race issues.

What's love got to do with it? The age old question from that amazing Tina Turner Song. Every human alive has loved someone or something. But love's processes, its definitions are different depending on who you speak to. In this podcast, I puzzle through my own thoughts and feelings about love and heartbreak.

Relaxing, whispered performance of Edna St Vincent Millay's Never May The Fruit Be Plucked, Hyacinth, To One Who Might Have Borne A Message and The Siege

In which I ask questions and talk about my own views of femininity.

I love ASMR and the far too long undersung poet, Edna St Vincent Millay. Occassionally you'll find the two brought together here on my podcast. While this first entry is pretty sad, the power and resonance of the verses cannot be denied. I hope you will agree.

I ramble on about what I loved about Discovery's season 2 and chat a little with a couple of listeners about women in sci fi.

In which I talk about:

Randomness

Friends

The unexpected discomfort of representation

The future of Netflix

Annnd my general awkwardness

Chronic Illness and the processes of losing and finding oneself.