The Health of the People

I am finally beginning to understand the intensity of the impact that the last three years has had on me, and am feeling just how deep the burnout really is. Join me as I reflect on all of that, and find out what I discovered in a flock of birds dancing over the lake.

Have you ever heard of liminal spaces? I haven't been able to stop thinking about them and the miracles that can be found when we are in that shaky and uncertain space of the in between.

Our bodies have a really cool way of communicating with us, and when we don't listen, it finds another way.  Of course, it is MUCH easier to decode these experiences from the outside.  But last week I noticed something about my hips and this nagging feeling of instability that has been following me around lately.

I had an unexpected trip to the vet with Chloe tonight, so please enjoy this Replay Reminder of I've Got 99 Problems and My Closet is One. 

When the feels get too big, I tend to go into an "all or nothing" mode with my emotions.  Ok, lets be real, I am all or nothing with most things in my life.  And over the years, I have discovered ways to interrupt the cycle from detached to overwhelm and back again.  That's what I'm rambling about today.

When you hear the phrase "gut feelings", what comes to mind?  My mind went in a myriad of directions with it.  Join me as I peel back the layers and discuss different connotations of our gut feelings.

What does learning a dance routine have to do with your weekly weigh-in?  Maybe the similarities will surprise you as much as they did me. 

It's my birthday, and I had a pretty great realization today.  I can't wait to share it with you. 

I don't know about you, but I grew up believing that if you had a job, you had people relying on you.  No matter what, you couldn't let them down.  So I would push through all kinds of sicknesses and injuries, because there was a job to be done and it was my obligation to be there... No matter what.  Sound familiar?  Today, I saw the impact that belief still has on me today, and recognized the unworkability of ignoring a request from our bodies. 

If I could scream it from the rafters, if I could wave my magic wand, if I could somehow implant this knowledge into the hearts and minds of every human being, and ESPECIALLY every medical professional, I would say "it's time to take the morality out of food".  AKA: A bit of a rant on our culture of body shaming and fat bias.

Today I found my survival trigger pushed, and my anxiety loop threatened to engage.  And then I remembered the prompt I released last week for Manifest 2023, and that shifted everything. 

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Today, I'm sharing a little more about my trip to Panama and what there was to be learned from catching an infectious disease in a foreign land.  Spoiler: I did make it out alive. 

Ok, so I meant this to be a quick update, and then ended up getting so excited about everything that I have to tell you, that it's a full one.  I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL YOU!

I am still reeling from the recent rulings of the SCOTUS when I learned about another tragedy too close to home.  I need time to process and grieve. 

We made it to 100 episodes!  Here's all the fun and exciting things we have to celebrate! And also BIG ANNOUNCEMENT! Woo!

I've been sorting through some of the amazing work I did back at the beginning of 2020, and I found this gem.  Boy, am I excited to share this with you!  Join in and play along as I kick off the Empowerment Series as we talk about taking inventory and getting clear with where we stand. If you decide to follow along with the exercise, choose one, some or ALL of the prompts to examine for yourself.

I've been examining areas where I feel like I'm not enough, and practicing letting that go.  Want to see what the process has been like for me?  Tune in, and let me know if there are areas where you've got "too much not enough".

A LOT of life has happened since we were last together, and some circumstances that were beyond my control got me thinking.  When things are happening that are beyond my control, how can I apply those three little letters in ASK?

It is crunch time prepping for my next doctoral residency week IN PERSON!!!! It's been over two years since I've gotten to see my friends and be on campus in Austin.  I can't wait to get back, and I have. SO. MUCH. WORK. to do to get there.  So I'm taking a quick pause, and when we come back, we will be celebrating our TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY! Catch you on the other side!

TW: I'm talking about disordered eating, so if you need to sit this one out, please take care of you.  

I got myself a new gadget to measure my metabolic flexibility, and I have gained a whole new understanding of the impact of food.  Check it out!

We did the spring-forward with our clocks and my whole internal clock is off, so let's take a listen back and ask ourselves "Am I cheating on me?"

I got stuck in a pantry rabbit hole and didn't realize it until today.  Instead of exerting energy on make-wrong, I am looking at how we can embrace our individuality when it comes to organizing our worlds.

I used to make myself all kinds of wrong when the "I-don't-wannas" showed up.  It was pretty refreshing to notice what was driving the car when they showed up today.

I just hit a milestone in my doctoral program, and it has me thinking about everything that has gotten me to here.

I've been dealing with a bit of a non-covid virus, so I'm taking this week off.  Please enjoy this replay reminder of Leaning Into the Tug of More while I recoup!

I just turned 41, and have been reflecting on the last year while I look to the year ahead.  Join me as I talk about what I plan on my 41st year having in store, and the goal crushing steps that will get me there!

I have had a little fever off and on since last week, and it's got me thinking... Why did it take a global pandemic for us to give ourselves permission to be sick?  Join me as I unravel how I learned to just push through illness, and how tiny paintings have been helping me heal. 

I got caught up playing in the kitchen and lost track of time.  Oops!  But my poor planning is a great opportunity to catch up on this oldie but goodie, When You Wish Upon a Thai Constellation. 

Every year, I come up with a word that is my over-arching theme throughout.  Join me as I look at how "failing" at my detox got me connected to something deeper when I began exploring how my word of the year fit in. 

I'm on day two of a detox, and ALLLLLLL I could think about this morning was my favorite restaurant's meatball sub.... the same restaurant where I had lunch plans today.  Did I stick to the plan?  Did I give in to temptation? Tune in as I explore what it looks like to cheat on ourselves.

I got my covid booster and am feeling a little under the weather, so in the spirit of the pivot, please enjoy this reminder of a return to being.  

We've made it through another Covid Christmas. I shoved all of my difficult emotions all the way away until last night when they came crashing down.  Join me as I explore the ways ignoring an imbalance in one of our pillars can have a domino effect on the others.   

A childhood dream of mine was almost thwarted this weekend, and it has me looking at ways that we learned to deal with difficult emotions.  Join me as I explore our how our relationship to our inner child is related to our five pillars of well-being, and how we can start shifting our unconscious coping strategies from our childhood.

A funny thing happens when you start disconnecting from all the noise of the world for four minutes a day.  Come explore with me as I look at where and how I've taken on letting go of the anchor, embracing where I am, and aiming for the future. 

What the heck is body stirring, and what does it have to do with stuck ribs?  Join me this week as we begin to take a deeper dive into the Five Pillars, and look at some real life ways to take stock of your well-being.

I'm back! I couldn't wait til next week, so we're getting right back at it, feeling refreshed and rejuvenated and ready to go!  Join me as we take a cursory glance at the Five Pillars of Well-being, and how they can be used to bring balance to your life. 

I have a killer headache today, so I'm taking a self care break.  This is one of my favorite conversations about anxiety! Take a listen.

I meant to go to the grocery store yesterday, but I was so exhausted I ended up taking a two hour nap instead.  No big deal, but the little impact it had on the week opened my eyes up to a bigger picture.  Check it out. 

The past six weeks have been kind of a whirlwind of processing old traumas and dealing with new.  Yay for healing.  And then, last week, in the middle of an active trauma response, I posted a TikTok video that went viral.  Here's one of the things I learned from the experience of TikToking while also trauma-ing.

Well, I recorded a new episode, but it seems that it is not uploading.  So let's revisit a conversation from the beginning of August about finding balance between all or nothing.

I ordered myself a kind of rare and exotic houseplant..... and it's not doing so great.  Listen in as I unravel the yarn ball around the emotions that came up around... yup... a houseplant.